I was lying on my hip, just as Ben was too. My hand on his face stroking his cheek and pulling his hair from his face as he was still peacefully sleeping with his arm around me. I couldn't take a smile from my face as I was looking at him sleeping, knowing that he is all mine and that I woke up beside him for one more morning.
"Staring is not nice" he mumbled with still closed eyes
"Who stares at who?" I asked
"Me at you, even if my eyes are closed" he said as I just hugged him tightly resting my chin on the top of his head
"hey" he mumbled leaving kiss up my breast
"Stop it" I laughed pushing his head off my chest
"How are your ribs?" he asked looking at me
"You almost ripped the whole bandage" I said as the smirk was on his still sleepy face
"I would take care of it for next few days anyway" he said, and I raised my eyebrow "don't you think you will put Vaseline ointment on it, you don't know how to do it so it will be my job" he winked at me pulling me closer to him
"I think it fell" I said laughing as I brushed my left side of body over bed
"Let me check it" he said flipping me over, so I was lying on my back, and he came on the top of me
"Eyes Ela, don't become horny ass again" he said pointing to his eyes, how could I not stare at his body while I know it is all mine? "Okay, it's about to fall but it also past 12 hours since it was put on so it's better if we clean it up and then wrap it up again" he instructed as I was just looking at his abs
"What if I say we are not having sex for another few.... months?!" he said asking as I immediately looked at him
"No, no Ben, don't" I shook my head
"After sex you're more possessive than before it, you know that?" he asked looking at me seriously as he was kneeling in front of me
"I can't help it" I mumbled
"I'm fighting with myself too, Ela" he smiled
"Then don't" I said that quietly that I barely heard myself
"Your body is not my sex toy" he said and stood up taking bandage with him
Your body is not my sex toy, what does that even mean? What has he meant with that?
"Ben" I knocked on bathroom's door as past few minutes of him not coming out
~THIRD PERSON~
"Is everything okay in there?" Ela asked
Ben was standing in front of mirror, supported with his hands on sink as he was thinking about what he told his girlfriend few minutes ago.
He meant what he said, she is not his sex toy, and he didn't what to use her every time he feels needy for her. He never felt this way before, he never had this much need and that often need for someone that he is now having for her, that's why he was scared. He was scared that she would think he is crazy about sex, that he just uses her, but that was not true. He wasn't using her, he was loving her, more than anything in world and that's why those thoughts flew up in this moment. He has been talking with James, Harvey, Reece and Mason about a lot of things about him and Ela because he needed advice, the most from James, after all he has strong relationship and a little baby boy from it.
This relationship with Ela has been Ben's most serious relationship, no matter that it still wasn't the longest, but he had with Ela everything he hadn't had in his past relationships.
~MANUELA~
"you're worrying me, Ben" I said worried and scared what is happening with him in the bathroom
"everything's okay, don't worry" Ben said as he walked out of bathroom
"what's wrong?" I asked cupping his face
"everything's okay, I'm going for run" he said, kissed my forehead and left the room soon enough front door slammed what scared me even more
Your body is not my sex toy, the sentence that changed our day from the bottom.
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"Are you ready?" Ben asked smiling as we were walking towards hot air balloon hand in hand
"yes" I said as he pulled me closer to him leaving kiss on the top of my head
The sun was setting, and it all was even more beautiful, but situation from earlier this morning was still worrying me.
We were flying upon the London as sun was setting, Ben's arm wrapped around my waist as I was resting my head on his shoulder, and he was resting his head on mine.
"I'm sorry about my behaviour today" Ben said taking my hands in his as we turned to face each other
"I'm going through something at the moment, and it influence on my mood.... I believe you Els, I really do but....I just....I just can't tell you right now, I need time to sort everything in my head and...." he said as I felt my heart twisted
"Are you bre-"
"No, oh god, no, I'm not breaking up with you, look" he took a deep breath looking away from me but a second later he looked back at me "I know this just makes you worry even more now, but I swear there is nothing to worry about, I'm working on getting things right in my head. Don't worry, please" he said cupping my face and leaning his forehead onto mine
"Have I done something wrong?" I asked feeling bad, but he shook his head
"You can't do anything wrong" he smiled pinching my cheek what caused me to smile "You don't have nothing to worry about" he said and kissed me