Hey, my lovely readers.
How are you all?
Are you all enjoying the book so far?
So I have done a little experiment in this chapter which you will get to know in the later part of it.
Chapter dedicated to Tae_rm2004 who had once suggested me to use Hindi. So your wish was my command dear.
Do let me know how were my dialogues in Hindi. If it hit your nerves or not or was it a flop.
Let's begin with the chapter now.
Siya's POV
I woke to sunrays peeking on my head.
Squinting my eyes for a few seconds, I opened my eyes to see that I was not in my room.
When everything started registering my mind, I roamed my eyes around to see that it was Akash's room but he was nowhere to be seen.
Suddenly I felt a strong pain shoot up my head and I clutched my head in a vise grip while I groaned.
As if on cue, the door burst open and I saw Akash entering the room with few thing in his hands.
I just clutched my head again. God, this headache is unbearable.
"Have this medicine Siya and lemonade. It'll help you subside the headache" he said.
Taking the medicine and lemonade, I lied down on the bed and closed my eyes.
"You should rest a little, you will be fine in a few hours" he said.
I just nodded my head and then I felt a touch of soft lips on my forehead.
I knew who it was but I didn't open my eyes because I love it when he kisses me on the forehead.
My guilty pleasure which I will never let him know.
I just smiled at the thought.
Then I heard door opening and closing with a soft thud indicating that he went away.
After around fifteen minutes I heard the ringing of a phone and I groaned again but...it was not my phone.
Opening my eyes, I searched where the ring was coming from and saw Akash's phone on the bed.
Probably he left it here by mistake.
Taking the phone in my hand, I saw the caller Id and frowned.
Picking up the call and before I could even say anything, I heard Deepak uncle say "Akash, Siya isn't picking up the phone. I just wanted to ask how long will you take to bring her here for the session?"
My eyes widened listening to him.
'Session' I though in my mind.
"I think even Alayna is helping a lot in her recovering. I think our mutual decision to bring her here for the session is really proving out to be fruitful. You can see drastic changes in her" he said.
My breathing was becoming uneven now.
What session and decision is he talking about?
"I must say Akash, you really love her a lot. Relocating altogether to London even when you didn't want do it in the first place is really remarkable. This shows how much you want her to be back to how she was" he said and tear made it's way to my cheeks.
"Un..uncle" I said in a hoarse voice and he stopped talking.
"Si..Siya" he said, a little shocked.
"Ye..yeah it's me. Wh..what sessions are you talking about?" I asked, wiping my tears.
"No..nothing child. It's nothing" he said but his voice came out strained.
"Please uncle, don't hide anything from me. Please, I need to know" I said.
"Siya...child" he said but I cut him off "please uncle. Even I am like your daughter. You've said it yourself, please don't hide anything from me. I am tired of people hiding things from me."
"I.." he said but then stopped.
"What sessions were you talking about?" I asked when I knew he would not say anything.
"Child" he started but then I interrupted him "please don't avoid or lie to me, uncle, please."
"What sessions were you talking about?" I asked again.
"Your...the..therapy sessions" he said and I closed my eyes.
"You mean to say whatever conversation we had, it was all a part of my therapy?" I asked.
"Ye..yes" he said and I burst out crying.
"Siya, child" he said and I shook my head.
"So this was all his plan?" I asked, wiping my tears and opened my eyes.
"No Siya, you are taking it all wrong. When Akash brought you to New York with him, he didn't know how and what to do to get you out of...depression" he said and I muffled my sobs with my palm.
"He was like a lost child. Just like how a child is thrown to the cruel world to make his life, his career and he doesn't know where to start from, he was just the same. The only difference was that instead of making career, he had to bring you back and he didn't know where to start from" he said.
"So all the library...his attempt to make me face people was your idea?" I asked in a whisper.
I couldn't believe, it was all a lie. He did nothing on his own, he did everything according to what Deepak uncle said.
"No, no my child. The library, his attempt to take you to his office so that you would be comfortable around people...it was all his idea and doing. Well you facing people was his idea but he just asked for my opinion if he should do it or not or would it be too much for you to take at a time but then, he took the chances" he said.
"Never think that what he did was all my idea. The therapy and your sessions was something that was mandatory and since I couldn't leave Alayna alone because of my son and daughter-in-law's job, he agreed to relocate here" he said.
"He...he didn't want to come here?" I asked.
Sighing he said "no child. In fact, Sid was supposed to set up London branch but because of the situation that came up, it was mutual decision of Sid and Akash to relocate here, for your sessions with me."
I kept my palms on my mouth and muffled the sobs that were threatening to come out.
"Siya, child" I heard Deepak uncle say and I wiped my tears.
"He...he did it all, for me?" I asked.
"Yes baby, he, Sid and Kriti did it all, for you" he said.
"Even Kriti?" I asked.
"Yes. It was all decided by Akash, Sid and Kriti. They did what you needed to heal. They gave you space to heal, to ponder over your thoughts as well as kept you occupied to not let unwanted and irrational thoughts cloud your mind. They heard all your complaints, your accusations, your hurtful words, your indifferent behavior to them, everything without a second thought, without a complaint so that you could be back to how you were" he said.
"You won't know about it, Siya but I have seen how Akash regrets and curses himself everyday for his decision to leave you. I have seen him crying for you, begging me to take you out of depression, to help you recover. Not because he is guilty of what he has done but because, how can a man see his woman suffering?" he said.
I burst out in tears listening to him and disconnecting the call, kept the phone on the nightstand.
Hugging my knees close to my chest, I buried my face in it.
Everything Akash did makes sense now.
His decision to leave New York and relocate here, his adamant behavior to leave me at Deepak uncle's place, the conversation me and Deepak uncle had, all missing pieces of puzzle were molding now.
Looking up at the ceiling, I closed my eyes and thought about everything that happened since the time Akash brought me to New York.
It was all in front of me but I never acknowledged it.
His love was never fake, it has never been.
Kriti's friendship was never fake, it has never been.
The once two most important people in my life had proved that they loved me enough to tolerate my indifferent and torturous behavior towards them.
Kriti showed me what true friendship is.
Akash showed me what true love is.
"Why do you love me so much, Akash" I mumbled and tears slipped my eyes.
Akash's POV
I was in the living room, waiting for Siya as it had been hours since I gave her medicine but probably, she was still asleep and I didn't want to disturb her.
Just on cue, Sophia entered the room and said "where is your phone, Akash sir?"
Then I noticed that my phone was not with me.
"I think I left it in my room, why?" I said.
"Jannet actually wanted to talk to you regarding something. Since you didn't pick up the call, she called me" she said.
"Okay, I'll just get it. Thank you Sophia" I said and dashed to my room.
When I entered my room, instead of Siya sleeping, I found her looking at the ceiling and her eyes were closed.
I didn't want to disturb her and saw my phone kept at the nightstand.
So, I proceeded to it and taking it in my hand, I was about to leave when I felt a tug on my wrist.
Turning around, I saw Siya holding my hands and she looked at me.
"Stay" she said and I nodded.
Getting under the comforter, I rested my head on the headboard and looked ahead.
"Why did you bring me to London, Akash?" she asked.
Her question took me off guard but even then maintaining my calm, I said "I...I had a branch to set up"
"Lies, all lies Akash. Tell me the real reason why you brought me here?" she asked looking at me with bloodshot eyes and red nose.
"I...I" I was out of words.
"To get me treated right?" she asked and my eyes widened.
"No..No" I said but my words and voice had left the confidence.
"Deepak uncle told me everything, Akash" she said and my heartbeat raced.
"Siya...Siya ...I" I said.
"So it's true right? Even your relocation here was all because of me, right?" she asked.
I just nodded and looked down.
"Why do you love me so much Akash that you didn't even think once before doing everything for me?" she asked.
"Siya...I" I don't know when my eyes welled up with tears.
"You did everything in your power to bring me back, didn't you?" she asked in a hoarse voice.
"Siya, please don't cry" I said and wiped her tears with my thumb.
"I am tired, Akash, I am tired of all this" she said in a whisper.
"Siya..I don't know what you mean and what you want to say" I said.
Is my nightmare coming true? Is she leaving me?
Even the thought of her leaving me was killing me but then...I don't know what is going on in her head.
(Form here the entire conversation is in Hindi. Readers who want to read English translation, please read the conversation between ###. Hope you all don't get confused)
"Mujhe nahi pata zindagi me tum aage nikal gaye the ya main peeche reh gayi thi, par zaruri ye hai ke...ab hum hamkadam hain aur ye tab mumkin hua jab main aage nahi gayi balki tum peeche aye, mere paas, mere liye, mera haath thaam ke mujhe apne sath le jane, ye dikhane ke liye ki..zindagi me bhut kuch aisa hai jispe hamara bas nahi hota" she said and looked ahead at the wall.
"Sochti hu ke agar tum mere paas ni aate to aj bhi main bas tumhara intezaar hi kar rahi hoti, India me, papa ke ghar" she said, chuckling.
"Tum kyu aaye mere paas vapas Akash? Kyu laye apne sath mujhe New York, fir London?" she asked, looking at me.
"Tumhe kaisa akela chhod sakta tha main, Siya? Meri jagah tum hoti to kya tum mujhe chhod deti?" I asked, looking at her.
"Main bas tumhe vapas chahta tha, jaisi tum thi, jaisa maine tumhe dekha tha. Uske liye mujhe kuch bhi karna padta, mai karta" I said, looking ahead.
"Aur tumne kiya bhi" she said and I looked at her.
"Hum dono ne is relationship me galti ki par tumme or mujhme kya fark tha pata hai?" she asked and I shook my head.
"Tumne mujhe maaf karne me ek pal ki bhi deri nahi ki or maine, pata nahi tumhe kitne mahinon tak sataya" she said.
"Meri galti badi this Siya" I said.
"To kya meri galti nahi thi? Kya tumhara dil chain se rehta tha ye soch ke ki main Mohit ke sath hu?" she asked and I looked away.
"Galti galti hoti hai Akash. Badi ya chooti nahi, bas galti hoti hai" she said.
"Hum dono ne vahi kiya jo hume sahi laga. Hum dono halaat ke haatho majbur the, Pehle main, fir tum" she said and I remained quiet.
"Pata hai kal Sophia ne mujhse kya kaha?" she asked.
"Kya?" I asked.
"Ek galti to bhagwan bhi maaf kar deta hai fir insan kya chiz hai?" she said.
"Main insaan hu Akash, bhagwan nahi or tumse pyar karti hu, bahut pyaar karti hu. Tumhe aise haara hua nahi dekh sakti" she said and taking my hand in hers, kissed my knuckles.
"Kya hum pehle jaise ni ho sakte?" she asked and my breath hitched.
"Ky..kya?" I asked.
"Kya hum pehle jaise nahi ho sakte? Pehle jaise, jaise ke humne itna dard kabhi dekha hi nahi ho, na saha ho. Jaise ke hum commited the college me, hamari pictures leak hone se pehle. Vahi se hamare relationship me daraar ayi thi, hai na?" she asked.
"Tu..tum vaise rehna chahti ho?" I asked her skeptically.
"Ha Akash. Bhut dard saha humne, pehle maine, fir tumne or ab ek sath bi seh rahe hain. Hamara pyaar ek dusre ke liye itna kamzor nahi hai ke ye na dekh paye ke...hum ek dusre ke bina nahi reh sakte" she said.
"Kya hum fir se shuru nahi kar sakte, ye sab bhul ke?" she asked.
"Maine tumhe maaf Kiya, Akash" she said and my eyes welled up with tears.
"Si..Siya" I just didn't know what to say.
"Sach me?" I asked.
"Ha, kya hum shuru se shuru nahi kar sakte?" she asked and I hugged her tight.
"Oh Siya, Siya" I chanted and she hugged me back with equal passion.
"Ye meri zindagi ki sabse badi achievement hai, Siya" I said and kissed her hair numerous times.
"Tum meri sabse badi achievement ho, Akash" she said in a hoarse voice.
"Main pyar karti hu tumse. Maine tumhe maaf kiya, par please, ab mujhe chhod ke mat jaana" she said.
"Kabhi nahi" I said in a hoarse voice and keeping my chin on her head, closed my eyes.
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"I don't know if you went ahead in life or I was left behind, the important thing is...we are together now, here and that only became possible when instead of bringing me ahead with you, you decided to step back in life, to me, for me, held my hands to take me with you, to show me that we don't have control over many things in life" she said.
"I sometimes think that if not for you coming back to me, I would still be waiting for you, in India, at papa's house" she said, chuckling
"Why did you come back to me Akash? Why did you bring me to New York, then to London?" she asked, looking at me.
"How could I have possibly left you alone, Siya? Would you have left me if I would have been in your place?" I asked, looking at her.
"I just wanted you back, the way you were, the way I had seen you. I would have done anything to do it" I said, looking ahead.
"And you did it as well" she said and I looked at her.
"We both did mistake in this relationship but do you know what was the difference between you and me?" she asked and I shook my head.
"You didn't even take a minute to forgive me and me, I don't know for how many months I was a pain for you" she said.
"I did a bigger mistake Siya" I said.
"Didn't I commit a mistake? Was you are heart at peace thinking that was with Mohit?" she asked and I looked away.
"Mistake is a mistake, Akash. It doesn't matter whether it is a big or a small mistake, it's still classified as a mistake" she said.
"We both did what we felt was right. We both had to succumb to the circumstances, first I and then you" she said and I remained quiet.
"Do you know what Sophia said to me last night?" she asked.
"What?" I asked.
"Even god forgives a mistake, then what are we in front of him?" she said.
"I am a human being, Akash, not god and I love you, I love you a lot. I cant see you all lost, defeated" she said and taking my hand in hers, kissed my knuckles.
"Can't we be like we used to be?" she asked and my breath hitched.
"Wh..what?" I asked.
"Can't we be like before? Like..like we never had to go through the pain that we went through? The way we were committed in college, before our pictures got leaked when we were in college?" That's where our relationship took a drastic turn from, isn't it?" she asked.
"Do you want to be like that?" I asked her skeptically.
"Yes, Akash. We have been through a lot of pain, first me, then you and now, we both are enduring the pain together. Our love for each other is not so weak that it can't even see that...we can't live without each other" she said.
"Can't we start everything from the beginning, forgetting all of this?" she asked.
"I forgive you, Akash" she said and my eyes welled up with tears.
"Si..Siya" I just didn't know what to say.
"Really?" I asked.
"Yes, let's start from the beginning" she said and I hugged her tight.
"Oh Siya, Siya" I chanted and and she hugged me back with equal passion.
"This is the biggest achievement in my life, Siya. Getting you back" I said and kissed her hair numerous times.
"You are my biggest achievement, Akash" she said in a hoarse voice.
"I love you, I forgive you, please don't leave me now" she said.
"Never" I said in ahorase voice and keeping my chin on her head, closed my eyes.
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