"That day when I almost chocked you is still running through my head every single day and I will never forget myself raising hand on you, I loved you more than anything and I still can't believe that I did something like that to you" he said sounding sorry?
Can I believe them after everything? Can I believe them after what they did to me? Can I believe HIM after he almost chocked me 9 years ago?
"I always avoided someone's touch near my neck because I always saw you having me pinned against that wall and chocking me because she told you it's my fault that she lost baby which she actually didn't lost" I said totally ignoring the fact that I am opening to them after 9 years of not talking with them
"Few months ago, Ben touched my neck in such a gently way, but I felt strong grip of your hands, I scared him by my reaction" I said as now they were both sitting opposite me, but I was still looking at floor
"He was the first person who found about you. Before I got on practice at Cobham, I was living with my best friend that I met when I first got in London. I was looking for apartment to live in when I will start college, but I couldn't find any. One day I accidentally met her, and she told me she is looking for roommate, I moved in with her. We always talked about everything, but she still doesn't know about you nor what happened with my life here, Ben is the only person who knows for that" I said
"You love him?" she asked
"More than anything in the world, he was there when I had breakdown over you, he always makes me happy, he is the best person I've ever met, but it's makes me feel bad that he thinks all of this with medias is his fault. He cares about me more than himself, more than everyone ever cared about me, more than you ever cared about me, you can just imagine then how much he care about me if you as my parents didn't care about me that much" I said and looked at them for the first time since I let my first tears
"Until the age of 23 I didn't had boyfriend, not first kiss, not anything on that way, because after you left me, I didn't believe in love anymore. I always thought parents-kids love is the strongest love in the world but our wasn't and that made me not to believe in love anymore, until I met him. He changed everything, he changed me on better, he changed my mind about love, he is my first love, he was my first kiss.... he was my first time" I said the last thing as quiet as I could, just Ben knows that no one else
"Look at me, I'm telling YOU that personal thing that only him and me knows" I said and barely laughed of how hard my heart was hurting
Next few moments we were just sitting there, in living room, in completely silence.
"I know it's a shame asking you this, but would you think about giving us second chance?" he asked, and I looked at him confused
He wants second chance, they want second chance, but have I, deep in my broken heart, also thought about giving them second chance? I did and I think that is the worse feeling in my life, thinking about if I want or don't want to give my parents another chance.
"Take a time and think about it, but I want you to know that I am really sorry about everything the most about the day I raised my hand on you" dad said
"I'm so sorry for acting like a bitch when you came to see Daisy, I was just scared I will lose her too" she said
"Give me a time" I said and they nodded
"I'm going to Daisy" I said and stood up walking upstairs to Daisy's room
"Hey, you two" I said and weakly smiled at the sight of Ben and Daisy sitting around her desk
Ben looked at me worried, but I gave him my 'everything's okay' or better 'don't worry' look
"Hey Els, I'm drawing Ben" she giggled at me
"And how is mister stubborn going?" I asked walking towards her and looking down at her paper
"I think it's going perfectly fine" she smiled at me and looked back down at her paper every few seconds looking at Ben
I looked at Ben as he just smiled at me shrugging. I sat on the edge of Daisy's bed waiting for her to finish as I was looking around her room finding knew posters on her walls. I walked over one poster and saw Ben on it as on his shirt was his signature. I looked at him as he just smiled once again.
That smile and girl next to him are making me alive and there is no doubt about it.
"I finished" I heard Daisy few minutes later as she put her pencil on her desk
"Can I have a look?" Ben asked and she shook her head
"Ela's first" she smiled at me giving me paper where she drawn Ben
"I think.... I think mister stubborn will want to keep it for himself" I smiled at her
"Can I have a look now?" Ben asked interesting in how Daisy drawn him
"Here mister stubborn" she giggled at Ben giving him paper
"I think I need new frame Ela" he said looking at paper
"Told you" I smiled at Daisy
"it's so beautiful" he said smiling at her as she just shyly whispered thank you, when someone compliment her, she become shy in a second
"Anyway, want to see my cake?" she asked jumping from her stool
"Come on" she took us by hands and lead us downstairs