❗️Trigger Warning❗️
Detailed description of violence, gore, torture, 18+
No words can describe the pain I feel right now. My heart is shattered. My soul is torn apart. Juan is laying on the ground, covered in blood. So much blood.
I've never felt so much pain and guilt before. This is my fault. Everything is my fault. My heart hurts so much and my soul screams at me that it's my fault that his other half is breaking.
"Juan", I whisper his name in tears
To watch Juan getting hurt was the most painful thing I've ever watched. He was so insecure about his scars and now this fucking son of a bitch hurt him so much. He did the cruelest thing to him and to me.
When the fuck are they coming? I want to kill him. I want to tear him into shreds. I want to get revenge for what he did to the most purest soul on that fucking earth.
"I'll give you some time alone. Maybe he'll die because of the blood lost, who knows?", Hugo laughs
"Juan", I yell his name, "Please just look at me"
"Juan!", Jandro says worried
"Mírame, Mi amor" ("Look at me, my love")
He doesn't move. I try to remove those fucking shackles.
"Juan, move, blink, just show me that you're alive", my voice breaks
Tears are running down my cheeks. I don't cry that often. I hate crying but when I do hell, then I'm really broken and hurt.
"JUAN, WAKE UP!", I scream, my whole body shaking in pain and rage
"Fuck", I mumble crying
"He's okay, Carlos. He's alive", Jandro says, trying to comfort me but nothing could make me feel any better. Nothing could release the pain I feel.
"Why are they so late?", I mumble
"I don't know. They'll come"
"But too late!", I yell
"Carlos"
"No, I don't fucking care if I die but I want revenge. I want them dead"
"They'll die. All of them", he promises
Juan. I'm so sorry. I can't tell you how sorry I am and how much I regret it. Everything. I regret everything. This is my punishment for thinking I could be happy. For thinking I deserve you. I broke us. I broke everything.
After several minutes of trying to wake Juan up, they come. The other half of El Triunfador. Too late those fucking assholes.
"Cut those fucking shackles off now!", I growl, not able to hold back any longer
"Your gun"
I grab the gun and run to Juan.
"They're coming!", someone yells
"Lucas!"
"Yes?"
"Protect Juan. Keep him safe and go to a fucking hospital immediately"
"Of course. I'll leave now"
"C-carlos", I hear Juan's voice
I kneel down to him.
"I'm sorry, Mi amor. Forgive me please. I'll make him feel pain for you, I'll make him bleed for you", I promise
"Go now", I say to Lucas
He carries him carefully, trying not to touch his back.
"Protect him please", I beg
"With my life", Lucas promises and gets into the car
Anger rises till the limit. I want them all dead. I want to kill them, to make them feel the worst pain they ever felt. We are in the majority.
"THEY ARE COMING!"
I shoot at everyone who's not in our familia. I shoot without thinking, without pity or mercy.
"I want everyone dead!", I yell
We have the warehouse surrounded by us. No one can escape from me. No one can escape the death.
"Jandro and you five come with me. They have a room in which they're hiding"
We walk towards the room and kill everyone who get in our way.
"I want Hugo and Louis alive", I say and they nod
We storm the room and kill everyone expect from Hugo and his little brother.
"Throw the fucking gun away", I growl
"You have no chance", Jandro says
Hugo lifts his arm, immediately I point at his hand, shoot and his gun hits the ground.
"Fuck", he mumbles painfully
"Good to see you again", I smile at Louis
"H-hugo", he stutters
God, what a pussy. He was born as a pussy and will die as a pussy.
"Men", I say, they nod and drag them to the hall
"Now you are the pussies, tied to chairs. You really thought we would loose against you?", I laugh
"Fuck you"
"Yeah yeah. I told you, you made your biggest mistake. You'll die", I grin
I'll get revenge for Juan. For what he did to him.
"Now enjoy the show", I repeat his words
I walk with the whip towards Louis and wrap it around his neck.
"Your brother will die with the same whip you hold in your hands as you hurt Juan"
"D-don't"
"Don't what? Come on say it, beg"
I see that he's so mad and angry. It's so funny to see that he can't do shit. He has to watch how I'll kill his little brother.
"Don't kill him", he begs
"Oh you're begging? Did you care as I begged? Did you fucking care?", I yell
"I'm sorry. I didn't wanted to hurt him"
"We both know you wanted it. Don't try to lie, you'll die anyway"
"He did nothing!"
"DID JUAN SOMETHING? What did he do? What?", I yell and tighten the whip around Louis neck
"He did nothing but-"
"Shut the hell up. You hurt the most innocent one from us all. Your brother isn't innocent and we all know that"
Louis tries to grab my hands but I just tighten my grip.
"You wanted to hit Juan", I whisper into his ear, "this is your fucking punishment for telling your big brother about it. It's your fault you son of a bitch"
"Fuck no!", Hugo yells as Louis breath slowly ends
He is trying to defend himself. He tries to breathe but in vain. He tramples with his feet, shakes with his arms but in vain.
"Take your last breathe and realize your mistake for touching what's mine", I growl
I wait a few seconds before I quickly let go of the whip. Louis breathes deeply and hastily.
"Knife", I say and hold out my hand
Alejandro gives me a knife and without wasting a second I cut off his other hand. As I reach his bone I break it and enjoy every second of it. Blood squirts out of his veins, slowly bleeding him out.
"AHH NO!", he screams in pain, crying, begging. But hell, he won't find any mercy. Not even after death.
"Carlos, you fucking bastard!", Hugo yells
Louis cries in pain but I just watch Hugo how he looks at his brother. I bet he's feeling the same pain as me. The guilt in his eyes, I bet my eyes looked like his.
"This is for", I grab Louis tongue, "Your filthy tongue. For telling your brother what I did"
I cut off this thick muscle and enjoy his screams, whines and whimpers. God, it feels so good.
"Just kill him!", Hugo begs, "Please, just kill him"
"You feel pain? Do you feel the cruelest pain you ever felt?", I ask the same question
"YES! I-"
"Mhm I don't really believe you? Guys, do you believe him?"
"No", Jandro says
"Nop"
"Definitely no"
"Nah"
"Please no!"
"Please? You dare to beg like this even if you refused my begs? You just kept hurting him"
I remember Juan's eyes. No light, no life, nothing. They looked death.
I stab the knife into his throat and watch as I brutally destroy his carotid. Blood squirts out of his throat and I smile as I watch how he takes his last breath. He wanted to hurt what's mine, he kissed what's mine and this is the prize for touching what's mine.
"You wanted to get revenge for your brother, to protect him but he ended up dead because of you. It's your fault that he's dead. You shouldn't have messed with us, you shouldn't get Juan into this shit"
"You killed the last family I had. Please just kill me"
"Just kill you? You heard what he said?", I laugh bitterly and my men start to laugh too
"You're hilarious. You think I'll just kill you? No, you felt psychic pain and now you'll fell physical pain"
"On the ground with him"
"Just kill me! Please!", he begs
"No"
"P-pl-"
I grab his hair and smash his face against the ground. Again and again until I hear his teeth cracking.
"I would prefer if you could shut your fucking mouth"
I take off his shirt and grin.
"Didn't I say I would rip out your spine?"
"ANSWER!", I grab his hair and punch his face against the ground
"Y-yes you said that"
"I didn't just said that. I made a treat and everyone knows I never make empty treats"
"W-hat? You don't mean it, do you?", he cries fearfully
"I mean it", I growl and start to cut into his back down on the right side of his spine
He screams and begs me to stop. I push the knife as deep as I can into his flesh and grin as I feel the joy and the revenge. I cut slowly, making him feel the pain more intense.
Now I stab into his back on the left side, cutting deep and slowly down. His painful screams echo through the hall, making the joy even better.
"Now die how you deserve it", I growl, sliding my hand into his back
His screams are shrill and painfully as I clasp his spine with my hand.
"Do it!", Jandro growls
With all my strength I rip out his spine. My revenge for Juan is done. I did it. I breathe for a second until the grief and guilt overwhelms me again.
"I-I have to go to Juan", I say, remembering the view of his back. "Burn the hall down and some of you will go to Paris and bring our drugs back"
"Of course"
I call Lucas, "Where are you?"
"Hospital, Maryland Ave"
"Is-", I stop for a moment, "Is he okay?"
"I don't know, they sew him together"
"Fuck, Jandro drive faster! We're on our way!"
"I'll wait in the Casualty department"
"Okay", I whisper and hang up
"Drive faster, Jandro", I beg, tears running down my cheeks
"He's okay"
"No, no he's not okay. He will not recover. This time not"
Silence fills the car until a sob breaks the silence.
"It's my fault", I cry
"It's not your fault. You just wanted to protect him. It wasn't your fault"
He's wrong. It was my fault.
Out of the car I run to the causality department.
"Lucas! Where is he?"
"I think they're finish in a few minutes"
My hands start to shake. I can't face him. I can't look into his eyes. I would break even more.
"Carlos, calm down. Breathe"
"I-I can't", I try to breathe calmly
"Hey, sit down", Jandro says and pushes me down to a chair
I hide my face in my hands. Minutes fly away.
"Carlos!"
I look up and see Juan laying on a bed. The nurses roll him out of the OP.
"Doc, is he okay?", I ask fearfully
"Are you his family?"
"No. Yes. I mean I'm his husband. He has just me"
"Mmh okay, I don't know how this could happened but we cleaned his wounds and sew them. He'll heal but it takes a few hours until he wakes up"
"Thank you so much. In which room is he?"
"204"
I nod and try to find his room.
"We'll wait outside"
"Okay", I walk into the room and freeze as I see Juan laying on his belly
"Juan", I whisper his name
God, what have I done? I stand next to his bed and stroke over his back. Up and down, slowly and carefully.
"I'm sorry, Juan. I'm so sorry. I-"
I kiss his hand, stroking the palm of his hand with my thumb. I start to cry and wish I could turn back the time. I would do anything for this. I would give my life.
"Forgive me, Mi amor. Please. . . I'm so sorry"
But even if you would forgive me, I can't forgive myself. I can't face you. I can't look into your pretty eyes and tell myself you're going to heal because I would lie to myself.
Why did I go to Dream's that day? Why did I saw Juan and fell in love with him at the first sight? Why did I hurt him? Why did I put him in danger? God why the hell did I ruined his life?
"I love you so much, Mi amor but I'm not selfish enough to hurt you more. I did enough", I kiss his forehead