Well, the Funeral of Tadashi Hamada. The song is for later. I am going to do my best......
--Your POV--
I have send a mail to the exchange program about what happened. I could have called, but I knew that if I would do that, I wouldn't get out much. I hit me much that Tadashi died. I heard a sound and looked at my screen. Well, they answer fast. The mail said:
Dear (Y/f/n),
We are sorry for your lost.
Now that Tadashi Hamada died we cannot continue the exchange program.
We would like to continue it with Hiro Hamada, like you suggested, but it is not possible because we have stopped making new exchanges last year.
You are allowed to stay till the funeral is over, than we will send you home.
We are really sorry for your lost, but we can't make anything different.
Nice meeting you,
The people of the exchange program.
I looked at my screen, tears coming up from my eyes. I couldn't see Hiro after the funeral. I couldn't help him and Cass like they helped me when my parents died. I only could call him and mail him. And even calling would go difficult, because of the time difference. And I couldn't hug Hiro or smile to him, like he did to me. Like Tadashi did. There you got the name again. Tadashi. My brother, my family. The one that does not exist anymore. Even the body was burn to ashes. It didn't exist, it couldn't been seen, it couldn't be touched by the tears of the ones crying, the ones dying of sadness. The body that is disappearing through the air into the sky. Having a voyage around the world, without needing anything.
Stop it! Stop thinking about him! Hiro needs you, and you're just thinking about what is happening to him! This isn't how I wanted it, but I have no chose! I need to help Hiro through it!
But what did Tadashi wanted to say? Why did he only wanted to say it is Hiro made it to the SFIT? Maybe a promise? To make Hiro work harder? But why me?
"And did they answer?" My thoughts stopped when aunt Cass asked the question. She looked horrible. She had red eyes, her hair was messy, and it looked like she didn't shower for days. What was true. "Yeah, they did." I said as I felt tears coming again. I showed Cass the mail. "I'm sorry, (Y/n). I really hoped that you could stay." I nodded. I let the tears stream down my face. I wanted to say something. Something about how happy I was with the time I got here. How thankful I was that I met everyone. That it wasn't fair. That I wanted to stay. But nothing came. "We need to tell it to Hiro, don't you (Y/n)?" aunt Cass asked. I nodded again. I looked at aunt Cass and she was almost crying. "D-don't cry, au-aunt Cass. W-we can still ta-talk." I said soft. I knew I was lying myself. It was true that we still could talk, but she could cry as much she wanted. "I know. Let's find Hiro." She said and we walked to Hiro's room. "I need to do something, do you think you can handle it yourself?" aunt Cass asked. "Yeah." I said and aunt Cass walked away. I knocked on the door. We didn't hear an answer. I let my head down. Suddenly there was a memory from 2 years ago. We just watched the movie Frozen, and it was snowing. I was the first to find out, because I went to the toilet. It was still dark.
--Flashback-
I looked through the window. I saw snow and stars. 'Thank you, Jack' I though, while I saw the snow. Suddenly I had an idea.
I walked to Hiro's, Tadashi's and mine room and stopped before the door. I knocked on it like Anna did.
"Hiro? Tadashi?" I asked in a song voice. I heard grumbles coming from the inside.
"Do you want to build a snowman?"
"Come on let's go and play!" I heard someone sitting up.
"I never see you anymore, come out the door. It's like you have gone away!" I sang. Now I heard probably Tadashi walking to Hiro's bed.
"We used to be best buddies, but now you're sleeping. I wish you would tell me why!" I sang and now I knew that Tadashi and Hiro were walking to the door.
"Do you want to build a snowman? We could also to a snow fight...." I asked them. That's when they opened the door.
"Of course we want to build a snowman!" The sang together, just like you would sing 'Do you want to build a snowman?'
--End flashback-
I sighed. I had tears again. Why do I cry so much? I knocked again, knowing that he was in there, and began to sing.
"Hiro, please I know you're in there. I have asked were you have been. I know that people say 'have courage' I know more to. But now I'm here for you. Just let me in. We only have each other, and aunt Cass. But I don't know what to do. Do you want to be with me?" I asked him and my voice cracked at the end, just like Anna did. I didn't do that on purpose. I did it because I couldn't held the tears.
I heard Hiro standing up. He walked slow to the door. He unlocked the door, and he looked at me. He looked terrible. Even worse than aunt Cass. "(Y/n), I do want to be with you, but I don't want to brother you." He started to close the door again. "Hiro, please, listen. I know it is hard to forget about Tadashi, I know how it is. What do you think I was going through when my parents died. I am not going to say that I'm sorry for you. I am not going to start with all that, because it is useless. It has no meaning. People all around the world say it, but did it already change something? Did people come to life? No, just more people died. Good people, people who wanted to help, who wanted to heal. People like Tadashi. He was good, he did what he could. He had a whole future before him. Within reach, but than this happened. His goodness took over. He wanted to help Callaghan so much. Too much. I don't know what I could say to you, but above all, I will never say that I am sorry for you." I told him almost crying.
I looked to him through the tears. He looked really terrible, but he listened. He looked at my guilty, sad. It also looked like he just realized something. "(Y/n), I didn't know. I didn't think enough about the rest of the world. When Tadashi died it was like-" I cut him of "Like the world ended. Like everything was lost. Like there was no meaning of living, no meaning to do something. Because the one that you loved, that was your family died and couldn't do that anymore. They couldn't breathe. So why would you? I know Hiro, I know how it is. I have those problems to. What do you think Tadashi meant to me?" I asked Hiro. Tears where streaming down my (s/c) cheeks, falling down on the ground. Hiro hugged me. He let go and slowly took my hand.
He let my to his bed and we sat down. I cried harder. "And n-now I c-can't even se-see you again." I sat through my tears. He hold me tight. "What do you mean?" Hiro asked. I sat up. "Th-the exchange pro-program. We ca-can't continue w-with you. I need to go after the f-funeral." I told him. I wiped the tears from my eyes. Hiro looked at me. He looked surprised, even sadder. "We can still mail and call. But we just can't see each other for some time." I told him and I hugged him tight. "Hiro, I don't want to let you go. Please promise that you will life you live when I'm gone." I said to him. "Of course (Y/n), of course." He said soft and he hugged me. While hugging he played with my hair. "Thank you." I said to Hiro and we hugged much longer.
~~Time skip till the funeral (like the next day)~~
We were in the car. Second time to a funeral of someone I love in 2 years. I felt tears coming up. I closed my eyes to pretend them for coming up. "(Y/n)?" Hiro asked in a soft voice. "Yes, Hiro?" I asked. "Will you be there for me?" he asked. I noticed that I asked him the same question two years ago. "Always and Forever." I told him and I took his hand. "I won't let you go, till it is over. I promise." I continued. "So you will go to the podium with me?" "If you will go with me, than I will and I won't let go." I answered his question. "Okay?" I asked. "Okay."
We sat next to each other still holding hands. There were more people than when my parents died, because this was also Robert Callaghan's funeral. I looked around. We were almost the youngest. I saw different people, some crying, some helping others. Aunt Cass was talking to an old man. I looked at Hiro and he looked at me. I smiled weak to him. He just nodded. "We will begin with the speeches for Tadashi Hamada."
First was Cass, than Hiro than me. I didn't hear much about what Cass said. After Cass we walked up the podium. Hiro and I made the speech yesterday. "Tadashi Hamada was my brother." He started "He wanted to help a lot of people. He was a brother, my family. He was strong, and he knew much. Like I once heard, you die like a hero, or you live long enough to see yourself become the villain. He died like a hero, and even if he didn't die, he would never become the villain. He was loved by much people, and we will never forget him. But right now, we got to move on. We've to walk on our one, move forward. We've good strong pairs of legs. We should get up and use them. I know that it won't happen so fast. But know, Tadashi wanted to save many lives, and he just couldn't. If you think it's natural for people to sacrifice their own lives to save others, surely you would understand that. Sometimes, a single death can save many lives. But it wasn't this time. I hope we remember Tadashi like a hero. Thank you for your attention." Hiro said. It sounded fake, but the people didn't know. Hiro nodded to me. "Well, everyone loved Tadashi, and is grieving because he died. But I know that I promised him to sing on his funeral. And I keep my promises. So here it goes." I said and I started to sing.
(You can play the song. It is can you see me by Krista Siegfrids.)
I wonder where you are
Hope it's not too far
When will we meet?
The smile on your face
Just like the old days
Your beautiful heartbeat
You gave me a good start
You gave me your heart
I'll never lose that part
I think you hear me
I think you're right here
That's why I have no fear
I wish you could see that
I'm okay
Your words they took me far
I wish you could see that
I'm okay
That I am moving on
Can you see me?
Can you see me?
I still remember
Sat on your shoulders
I was too tired to walk
Laughing together
Spring Sunday weather
Ice cream and just small talk
I wish you could see that
I'm okay
Your words they took me far
I wish you could see that
I'm okay
That I am moving on
Can you see me?
Can you see me?
I wish I could see that
You're okay
Waiting there for me
I wish I could see that
You're okay
Please just let me know
I wish I could see that
You're okay
Smiling back at me
I wish I could see that
You're still here
Watching over me
Can you see me?
Can you see me?
Can you see me?
Can you see me?
Can you see me?
I knew I was crying, I mumbled a smal 'thank you' and walked with Hiro to our seats.
The rest of the funeral went by fast. I cried a lot, and at the end it started raining. I stood with Hiro at Tadashi's grave. We both looked at it very sad.
I don't know how long I've been there, but aunt Cass came to us to pick us up and go home. She drove me to the airplain and said goodbye. That was the end of the exchange program.
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