{warning : sadness up ahead............ prepare yourself mentally}
we were able to complete making houses and farms for food and herbs and we are starting to make researches
jie said me to not interfere as i will be driven to the smell of blood
so i went to research on blue spider lily and i got so interested i spent a week completely without drinking water nor eating food nor sleeping .
in the end jie carried me in her arms 'hey i am not a child' and made me sit in her room bed and fed me food .it was unusual but i ate lot and lots that food which was made for 100 people was totally eaten by me . jie was shocked and asked her brother to cook for yourselves again and he nodded and left.
she stood up and straightened her clothes and took a red pill which had the smell of blood and pushed it on my lips to open my mouth
the moment i tasted it my senses went high and it tasted like blood and sweets
it tasted so good
it pill finally melted fully inside my mouth for what it felt like an eternity but actually a minute
i tasted until the flavor goes away keeping my eyes closes and enjoyed it
{a/n: we do that with chocolates }
she stared at me as if .......not mentioning it
after tasting the blood i opened my eyes and stared at my jie she smiled at me and asked"how is it .? do you know this is not blood ........ but an artificial blood " . i was shocked but eventually smile and said" it tastes so good jie"
"how is your hunger after eating this pill a-ying?"
" i am not hungry anymore but i want to sleep jie..........." and i felt myself collapse in front of her
she smiled at me and carried me to her own bed and patted my back until i slept
i woke up after some time and came
the burial mounds have started to give the appearance of a village .i was shocked . i was happy . i felt tugging of my sleeves and crouched down to look at my children . they stared at me in concern and said"how do you feel mommy you were asleep for 6 months ........... is something wrong with you mommy??? can i call aunt qing to check your condition?"
i stared at them 'was i asleep for 6 months ?'
then it was granny who noticed me outside with my children and dragged me to jie
she checked my condition and looked at me sadly and said"it is nothing a-ying it is just that ........... your body has lived for 498 years ........................ something that no human could achieve ....... since you are not a immortal , this body is starting to shut down by it self......................"
"your body is preparing to die silently a-ying" she said with a tear down her beautiful features which made me cry hugging her as if my life depended on her and only her
soon all wens came out hearing the sound of me wailing and my children told them my condition ............ i know they want to cry hugging me but they held each other's hands and squeezed it and kept silent . all the wens surrounded me and hugged me and thanked me for saving their lives and kowtowed to he as i was helpless and was crying on my jie's warm lap
i motioned for my children to come and give me a hug to which they gave me a hug emotionless
"stygian and chengqing , will you do me a favor please?"
"yes mommy "
"will you both take care of everyone here for me please?"
"we will mommy "
"do you know something , bottling your emotions wont help you in living ............ you both should smile and laugh at dire times,................. cry and wail at times you need to seek comfort ............. aunt qing and uncle ning will take care of you when i am not here........ okay?"
"y-ye-yes mommy" they smiled at me and clutched my robes and started crying
i kept my head on their shoulders and held them tightly ............
it was after some time later (think of it as 3 hours of wailing) i slept on their shoulders
i am dying
i woke up after another 7 months
when i woke up i came out of my room and jie came hugging me and said" you idiot you have slept like a log on your birthday"
then i knew it i am 499 years old
i smiled at my jie and took a blood pill and walked around the village that we created
then i noticed blue spider lilies and remembered my research over it
i ran to my place and continued to research on it
i found the secret of the blue spider lilies
i called every wen to the dining hall and said
" the blue spider lilies provide spiritual energy and makes a person live longer under it's influence .................. we have planted the plant literally everywhere ............ so you will live longer without your skin aging or showing influence on dying "
everyone was shocked
they looked at my sickly pale figure and started crying
it was then i noticed that i have said 'you instead of we'
jie looked at me shockingly 'ahh........jie did not even age at all ............she did not have wrinkles at all .............. '
i collapsed again
right in front of everyone ..............
my world was dark ....................
am i dreaming???
i saw the cloaked lady comming to me and said" your time is up son.................. your parents are currently in the jiang sect ................ go to jiang sect and form a contact to them"
i woke up
how long did i sleep ???
i went around to see jie sad
everyone was sad .....................
my family was sad..........
they were all kneeling and sobbing
my children were also crying clutching my jie
what is going on......?
no one would be dead................... right ..............?
they were kowtowing quietly with loud sobbing
then i went over and called "jie ............"
she was looking forward and crying.................
did she hear me ??
i went forward avoiding the sobbing people in front of me and froze
it was my own body
i died
i crouched infront of my jie
my children seemed to notice me and moved forward to touch my cheek for their tiny hands to pass through my face
they used resentful energy getting the attention of all the wens
the resentful energy swirlled around me and revealed my silhouette
i smiled when everyone looked at me with red puffy faces from crying
i know i wont long last so i hurried up
on my last words
"dont cry............... i will remember our past in my next and will come to you for you guys to scold , play , hug ,cuddle me . wait for a bit longer please ..... for me . to my dear children ............. mommy will come to you in a younger form than you both are.......... . jie ,a-ning please take care of my children please............ and after the funeral let me rest next to my husband please........... he was the reason i was able to live all these years , which led me gain a family of wens "
"thank you and i am sorry"
i cried while writing
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