So i left on a cliffhanger. Hope you enjoy the story so far! Anyway, even though the last chapter didnt get 30 votets(thanks for the support), i still updated it since i happen to have extra time atm. And if you want to know what Caleb looks like, i put the photo on the right, hes like michael cassidy but imagine his hair dirty blonde.
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She told me to shut up? She was the sweetet girl i had ever known. I couldnt believe she just said that!
She was getting under my skin, but i couldnt be mad at her, i kept reminding myself. She was sick.
"Please talk to me, im begging you." Fuck i was acutally begging her.
"Just go away." she said and wiped away her tears. I had never seen her cried and it broke my heart. But she irritated me at the same time because she didnt want to turn to me.
"Ellie, you are driving me crazy! Why couldnt you talk to me this time? You could tell me anything. I thought you trusted me." Maybe i was wrong. I thought i was the only person that she could talk to. I guessd she didnt need me now.
"How could you expect me to turst people when my friends who ive known for years suddenly changed and my dad cheated on my mom! Do you think i can really tell you everything?"
I had to say something, something made her realize that she trusted me all along.
"Because you are the real you when you are WITH ME, can't you see that?" I shouted because i couldnt hold my anger anymore. I hated yelling at her but whatever, she didnt want me anymore so it didnt matter.
"You always hide your feelings when you are with others. You always look depressed but when you are with me you turn into a different person and I know you are not faking that. You try to be strong all the time. You have built up a wall and it keeps people away. When you are with me, the wall comes down and i see this warm and smiley person. You care too much about what people think of you, but you know what, i will accept you for who you are, no matter what kinds of secrets you have."
"Just tell me you have no feelings for me then i will go."
"I dont like you anymore."
Fuck, then i guessed i made a fool of myself by saying all those things. I knew she would dump me eventually. We were from different worlds. She should end up with Caleb. I was not good enough for her anyway. I walked to her table and put the little gift that i bought earlier on her desk. I saw a piece of wrinkled paper on her desk. It was placed on the center of her desk. I took it up to look closely.
WHAT? ELLIE HAD CANCER? I was trembling, literally. Why would this happen to her? WHY???
"Ellie, why couldnt you tell me!" She stopped staring out the window and looked at me.
"Because Im afraid that you will bail on me! Look what people around me have done to me!" She raised her voice.
"So you want to ditch me first. Making me believe that you dont like me anymore." I said. Her failed relationship with people made her stop believing in people. I couldnt blame her. But it was funny that she thought as long as she avoided me, i would let her go.
"Ellie, i wont go anywhere." I lifted her chin up and looked into her eyes. She was sobbing and i wiped away the tears on her face. I wanted to cry now, fuck.
After everything we had been through, i thought we were going to last. Even when she went to California, we could have a long-distance relationship.
"What did the doctor say?"
"How much....time...you..." I couldn't finish the sentence. I just couldn't deal with this.
"Stomach cancer. He said i could still have at least...a year."
A YEAR? FUCK! No, no, no!
"When are you going to do the treatment? I'll come with you."
"No, I'm not gonna do it."
"WHY? You should do it. My uncle did it before."
"Did it work?" I didnt answer because it didnt. He passed away.
"Thats what i thought."
"What about your parents? What did they say?"
"We had arguments but they finally gave in. My grandparents both got cancer. They had chemo and they died eventually. You cant recover from this you know? Just let it be. I don't want to go through...those stuff...losing hair, vomiting uncontrollably, feeling nauseous.."
"I'll do some research, theres got to be some ways." Just like the eating disorder, I could fix this.
"Jai, dont be foolish, theres no way."
"What can i do for you?" I wanted to do something, anything for her.
She paused for a second and then looked at me.
"Get into a college, maybe a college in California. Since i cant go now, you can go for me."
That was when i really decided to study hard. It was going to be fucking difficult but for Ellie, i would to anything.
"I will, i promise." I held her in my arms and we sat by the window. We looked outside of the window and watched people passing by without talking. I wished i could stay in this moment forever.
We just sat there till her parents came upstairs. I had been up here too long. They knocked the door even though it was opened all along. I wondered if they heard what we were talking because we were literally yelling.
"Are you two...okay?" Her mom asked. Her parents both stood by the door. Ellie pulled away as soon as she saw her dad looking at her. I felt a little awkward so i stood up.
"Could you please wait outside for a second?" she said to me and I nodded.
I waited only a few minutes and her parents came out.
"Jai...you...are a really good young man. i guessed i was just too blind to see it. I saw her change. At first i didnt know the reason. I just assumed that she got good grades. I just want to thank you." her dad said. He was actually saying that i was good? And thank me?
"You make her happy."
Wow and wow. I would never thought her dad would thank me. In a million years. His words kept replaying in my head.
I saw Ellie hug her mom and i walked back to the room. Her parents both gave me a weak smile and went downstairs. We were left alone again.
"What did you tell your dad?"
"I told my parents about Kyle, like how you saved me, but i didnt tell them the eating thing.....I also told them that you are the reason that ive changed."
"Thats why your dad seems so amiable."
She was smiling.
"Im sorry you have to see me like this."
"Like what?"
"A mess." she took a look in the mirror.
"You are not a mess. You look fine. I mean it."
She walked toward me and held my hands.
"Thank you for everything." she said. I picked up her hands and put it on my cheeks.
I looked at her worriedly.
"Hey, dont worry about me okay?"
How was i supposed to be not worried? I was going to lose her. She fixed my bangs while i was smoothing her hair.
I saw this necklace. Luke gave her a few months ago. When he still had feelings for her. Now Luke must knew. He saw her as a really good friend.
"Do you want me to tell Luke?" I asked her.
"I think ill tell him tomorrow."
"How about now? Hes worried about you too."
"Telling him over the phone?"
"You wont do it tomorrow. Its better that he knows as soon as possible."
"You know me too well." she sighed and i dialed luke's number.
-Luke's POV-
I was watcing TV and my phone rang. I looked at the caller ID. It was Jai. He said he was going to visit Ellie, but it had been hours and he was not home yet. I wanted to call him earlier, knew what happened to Ellie, why she didnt come to school. Now i was about to know.
"Hey." It was Ellie's voice.
"Hey, Ellie, how are you? Are you okay?"
"Luke....theres one thing that i need to tell you."
"Im listening."
"I had cancer."
WHAT THE FUCK WAS THIS? WAS THIS A FUCKING JOKE? SHE HAD CANCER? I hadnt even told her how i felt about her. FUCK!
"Luke, hello?"
"I....." fuck. i wanted to tell her. I couldnt conceal it any longer. Jai was proabably listening right now but who cared. I would apologize to Jai later. since now they were a couple i shouldnt have show my feelings.
"I like you."
"I like you too, Luke."
"No, i mean i like "like you"."
"Oh.....i.......um...sorry."
"I just want you to know how i feel. You dont have to say sorry to me. I know you dont feel the same way. But just please tell me why you like the dumb one."
"He is not dumb."
"Really? you think so?"
"Hey, who are you talking about, fag?" Jai shouted over the phone.
"Tell Jai to shut the fuck up." she laughed a little. It was so good to hear her voice.
I needed an answer so i could live without regret. Like seriously, what was wrong with Ellie? I meant i was not trying to compete with Jai because it was totally wrong but I JUST NEEDED TO KNOW.
"He's funny."
"You think he's funny? Then what do you think of me?"
"I think you have a sense of humor. You are sarcastic and i find it funny too."
"Not funny enough for you to like me." I knew i was saying the things that i shouldnt have said but i didnt care because if i didnt say it now. I would never say it.
"Luke....."
"I know, i know. Im sorry, i just...ive always liked you." now she must have realized when i said i had a crush, it was her. She must have found ridiculous for setting me up with Mehgan. Mehgan was cool and we both loved taking photos but she was not Ellie.
"So...you are not coming back to school?"
"No."
I wanted to visit her but i didnt want to be the third wheel. What the fuck should i do? It would be weird if i went to her place myself.
Jai came home after half an hour. He looked plain. I had to tell what i say to Ellie even though he probably knew already.
-Jai's POV-
On my way home, I wanted to cry but i didnt. Because i shoudnt spend my time crying. I should be grateful that I still had Ellie and she still wanted me.
I opened the door and saw Luke sit on the sofa waiting for me.
"I told Ellie that i like her. Sorry. I'm really sorry I-" Luke said.
"Uh huh." I said and took off my beanie. I walked to our room with my bag.
"So you are not mad?" I said as he followed behind me.
"Nothing else matters. Ellie is alive, thats all i care about." I took out my books from the bag. Luke looked at me, disbelieved.
"You know shes a keeper when she thinks you are not dumb." he said and slumped down in my bed.
"Okay, first, Im not...dumb. And second, She thinks i am funny." Yes, I wasnt the smartest person but Luke had to shut the fuck up.
"Then why did you get D on the English essay? I got B-."
"Then now you know its time for you to fuck off and let me study alone."
"All right, all right." he put his both hands up and walked out.
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School without Ellie was boring. Even though i had my other friends but i just couldnt enjoy the things i used to like anymore. I used to like playing videos games but now i just went studying everyday. The first thing i did after school was visiting Ellie. If i had problems, she would teach me. I didnt want to bother her, but she said it was okay. She usually spent her time reading books. Her mom would bring us food. Luke would visit Ellie with me on weekends. He still had feelings for Ellie, i knew, because feelings just didnt go away that fast.
Her mom quit the job to take care of Ellie. Her parents seemed to get back together. If her condition was good, we would go downstairs and watched movies downstairs. Ellie wanted me to pick the movies from the shelf, but there were too many movies. I couldnt decide, so everytime i just chose randomly. One time we watched an old Christmas movie and she got emotional when the kids got their parents back together at the end of the movie. I told her it was okay to cry. She rested her head on my shoulder and sobbed. I found her cute when she cried over this little thing. I asked her what were the things she had always wanted to do but never had the guts to do it. She said she really wanted to go to a rock concert but she was not allowed to go because of her dad. Ellie said her favorite band was Good Charlotte and she really wanted to see their live concert before. I checked their tour dates on the Internet but they were not coming to Australia any soon.
We went upstairs after watching the movie. She stuck more photos of us on her wall. We basically took photos everyday, so now her wall was full of our photos. It was sad to look at these photos because i could easily see that Ellie had become thinner gradually.
I found some photos on her desk.
"Hey! You cant see that!" Ellie said and took away the photos.
"Whats that?"
"Photos when i was a kid."
"Can i see?"
"No, because you will laugh!"
"No, i wont."
"Really?"
"Really."
She handed me the photos and i laughed. She was so adorable.
"Hey, you lied! Give back my photos!"
"No, i havent seen all of them!" I hid the photos behind my back. She wanted to took them so i put the photos high above my head. She finally gave up.
"Stop laughing!" she said to me.
"See, theres frosting on your face." There was a photo of Ellie standing in front of a store called "Sprinkles" and the other photo of her on the beach.
"I was like two."
"Where was this taken?" I pointed to the photo of her playing sand.
"Santa Monica Beach. We used to go there often. We would go to the frozen yogout store near the beach and then headed down to the beach. I missed that frozen yogout store." she said.
"So you still miss everything in the USA?"
"Yeah, we would go there every winter because that was when it was summer in the States. And once i was in the States, i didnt want to go back to Australia. My parents had to drag me to the airport."
She continued telling me about the boardwalk near the Santa Monica Beach and there was the BOA Steak house. Her family would go there occasionally.
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I had become a part of her family. Her dad and i would go play tennis every other weekend. Ellie was really happy to see we were bonding. When i came back from the club with her dad, four of us would sit down and have lunch like a family. Her mom still made the most delicious chocolate chunk cookies and sometimes Ellie would eat em. This afternoon, after having lunch, i discussed my surprise for Ellie with her parents. Actually two surprises. Her parents took her to her anuts house and told her to stay there for a week. Ellie was puzzled but she didnt ask much. I took Ellie's iPod when she was not aware. Luke came to help me with the surprises that i prepared for Ellie. We worked non-stop.
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Sorry, its a sad chapter :(
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