It was in the morning forth woke up with terrible headache, beam looks so pale he gulps looking to beam collar bone he gasp with eyes widen, he forgets his headache with flashes of memories of him moving on top of him he felt dizzy he quickly studies his head looking down to beam he flips the quilt revealing naked body filled with red blemishes like the first-ever time he made a beautiful art, it's the same, but his instincts are not good he is feeling gloomy, paining, hurt, guilty, remorse, resenting
He is afraid of what he had done to beam he sees beam stirring, he is alive, that made him breath for a second taking a look to beam face churning in pain, he needs to respond first he is trembling remembering the incidents from last night, gets down the bed putting on some clothes and looks for beam clothes he prepares clothes and fill the tub with warm water, he comes back siting adjacent to beam he held a hand on beam tear dried cheek caressing him, beam stirred opening his eyes from the touch he looks around his eyes laid on forth his lips trembling "I filled bath tub with warm water, fresh up first,"
Beam nods on pillow trying to get up but his limbs are sore he cannot he bite his lips head falling back to pillow he helplessness he laid back. Forth asking he picked him into his arms while beam rest his head on forth chest tears picking in his eyes while forth slowly dips him in warm water, he is worried looking to beam hissing all the time he just want bang his head to wall then his mind will work straight, what did he do to beam?
He knelt to tub holding fragile fingers "beam, are you feeling dizzy?"
"I am fine, nothing to worry" the physical pain is making his brain busy he don't want the mental pain of feeling guilty for what his father done, so this physical is all he wants he can feel the pain
Beam immediately moan in solace he needs this, his limbs are paining too much especially his bottom he closed his eyes feeling the warm water stinging his bottom.
"I will be outside" forth walks away closing the door, he slumps down to floor crying in deep silence he did abused beam he hits the floor in regret, how can he do this? He bangs his hand to floor yelping in pain his hand was pretty much swollen since last night, he held his wrist closer to his chest, this physical pain is necessary for him, they have been themselves.
its been twenty minutes, he walks in gulping he checks on beam who is not sparing any glance to him
He picks the silent beam up from the water he makes him sit on the stool and knelt to him "beam,"
He nod "I know you want to say sorry,"
Forth nod "I am,"
"Its okay, I allowed you,"
"why?"
"we don't have anything left between us" he gives a pale stare to forth
Forth lowers his head 'it's true nothing is left between them' "I will help you with bath,"
"no need, I am good to bath on my own,"
Forth nod getting to knees he arranges two buckets of water near to beam and hands him a soap and mug. He hangs a fluffy bathrobe. he cannot even look to beam for what he did to him, he walks away closing the door his knees gave up he knelt to floor with silent cries
After twenty minutes beam walks out in a white fluffy bathrobe closing the bathroom door he looks to forth who sitting to the wall and sobbing holding his knees "you did not rape or abused me, you don't have to feel this way,"
Forth looks to beam walking inside the room, asking "my clothes,"
Forth gets to his feet getting beam black hoodie and jean, brief "can you wear these pants,"
"I am not hurt," he lies getting the clothes and slipping into. Forth closes his eyes for beam limping
They hears a ramp of knocks on the door, nami rushes onto forth who is backing away, she don't even need to look to beam, she understand everything
When nami was about to slap him beam takes forth to his behind "stop...it,"
Nami looks to beam "he hurt you...."
"he did not!" he snapped
Nami looks to the centre white bed and closes her eyes, she looks to forth "your getting arrested, I am going to file the case on you." She snarls
Beam snipes back "I don't allow you to do that, p'nami,"
Nami shutters "but.t..he..he ..did ..tha.t" nami points to bed sheet having a blood mark her finger shakes in fear of what beam went through
Beam sighs "its just a single drop, I am fine in one piece, stop your drama and get out..."
"drama..get out" she shook her head
While lam tries to calm her, she flares to forth who is standing beside beam "did you get satisfied?"
Forth fist his fingers and shuts his eyes tight
Beam shouts "if you say another word I will chop your tongue, he is my husband! he did not do anything wrong to me, we both have each other consent.... Don't involve, get away,"
Lam drags her away closing the door, beam hears forth saying "I am sorry,"
Beam turns looking to forth "its okay,"
Forth can feel the way beam is talking to him, without mentioning his name, he used to always call him by name or phee, now he understand his position, they are over. He cannot look into beam eyes
"so, I am not going ask you anything, I understand your pain, now I am a criminal son, I am not your husband, my father killed your mother," he sniffs ".... I care for you, I will and still love you forever, I will never hate you, never in any second I will not remove you from my heart, you will stay here forever," he points to his heart "...I know I cannot bring your mother back.. I will leave now, send me divorce papers, I am willing to sign them, some relationships are meant to be nothing, that is good for us, thank you for being my confidence and making me happy, you will forever be my happiness.." Tear streaked down his cheek "...but I am innocent too I never tried to hide this, I came to know only yesterday morning,"
"I believe you, beam, yesterday I was drunk, I know it sounds like a excuse, but I believe you don't know anything, just like me.."
Beam gives a teary smiled to forth who looks down he can sense they cannot look into each other eyes not anymore! "thank you...I don't want us to end up on bad terms," it churned his stomach with pain "...so, I am happy that we both have some good impressions on each other,"
Forth nod feeling his chest tightening "...you will always be my innocent pearls, raindrops, cherries, chotu..chotabeam" his eyes pooled with mist of tears his nostrils flared
Beam eyes filled with mist of tears too "..thank you,"
Forth nod his lips trembling
"one final hug," beam ask
Forth breathed puffing his cheeks and nodded he open his arms wide receiving beam into a final hug they hugged tight in each other embrace more tight they want to hug even more tighter they could not leave the hug they felt difficult as the separation is killing them
Sobbing beam raised on his toes with tears gripping in his eyes he sob over forth lips he kissed him, forth kissed him back, with stings of saliva they end their last kiss
Beam gets his feet down nodding his head he walks to the door while forth crumbled to the floor seeing beam back closing the door, he is trembling to breath
Beam walks to hall with nami and David crying in each other arms while lam sitting in sofa holding his head, beam yells to the three "I am warning you, if anyone of you tried to hurt my p'forth, I will not spare you all, take care of him, he is tired, hurt and in pain, try to understand him, he is determined and stubborn to the people he love, he is protecting his mother who died in my father hands, I can see that.... So I am requesting you all, take care of him please,"
Nami and David sobs in each other arms while beam whiping away his big raindrop tears he walks away, he deserves this! He deserve this punishment for what his father had done! He have to carry this punishment out for his father sins, he have to! He deserve this
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David quick to forth room he knelt to forth taking him into his arms, forth cried aloud into his father chest "why us? Porr"
Tears poured down through david eyes he hugged him closer forth cried and cried until he passed out, lam came to support David and forth who have no energy to stand anymore, he helps David to sit on the edge of the bed while forth leaned his back to edge of bed he sits like a lifeless soul
"...I am fine like this I will be fine," he gets up to fresh up he put on his forth shirt, briefs, pants, while buttoning his shirt up his fingers were trembling he looks around the empty room, beam working his assignments with a table light on, he will switch of the bedroom lights to let forth have his sleep and he will study at the table
When he comes out from the shower, sitting to the working table beam smiles at him over the milk cup he comes around the working table and stands to forth he will help him with shirt buttons an excuse to touch his abs forth rarely let him touch on bed because he only wants beam to feel all pleasure and have a peaceful night, so beam makes excuses to put on those buttons his slims finger knuckles nudging and lingering his abs more than necessary, touching the pant button and zipper which beam would usually be feared to have look at the size after the night beam never dared to put his cock in his mouth, he would only touch and feel the precious thing he loves forth cock to be inside him
Forth fingers trembled to button up his shirt and pant button "chotu...hand me my pen,"
After buttoning up beam would be back to his work while grooming hair he would ask beam to hand him his pen form the pen stand and beam would smile standing to the mirror and him, he would snap on beam for blocking his view, beam will mess his hair just to hear another snap from forth
Forth sighed beam is not in his room he looks to the mirror and empty chair , pen stand, book placed neatly on the table, beam is everywhere every corner in the room, his chest tightened as he grooms his hair
"beam my case file, beam pen.... Raindrops, cherries, innocent pearl,"
He crumbles down floor, he don't know how long how long he have to bare this pain, he had no destiny in his journey he is alone, still how long? He have his love only to share with beam, beam re-born only for him! His mother donated her heart to beam, beam re-born only for him! Only for him! He have to forget the pain for beam, beam did not kill his mother he received her heart, he never forget the love he holds for beam he wants him back, his eyes will never stop shedding tears for beam, he cannot let beam go away with tears and pain, he cannot let them both live in pain and tears all alone, he wants him back
Time took a pause leaving their dreams all alone in a distance from them, in a blink of eye his love disappeared, he is about to shout to the whole world but time took a pause
He have tears shedding for beam, his heart is still with beam but the distance between them increased, he never thought!!! he never thought his breathing will leave him, he never thought his soul will leave him, his love left, leaving a wound in his heart!
Walking out like a dead figure he sits at the breakfast table, nami walks out from the table she is angry to sit at the breakfast table along with her brother
forth eyes gripped tears the table is not complete without beam his side chair was empty his hand held on the table "chotu..have breakfast, you can study later,"
Forth shoulders shuddered; he heard their house bell "beam ...check,"
He wants a glass of water "beam....glass of water please,"
Nami tumbles a glass of water on the table "beam is not here stop saying his name," she yells on sobbing forth
David walks to his miserable son he sits beside him holding his son hand who started crying again "forth"
He nod with breathing and eyes warm with hot tears
"son, please don't leave beam, get him,"
Forth was beyond shocked he looks to his father and his father nod "I understand your pain, both of you I understand, I am the reason, you are thinking about my feelings right!"
Forth gives him a desperate nod, David holds forth wet cheeks "...no I am not going regretting your decision to be with beam, go and bring beam back to home, jessy death has nothing to do with beam, he loves you and you loves him, I am no one to separate you both, go apologize..."
"por.."
David nods "I don't hate beam, I want you to live with beam, I will never blame you for dating and marrying beam, go and get him,"
Forth immediately hugged david he was so afraid for his father opinions he was sobbing over david shoulder "I am sorry for being self-centred and selfish porr, I know beam father killed mae, yet, I don't want to let go of beam, but thank you for your answer, now I will have my ways to get him, I will apologize, I will beg him I will do anything to get him,"
David nod with tears wetting his son shoulder "yes, that is my son, go, go, get him, If necessary I will beg for my son, I will apologize too,"
"porr" he cried into David chest
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