Forth is not allowing lam to touch him, nami enters the room, she knelt to forth height "uncle you hit forth!" she gasped looking to forth cheeks and she looks to beam who is not looking in good state he seems like he cried a lot and hairs are messed up, she holds forth cheeks and caresses the corner of bruised lip and takes him into her hug she looks to David who is looking guilty "uncle, how can you?"
Beam is not liking what nami is doing, he don't have any right to feel jealous, right now he want to push her away yet he stood like a rock, scolding himself, lam hands her first aid kit, forth is not allowing lam, nami takes hold of kit she sits down to sterilise forth toe finger
Hearing the hissing sounds beam closed his eyes letting the tears drop while forth bearing the pain of wounds and he also carrying a fresh wound in his heart
Sterilising and dressing up the wounds she helps forth to sleep on bed and covers a quilt she looks to david "uncle...let forth rest,"
He nod with lam helping david to walk out and nami eyes beam to move out too he reluctantly walks while staring to forth who is still sobbing he bite his bottom lip and looks to forth until nami closes the door
She sighs and ask beam "..who are you?"
Nami don't have any good impression on beam and beam spells his name "....beam,"
Nami nods "what is your relation with forth?"
"..I.." he looks down feeling tears forming in eyes
She knew who beam is so she pats on his shoulder "have a seat with uncle"
Beam nods and nami walks to kitchen and gets water for beam and david
Nami asks david "I never expect you to hurt forth, uncle,"
David is looking down to his trembling hand he hears beam saying "sorry porr, you got to hit your son, its my mistake,"
David shook his head "I told you he will be stubborn for the people he love, he will be determine to stand for the people he love beam, please don't hurt him, leave him before you planning to hurt him more,"
Beam nods in a sad way "I will porr, don't worry,"
Nami looks to beam and ask him "have a seat,"
He felt like an outsider he wants to walk out but lam leads beam to sit with him and takes his hand into his, beam was embarrassed he is about to get his hand away "I am not hurt,"
Lam looks to nami and nami brings the first aid kit she takes his hand into her and places a medicament patch around, usually beam will take time to heal wounds and this will help him, he replies "thank you, Ms."
"nami, or p'nami"
He nods "thank you p'nami"
"I am sorry porr," beam apologizes again and david just nods walking to his room
Lam ask nami "you can sleep in my room"
Nami nods walking away
And lam looks to beam "satisfied,"
He looks to lam feeling hurt
"now get satisfies much, you turned everything worst beam,"
He shook his head with tears spilling down his eyes "...I only thought to make him leave me, this is not," he sobbed
Lam faces turns red for beam behaviour "you will never understand how much forth loves you, I am warning you beam, if I see you hurting forth again..."
Beam looks down "sorry.."
"you should be" lam seethed walking away
his lips quivering he is trembling as his shoulders curl
lam comes back, patting beam shoulder "try to sleep," lam goes and gets a blanket he helps beam to sleep on couch and covers him with blanket which beam remember he used the same blanket in the afternoon when forth sleeping in his lap he is tearing up again remembering everything he spoiled everything with his own hands, he deserve this hate he can sense everyone hating him now and no one can understand him he is trembling feeling embarrassed and shy and hurt, still remembering the scene of David slapping forth was shaking him up he looks to the closed door of forth bedroom and tears up again murmuring repeated sorries when his goal was to chase forth away from his life then why he is hurting now, after all he succeeded in achieving but its hurting him more now he clenching his hoodie close to his chest and he tugs in his pant pocket getting the box out, which he get it when he excused for rest room
he sits up holding the box he keeps staring to blurred yellow diamond stud he gets a teary smile he sits up staring to the ring and gets the ring out and he finds a small letter in the box. It's a folded paper like a small note
"to beam,
I am searching for a good gift but I cannot find any, hope you will like this yellow diamond, I am giving a diamond to my diamond +55, please be happy always, its says that diamonds are pure and light I felt that represents my beam, your my love and pledge I am committed to you beam, whenever your wears this diamond that represents you're mine
Yours waiting love,
I am someone who loves a person who does not love me back, I am waiting for you beam, please accept me..."
Holding the small note close to his chest he keeps sobbing he is hugging his knees and held his chin on top of his hands he is letting the tear fall, forth do love him even if he knew beam is sick, beam mother left him when he was sick he is trembling how forth accepts him when his own mother did not!
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It was in the morning, beam woke up feeling headache and he wants to have some coffee he remember forth getting him coffee on a warm morning, he smiles in a sad way and looks to room door which is still closed
He gets up to mix coffee for them he walks to lam who is working in the storeroom "p'lam do you want coffee,"
"I already had, nami mixed coffee for all of us, forth and nami went on a walk, can you help me to arrange store room"
Beam felt bitter he touched his pant pocket where he pocketed the small ear drop. he wants to know who is nami? Lam answers says nami must have mixed coffee for forth too, and he find that even more bitter and now lam is arranging the storeroom for what? is the new guest going to stay here, he think it's not right to call her guest, she must be a family member she seems very close to the family
Lam ask beam "move these boxes out," he says and walks out from the room
Beam steps in the room, again sneezing and sneezing he had dust allergy he cannot stand the dust yet he is going to help, he don't want to be a free lodger in the house, he picking up the big boxes and bringing them out, he is careful to see if there any cockroaches he is tearing up already, its his adverse effect of the major surgery he had, his headache is worsening, he already moved five boxes out and lam was back with new boxes and places them down "fill all the scattered books into the box,"
Beam nod while lam taking away the other boxes, he started collecting the books and putting them in the box he is packing each box in a neat way so that books won't get spoiled, he hears a girl chuckles it must be nami, that means forth return back form walking, he steps out from the storeroom for only to see nami and forth sitting side by side having a morning talk which remind him of the morning were forth taking rest in his lap and the morning where he and forth cuddled in the morning sunshine warm and enjoyed watching the sunshine
Observing and sensing without stopping in the hall he walked to kitchen to mix some coffee before he faints, he firstly washes his hands and face thinking to get some anti-allergic drops, his nose and eyes getting uncomfortable
He searching in the fridge for milk and any instant coffee powder, he don't know how to blend coffee beans but today he desperately wants to have some caffeine for his headache
Nami and forth walks in "want some coffee beam,"
Beam looks to nami and observes forth avoiding him as if he is almost invisible that hurts him he keeps looking to forth who had dark shades under his eyes and speaks to nami
Beam gets the milk carton and a refill to mix coffee he sense forth looks to him while beam places a vessel to boil milk and then mix the refill In it
nami again ask, "I can came a good coffee with beans nong beam,"
beam gives her a faint smile "..its okay, p'nami, I will have this refill,"
"your eyes and nose turned red," nami worriedly ask secretly tugging on forth back to speak to beam but forth is tight lipped
Beam nods "...I have dust allergy, its nothing to worry p'nami,"
Nami says "okay, let me blend coffee beans for you,"
Forth is helping nami with coffee beans bag, he is standing beside forth, he murmured "I am sorry, last night porr hits you because of me. I am sorry p'forth," he apologized
Forth looks to watery eyes and red nose he nods "its okay, I deserve that, it was my mistake, I am sorry for forcing.."
Nami listening to the conversation she cheers "its okay, now get reconcile," she pushes on forth shoulder who slightly bumps onto beam where beam holds forth bicep and forth swiftly move away from the touch "sometimes it's good to let go, I am willing to do that,"
Hearing that beam heart curls up to fresh sets of tears forming in his eyes
"okay..okay, let's not bring up the topic again," she ushers beam out while beam keeps looking back to nami trying to make forth smile and he remembers their moments in kitchen suddenly nami presence is making him jealous, he heard forth saying to nami "my father never hits me, this might be first time..."
The certain hurt in forth voice is trembling him, It was because of him, he should have been careful he been hurting he feels bad for David hitting on forth
"look where you walking" lam yells on beam and beam rubs his chest he accidentally collided with the box he apologizes repeated like a lost fool and lam was taken aback while forth stares to lam for raising voice on beam, it seems like lam purposefully raised voice on beam for forth breaking their friendship and not talking to him
Lam shoves the box to beam arms "make it fast..beam,"
He tires good to hold the heavy box, nami joins him holding the box for beam giving a good smile to him "its okay," she stares to lam asking him with her eyes on 'what lam is upto?'
Beam is feeling embarrassed of himself, he nothing useful he feels like he don't worth, he cannot work, he cannot get tired, he easily gets sick, cannot eat all foods, cannot put up with dust, he is easily gets anxious whereas nami is different who can do everything for forth, she can blend coffee, she can help lam in moving the boxes she even went on a walk with forth, might be nami can do anything and everything to forth, why he is comparing himself to nami? And now what is the use in crying over something which he pushed away with his own hands
Lam gives him a betrayal glare he knew he lost the last strings with lam who treats him like a brother he just accepts his defeat, he walks to the room to help nami to clean up the boxes he is going against his energy he cannot lift heavy weights because of the surgery he had just he will feel fatigue and breathless for lifting overweighing things and he is not immune he will be prone easily to dust yet he is putting up a fight for what? to prove what? what exactly he wants?
After helping to moves the boxes, he even pushed himself to clean the room, he cannot let a girl work that too who came to stay with the family he wants to prove he can work like nami too, of course who is he! He was even determined to study medicine after all procedure of major surgery he went through
He cleaned up the room and arranges the things helping lam to set the bed and remaining things in the room, finally they turned the storeroom into bedroom
Lam is not speaking to him, so beam apologized "I am sorry p'lam,"
"your sorry does not bring my friendship back neither porr will never forgive forth, this was my first time to see uncle hitting forth...I can see how hurt he was,"
Beam lowers his head while lam walks away, he don't feel like staying in the house anymore, and he is stinking in his hoodie too, no one wants him, no brother, no porr, no forth, everyone wants only nami, why the hell is he bringing nami why is he getting jealous over the good girl who can be everything and matching in every level to forth! He should be happy for nami, she can take care of forth, he can rest in peace
He walked out form the room and walks to lam room he picks up his assignment file tears shimmered remembering the passionate kiss they shared he drops the file back the table and searches for david
He walks to the terrace finding david having a walk he joins him hurriedly "porr, I want to talk with you,"
"say beam,"
"porr, I am sorry, p'forth did not hurt me porr, please forgive him, he loves you a lot, I cannot see you both being distance because of me porr, please," he pleads
David nods "...but he is being stubborn beam, he needs to learn his lesson, he left me for ten years, saying I let his mae to drive alone in the night, he blames me for the accident happen and he left me for ten years, he is that determined and stubborn and last night I see the same in the way he is dealing with you, he is so stubborn, he wants to have you to him and he will be determined to go any length to get you.....which is wrong, beam"
Beam shook his head denying to David, "porr, I hurt him a lot so he could not control his emotions, and ..and.."
"beam, if you love forth you will definitely accept him, and forth needs to learn that, he should give you some time, if you don't accept him he should learn to let go but instead he turned stubborn to have you, determination of having you is wrong, you're not an object, you have every right to reject him...and forth should learn,"
Beam wet his lips "..but porr, forth is a good person, actually he its my fault, I should have deal with some maturity and reject him politely Its my mistake porr, I am sorry, please your getting everything wrong about P'forth,
P'forth determination and stubborn is not having me as an object he knew I loves him and so he is asking me to return my feelings to him but I cannot... P'forth never treats me like an object he always respects me porr, he always looks after my choices he always clean about my wishes and he remembers my favourite food and colours he remembers my crazy fantasy about honey and chocolate syrup... he takes care of me porr, yesterday too he brought me this new hoodie to go on a date, it was winter so he is careful of weather he is that careful about me, he loves me porr, he is determined and stubborn to love me porr not to have me for his own desires... he is so fool in love with me porr, he still tries to learn about me, all night he helps with my assignment... and ...and." Tears rolling down his cheeks "...I don't know how to explain you, porr, P'forth is already hurt in losing lam and now you too, he will be more hurt porr, please don't do this, forgive him porr," he sniffles and cries like a kid pleading david with his crying eyes and sobbing voice
David holds beam forearms who is still sobbing "then why you're not accepting my son," he ask
Beam cleans his eyes and looks down "I am sorry,"
David leaves beam forearms and nods "its okay, I will take care of forth,"
Beam nods repeatedly saying sorry again "I am sorry porr, because of me you got to hit your son, which you never do, I am sorry for that, I am sincerely sorry, I know my sorry cannot remove the pain you felt while hitting your son, please I am sorry..."
David pat beam arm "...its okay, your my son too..i cannot see you getting hurt too,"
Beam nods with a teary eyes and david pulls him into hug coaxing on beam back asking him to stop crying he pulls beam by shoulders he ask "..do you love forth?"
Beam meeting david eyes he gulps to accept the reality
"then face it..."
Beam shook his head thinking of him being vulnerable and suitable and not deserve to be standing beside forth
"why?"
"p'forth deserves better"
David ask "why not you? forth want to have you because he feels better when you are beside him, so who are you to decide what my son wants,"
"but I am not porr" he shakes his head "..I...I cannot be any better to p'forth, if I move out he gives that place to someone who truly deserves, not someone like me,"
"someone like you- define that."
"porr"
David nods "yeah, tell me... what makes you feel less for my son,"
He started tearing up shaking his head "I..." he is feeling breathless to explain and david holds him into his arms and ask him to breath for time being "...don't stress, beam"
After five minutes beam nod he was okay and david left his arms, seeing him standing in silence he asks beam again "why don't have some rest in my room," receiving the silence he leads the silent beam to down the stairs and leads him to his bedroom he helps beam to settle to sleep for some time and covers him with quilt
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