It's been about a week since I cried in front of luciano and surprisingly nothing has happened. We don't talk about his dad when we're outside and I'm okay with that. It's at his own pace and his story to tell.
It's 3 am and watching American Horror Story is getting boring. I'm starving and I want Mcdonald's i'm getting some. getting out of bed i make my way over to stefanos room to see he's gone i'm guessing his car is too
walking past his room I hear a faint noise from Luciano's room and I walk in to see if he's ok. He's moving around a lot and is visibly sweating. He's saying words under his breath but it's hard to make out.
"no stop no no no"i should wake him i climb my way to the other side of the bed "stop no ow stop" his words are mumbled and hard to hear but i know he's dreaming about his father and it breaks me so i shake him a bit "luciano" he moves his body "please no take me leave her leave her dad no" oh shit shaking him harder this time he wakes up "I SAID LEAVE HER!" he screams and I somehow end up pinned on his bed with him in top of me
"Luciano it's me it's me niki your ok it's just a dream" I caress his face with my hands and his breathing is fast. if this were under different circumstances i'd totally kiss him " i'm sorry" he's breathless and he moves himself off "no need to be i should have taken a little more caution id slap someone by accident if i were you" he lays on top of his covers now and has no shirt on ugh i wanna do body shots off this man NIKI NOT THE TIME
catching his breath he puts his head in his hands. I touch his shoulders and he flinches a little but covers it up oops. "my bad'' he tries to catch his breath "your ok'' tracing my finger over a a small butterfly on his shoulder he has a bunch of these "are you okay now" he looks at me "yea i'm better i've been able to manage the nightmares over the years" i tilt my head at him smiling "niki what are you doing in here" i continue to trace the butterfly "i was gonna ask stefano to take his car to go get food and i heard some noises" he nods
"Are you hungry cause we can go together" he smiles at me "sure just give me 15 minutes." oo yay this should be fun "alright meet me outside use the back door" i smile and hop off his bed exiting his room.
I go downstairs and start Antonio's car. He's so gonna kill me. the car door opens and Luciano is in a new set of clothes and wet hair oh my god keep your cool i buckle myself in and pull the seat up it's still hard to see over the dashboard fuck.
luciano laughs a little"do you want me to drive because your short ass cant see over the dashboard" i look at him laughing a bit "yes please" i playfully roll my eyes and get out switching seats with him.
we get out of the driveway and head towards town "so where are we going" i look over at him "i could really go for some mcdonald's right now" he looks over at me and lets out a dry chuckle "Mcdonald's it is"
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We got our food and drive to a cliff to eat. getting out of the car i take the bag of food and we head towards some rocks to sit on.
popping a fry in my mouth he looks at me just smiling "what?" he says nothing "what?" i laugh a bit playfully pushing him and he laughs "as sick and twisted as you are i've never met someone in my entire life that i trust like you" butterflies flutter within me and i can't help but smile "thank you luciano" i lean my head on his shoulder as i open my nuggets and sauces.
"come on eat" i remove myself from his shoulder and shove a fry inside his mouth laughing. now sitting directly across from him touching my knees with his. As we eat it's a comfortable silence this would be the perfect time to kiss him NO THAT'S WERID "
"sometimes i hate the things my mom taught me because sometimes i use them and they work'' he looks over at me "well you can be mad but at the end of the day you can't let her dictate your life" he puts his hand on my knee oh damn
"i just hate her so much" tears fill my eyes and i blink them away i'm not crying now "you know before i was 16 theres was a part of me that would forgive my father for what he did" his jaw clenches "that part of me died long ago but for awhile i hated myself for it. don't beat yourself up" his thumb caress my knee and i get more butterflies. i tilt my head at him "what happened when you were 16?"
His mood completely changes "um let's not talk about it" he laughs brushing it off just give him time. "I'm just so ready to kill her,I'm gonna torture her first but still I can't wait till she's dead" eating another nugget I catch him staring again so I don't do anything but stare back and I laugh a bit.
finishing up our food we admire the night full of stars before heading to the car. We drive around the rural parts of Italy listening to music and laughing talking about life. "you seriously don't think mermaids are real" I practically scoff at him. "your absolutely insane there's no way they are real,mermaids are supposed to stay in stories for children" he laughs a bit smiling his smile is so nice,niki stop
"how do you think they were created then some sailors on crack" i smile raising my eyebrow at him. pulling over into a rural cobblestone road with nothing for miles we continue to argue over the fact that mermaids are real.
looking at him he's already staring at me this would be the perfect time to kiss him no no no no no no getting out of the car i turn up the music and dance around a bit.
"Come on, Luciano dance with me" I laugh and he gets out dancing over to me. i take his hands and we spin and dance around laughing this is so fun we have to do this more often
eventually we're hand in hand dancing and our bodies colide. looking up and him i laugh while he smiles at me. After the laughing calms we just smiling at each other holy shit we're holding hands we simply look at each other without breaking eye contact.
his eyes dart my face until they meet with my lips oh shit he leans down i'm gonna let this happen holy fucking shit butterflies flutter and my body filled with excitement.
inches away from my lips my phones rings through the car and we jump because of how loud the noise is. rushing to the car i take my phone from the aux
antonio is calling...
looking up at luciano "it's my brother shit" i laugh picking up the phone "hey antonio what's up" i put the phone on speaker
"what's up? niki why the fuck are u in the middle of no where with my car?!"
his voice is at a loud whisper and i laugh
"this isn't funny get home now before i tell dad"
looking over at luciano he gets in the car "ok on my way home how don't freak out geez" getting in the car he hangs up "someone's cranky" laughing a bit we head home.
pulling into the driveway Antonio is standing there with his arms folded in his pjs. we get out of the car and he's confused "why are you with her?" he's genuinely curious and not mad at luciano "cause we were hanging out now get your long ass back in the house baby boy before i kiss you" they both laugh quietly and what the fuck
they all flirt with each other and it's so weird. me and hazel flirt but sometimes they go a little too far.
heading to my room i plop into bed holy shit we were about to kiss oh my god i have to tell hazel. walking into her room i shake her awake "hazel wake your bitch ass up" she turns to face me
"niki what's wrong?" her voice is soft and quite "so like something almost happened and i have no clue what to do. "well what happened" she sits up rubbing her eyes. "me an luciano definitely almost kissed" her skin is illuminated by the moon light and her eyes widen
"huh" her face is wiped with a smile "yea we almost fucking kissed" plopping back on her comforter i let out a dry laugh "tell me everything" she grabs my hands "ok so i was hungry and went to ask stefano for his car and then he wasn't home so i was gonna go back to my room and i heard noises coming from luciano's" taking a breath i pause "he's having a night mare and i wake him up and then he gets starteled and pins me down" hazel mouth drops open and she falls back onto her bed.
"i know i know so i was comforting him and then i asked if he wanted to go eat with me and he said sure so we got mcdonald's and headed towards the cliff we used to go to when we started to drive" her eyes glitter "we have to go back there" she nods "i know right" i agree with her "then we drove around some more listing to music and debating whether or not mermaids are real and we ended up in the middle of nowhere. and he just stared at me smiling right and then i thought that i should kiss him and i avoided a potential awkward moment and turned up the music and got out of the far just dancing."
hazel laughs a bit knowing how stupid i am "then we were like dancing hand in mother fucking hand and we just stopped and we're staring at eachother and he looked at my lips for a second and like started to lean down and i got on my tippy toes and then Antonio called and ruind the moment" hazels mouth his wide open in shock
Hazel starts lightly slapping me out of excitement "ouch stop" I laugh and she laughs with me. "your totally gonna kiss soon holy shit he likes you" she slaps her hand over her mouth.
"and he was just staring at me all night smiling like i would catch him. also ever since i cried in front of him were more physically closer like i find myself leaning on him and tracing with his tattoos or something" hazel squeals kicking her legs
"holy shit are we both having something good going for us guy wise" her voice is genuinely surprised oh wow she's like actually right "oh my god yea" huh who would have thought "so i'm guessing you talked to vin?" i grab her hand "yea we talked and we just agreed that there's no labels but we're just getting more serious emotionally" i cringe at the words ''emotionally,and vinchenzo rivera,hell has officially frozen over" i laugh
"hey he told me about louis." i freeze in my place louis he told her about louis i cant believe my brother has admitted that louis is gone for good. losing your best friend is hard i don't know what if do without hazel.
"And how did that go?" My voice is soft "he almost cried and then asked me to leave and afterwards i could hear him crying,i didn't even know that he could cry." she shrugs her shoulders.
"should i tell him about my dad and cassandra" my eyes widen she never mentions her oh my god she really wants something with him "Hazel if you wanna tell him about your parents you can but make sure that's what you want" she nods a little "i know but i feel like i have to because he told me his best friend died in his arms"
i put her face in my hands and look her in the eyes "you don't have to tell him anything and if your not ready then that's okay" she smiles and i remove my hands from her face "i mean telling him my mother kicked me out at 14 for being bi and my father in jail for manslaughter is way lower on the trauma scale" she laughs a bit
"hazel you are so sick and twisted and i love you for it" i smile "i'm headed to bed night" she grabs my arm "can you stay i miss girls nights" she smiles with excitement and i smile with her "oh my god yes" i practically jump under the covers and she turns the tv on
"I want Marcus to apologize for using me to get an inside look to the home" I look up at her "that can be arranged " she laughs "ok come here you whore" leaning closely here i smile "do you think we should drink?" i could so get drunk at this moment
"I don't think we should drink because we're killing someone tomorrow so we'll just watch the vampire diaries?" she looks at me as i snuggle closer to her "good idea" she wraps her arms around me and opens netflix. After a while we both fell asleep.
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The next morning we both woke up "morning hazel" . I stretched accidentally, hitting her lightly and she did the same making us both laugh a bit. "morning niki" we both get up and brush our teeth.
I walk to my room to change and find a very happy Luciano sitting on my bed "uh hi?" I close my door heading over to my bed "so your dad told me to make sure you're not dressed to like you usually would because my parents are here" I nod and then it hits me.
I feel angry now knowing that we are letting the scum of the earth into our home. sitting on my bed next to him i grab his hand "are you gonna be alright? i know it's gonna take everything in me not do jump at him and stab him in the throat" i send him a sarcastic smile
he lightly chuckles "i've been doing this for years i'll be ok but i know self control is hard for you so please try your hardest to not kill him" he lightly squeezes my hand "i promise i'll try" he smiles at me and i smile back.
hopping off my bed i head to my closet "i'm gonna change so you might wanna get out, unless you wanna see me naked" i wink at him walking into my closet i know i did not just openly flirt with him oh god i slap my forehead just proceed with your day like you never said it.
I hear my bedroom door close and I let out a breath of relief. picking out a jean skirt and a white flowy top i pair some gold jewelry and white pumps.
walking out of my closet i make my way to hazels room "let's go sexy we have company" she looks at me with confusion "the Delucas and i'm gonna need you to hold me back for most of the day" tilting her head at me she fixes her bracelet "why what's wrong" anger flares inside of my body think the Mr.deluca is downstairs "Mr.Deluca is what the police would call abusive" she looks at me in shock
"oh my god niki you can't kill him he's going someone warmer than milan '' she's right but i'd let luciano kill him "ok let's go little lady" hazel grabs my hand and we make our way downstairs.
putting on the cold exterior that my family has mastered for the general public i plan on not being as warm to Mr.Deluca this time around Mrs.Deluca however i will be nice too.
"good morning niki" Antonio greets me "hello niki" Mr.Deluca leans in for a hug but i push my hand out "please call me Nicoletta" sending him a small smile.
my attention shifts to Mrs.Deluca ''hi nicoletta how are you" she puts her hand out but i hug her "oh Ms.deluca i missed you how have you been" pulling back we all take our seats. "i've been good thank you for asking niki"
I look at Luciano and he's sending me a look because he just witnessed my behavior. Hazel sits next to me and grabs my hand under the table so she can hold me back just in case,like a dog on a leash.
Mr.deluca takes a seat directly across from me i would love to jump on this table and break this man's esophagus "niki you look very nice today" Antonio sends me a smile knowing I can't attack him so I defeat I smile back and accept it "thank you Antonio how's Tessa" popping a raspberry in my mouth his jaw clenches and I smile.
"So Nicoletta you seem different are you alright dear" I know this piece of shit did not just call me dear "yes I'm perfectly fine Mr.Deluca I've just killed a lot of people these last couple of months" I smile at him trying not to be a bitch "oh such a sweet little thing like you wouldn't hurt a soul it must be something else" all of my brothers laugh in some way as my eyes widen.
Embarrass him letting out a dry chuckle a pick up my mimosa "I'm not sure what you mean by that could you explain sir" my voice drags absence of innocence and his face goes white "enough niki" my fathers voice has warning "no dad I'm genuinely curious as to what Mr.Deluca means" my father scratches the back of his head and let's it happen "so Mr.Deluca explain" my voice is soft. Looking at Luciano he is smiling and his tongue glides across his teeth damn that's hot I smile at him and Mr.Deluca opens his mouth.
"Y-you know forget I said anything" he laughs taking a sip of his drink "no.explain" my voice is a little stern but my smile remains. "It's just women don't kill, it's not like you,you're so small and innocent. a girl like you simply isn't capable of such things'' oh he's getting his ass beat hazel grips my hand digging her nails in my skin so I stay put "well Mr.Deluca don't ever make an assumption about me ever again I am capable of things your brain couldn't even imagine " taking a sharp inhale i continue.
"i know that you don't tourtre much but it's more up my ally you know" I laugh a little "dad were supposed to kill Celia today correct" I father glares at me "yes niki" I nod "great I'll show Mr.Deluca why you always have your hands full" taking another sip of my mimosa I laugh like a white suburban mother.
"Who's Celia?" Mrs.Deluca looks at me "oh she's my mothers best friend she's like an aunt to me but she's useless now. Dad can we actually kill Marcus first I was thinking we could keep her around longer I wanna torture her a bit more" I hear a laugh fall from Mr.Deluca lips.
My jaw clenches and I squeeze Hazel's hand while she holds mine. "Something funny Mr.Deluca" I tilt my head "no just you woman and your sentimental values to things" my father sits up in his chair unhappy with the words coming out of his mouth "you know what Mr.Deluca i think i should show you how i torture people,you all are welcome to join" standing up i walk downstairs to the room marcus is in.
"Niki please don't do anything stupid" luciano stands in the in the hallway and i make my way over to him "you gonna have to define stupid for me" fluttering my lashes at him he sighs "i wont touch him but i'm gonna teach that misogynistic asswipe a verbal lesson on why he shouldn't speak to me the way he did"
"I know I heard but please don't say anything about what I told you" I caress his face with his hand, sending him a small smile "i would never Luciano i'm gonna act like i don't know a thing i promise." he smiles back and nods letting me walk.
A few minutes go by and everyone decides to join me,probably because they are worried I might kill Mr.Deluca for speaking to me the way he did.
"Mr.Deluca before we kill this scumb of the earth what's your favorite torture method" standing up from my chair i let him sit in it "i'm not to particular but personally slices to the back work best for me" i snort how pathetic
"oh come on what are we 13 give me something gruesome" glancing over at everyone they are all standing behind Mr.Deluca trying to keep their laughter contained Mrs.Deluca just watched with a smile.
bending down i place both hands on each armrest coming to face level with him "out with it i wanna know what's the worst you've done" raising my brows at him he turns to the side "look at me when i speak to you Mr.Deluca" looking up my father is biting the inside of his cheek because he knows he didn't raise a little bitch and it's showing.
a bead of sweat falls down his forehead it's freezing down here oh i make him nervous he's not used to women being like this. "what if i just give marcus a beating with my bare fists? hm does that sound good?"
wiping the sweat coming from his forehead i laugh "tell me lorenzo are you uncomfortable with me. you know a woman being in a sense of power" i tilt my head "are you uncomfortable with a woman not on her knees kissing your feet for once in your fucking life?"
With his head still turned i laugh "niki watch it" my father wants to make sure i don't get out of hand "want me to show you what my family does to weak asswipes like-" don't say you "like marcus" pulling away i take a sledge hammer.
"oh marcus wake up" i make my voice a bit lower shorting the words adding a tiny french accent mocking my mother's voice "r-rose?" he opens his eyes "nope her daughter" punching him in the face i take the sledge hammer breaking his knees.
"you've done some bad things marcus." putting the sledge hammer down i turned to see Mr.Deluca wide eyed i turn back stepping up to marcus. "one of those things was hurting someone i love deeply" getting close to his face his breathing is fast.
"no one does that without a price isn't that right dad?" I don't turn around. I keep my eyes on Marcus staring into his green eyes "that's right" I smile and walk to the table grabbing a knife. "what are you gonna do with that?" Mr.Deluca is glued to his seat "cut him free"
walking back over to Marcus I cut all the ropes as he falls face first into the stone floor and I laugh.
kicking his head i realize i have heels on "i should probably take these off" stepping away i take them off handing them to Vinchenzo "thank you" he smiles "careful don't what you to hurt yourself" i laugh "brother you are so sweet"
walking back over to marcus i kick him and he lets out a loud groan "shut up" i flip him over and stomp on his head as hard as i can how i wish this was Mr.Deluca i want to kill him straddling is torso my knees meet the cold floor "i want you to apologize" gripping his chin i turn it "come here hazel" she steps forward smiling at me "apologize to her" my voice is stern
"ha-ha-hazel i'm sorry" punching him in the face once again i break a tooth "like you mean it" pinning his head on the ground he uses his eyes to look up "i'm sorry i used you to get an inside look,and for having meaningless sex even though you thought i cared about you" oh i didn't know about that i look up at hazel and she looks hurt.
She steps away and tears fill in her eyes. I'm guessing she didn't know either rage fills within me
feel the anger,become your anger, my mother's voice flows through my head like a song.
punching him in his face they get fast and more violent as time progresses. i punch the floor by his head once or twice but they all seem to hit him in the face for the most part. a few minutes go by and my knuckles sting but i keep going.
i don't know how long i've been hitting him but his face is beat to the pulp but i keep going. images of luciano telling me about his father and having a panic attack show themselves like a slide show."baise abusive baise abusive baise abusive baise abusive"(abusive fuck) i try to be as quite as possible but i say it with rage.
i image him as Mr.deluca and i didn't even think it was possible my punches could get any more aggressive but they did
kill him kill him kill him kill him kill him kill him kill him kill him kill him kill him
"niki stop" I ignore the voices telling me to stop and I keep going.
"NICOLETTA!" my fathers voice calls but i ignore him and i keep on punching what i wish was Mr.Deluca he hurt hazel,he hurt luciano,he disrespected me kill him kill him kill him kill him kill him channeling anything that makes me angry i keep going.
everything that had made me angry was flowing through my veins and being let out in these punches. He made her cry
kill him to end the life he so wishes to keep. show them that mercy isn't given at your hand my mothers voice plays through my mind.
a hand grabs my shoulder "NIKI HES DEAD!" Vinchenzo picks me up and pulls me back holding my arms behind my back.
looking down a messy still body lays on the ground my breathing is incredibly fast and it's hard to catch my breath. my white shirt is covered in blood splatter and my brother nudges me towards the door "walk" I do glaring at Mr.Deluca whose face has lost all color and is looking at the ground playing with his thumbs in his lap what a pathetic thing all bark,unless your his wife and kid. I make my way to the doorway and make eye contact with everyone.
Hazel and my brothers all stare at me,not in fear of anything but a sense of pride. My father however looks at me like I just killed someone well I did ha. Luciano stares at me holding back a smile like his mother. I see the resemblance. halfway up the stairs I hear a loud gunshot "what was that" my brother takes his hands away from my arms but walks with me "we gotta make sure we use a bullet" his voice is quick.
"Are you guys mad at me?" Vincenzo laughs a bit "no not one bit,it's was about time someone intimidated Mr.Deluca none of us were man enough" shrugging my shoulder I nod "oh alright" by now were upstairs "we just have to pretend were mad so Mr.Deluca is still fond of us" then it comes to my realization "did I scare u guys?" My voice is quite "no niki, we all know what you're capable of. dad is gonna have to show you some control,what you did I haven't even done" huh "you way bigger than me what" he chuckles a bit "I said haven't not couldn't" he playfully pushes me and we get to my room.
"Are you okay to be alone?" I look up at my brother "I'm ok Vincenzo just go see if hazels okay i saw she was upset" he nods and I enter my room closing the door. Walking into my bathroom I look at myself in the mirror pretty. My hair is frizzy and blood is splatters on my face and shirt. the blood is on my skirt as well. My breath is steady and I brush over my lips only to noice my hands are practically covered in blood.
"Holy shit" my knuckles are raw and my fingers look like I dipped my hand in red paint. I stare at myself a bit longer before turning on the sink and placing my hand under. I let out a sharp hiss in reaction to the stinging sensation.
I hear a knock in my door "come in" I go back to washing my hand "hi niki" I snap my head around to see Mrs.Deluca "oh hi Mrs.Deluca" this just got awkward "here let me help" she walks over to the cabinet and pulls out a rag. Just let it happen she's probably gonna yell at you for intimating her husband moving out of the way she runs the towel under cold water and gently grabs my hand aiding it.
"I see where Luciano gets his caring side from" she laughs a bit "why thank you" rose would never do this for you she let you tend to your own injuries "baise abusive"(abusive fuck) huh "I'm sorry" I laugh "I know some French and I'm quite good at it" I swallow hard oh shit she heard me "oh nice" I pull my hand back because she hits a raw spot but she gently grabs my hand once again and I let her.
"You kept repeating baise abusive over and over for abit" my eyes widen lie she can't know Luciano said a thing to u "oh I didn't realize" she nods "who's abusive that man didn't hurt hazel or anything" oh fuck "no it was more emotionally abusive nothing else I just really care about my loved ones"
I laugh making it sound as genuine as possible "no one has ever stood up to my husband like that" oh no "thank you maybe that will put him in his place" I let out a long breath I didn't know I was holding "oh well I don't let a man talk to me like that,does he talk to you like that?"
Good pry she stops adding my hand for a second but quickly goes back "he's just stuck in his ways you know'' ask again "no I don't Mrs.Deluca" scanning her face she continues to look down "please call me Haylee" she laughs "well Haylee I don't,mind explaining" she hesitates "he grew up with a housewife mother and a father who believed women are inferior it's stuck with him" ask "he doesn't hit you does he?" She runs my hand under water "no of course not Niki I would say something I promise" she's a good liar I'll talk to luciano today if we should do something
"Where are your bandaids?" I point to the drawer and she takes out a few and I dry my hand lightly placing the bandaids on my knuckles. She is careful not to hurt me. I wish Rose was nurturing. My eyes fill with tears but I blink them away "are your alright" she tilts her head at me "yea I'm okay why do you ask" her brown eyes stare at me Luciano looks a lot like his mother "I used to know rose she was a good person and a good mother,but that's clearly changed" she holds my hand.
"Yes she has" I turn off all the sadness and memories "well we should head downstairs I'm just gonna change first and meet you" she nods "alright see you downstairs" she smiles at me and walks out. I wish my mom cared.