It's been 4 days since they officially broke up. Weeping with letting go of each other is an understatement, but the two slowly get hold of each other's feelings with the help of their friends. Saint however continued to avoid Zee, not attending any of his remaining class in concern with the man. He just passed whatever homeworks need to be done through either Jimmy and Mixxiw which the two gladly accepted considering the painful circumstances they've both casted. Either of their friends pursued talking about what happened but they knew the couple had completely broken up. Dismay crept their minds but it's only Zee and Saint who could decide whether they hold on to each other or let go. No one dared to make the two of them talk to each other, respecting their boundaries as friends. Zee despite the urge of begging Saint come back to him, controlled himself respecting Saint's decision. It's funny how things turned out, he thought. He pushed Saint away from him, thinking the worst of him and what's making him hard to move on is he did love Saint and it hasn't changed for a bit. He's thankful to Tommy that he was there that day, if not he'll just messed things up more. Tommy talked to him about giving Saint some room to think and healed from all the pains, he could only look at Saint from afar, he made no move regarding Saint's absence on his classes and asks Mixxiw and Jimmy about how Saint's doing since they broke up. A tingling jealousy caressed him everytime Joss would be so all touchy to Saint, but he didn't let it lose his cool, he's not gonna ruin how Saint's bubbly personality slowly coming back from being burried deep days ago. He sighed to think that maybe, maybe..Saint finally realized it's time to let go of him and chose to fall in love once again, not to him but to the person who could make him happy, more he could ever offer.
"Zee..", Tommy interrupted Zee from his thought. "Saint will melt at this rate.", Zee sadly smiled and leaned back to his seat. They are currently having their lunch, 9 tables away from where Saint, Mixxiw and Jimmy's where at.
"I want to talk to him, Tommy..", Zee trailed, restraining the tears clouding his tired eyes. "....I wanna hug him...tight..kiss him..carry him..drivehim back and forth from school to Earth's condo..I miss him so much", Tommy gasped on Zee's sudden confession. "I wish I could still go near him the way you could do.",
"Zee... Saint will come and talk to you, don't lose hope..", Tommy let a sad smile plastered on his face but it didn't convince Zee even a bit.
"It's marks 3 days now before he leave back to New York, I feel like I'm going to lose him completely by then, Tommy...", Zee's voice cracked. "I feel like we're never gonna meet each other again, I'm scared.",
"We can't do anything about it, Zee.. but you guys share the same feelings with each other, I'm sure that feelings will be enough for both of you to.",
"Did he says he still love me?", Zee suddenly remarked that made Tommy to be taken aback. "I guess he did.",
"We didn't ask anything about you guys...the topic itself is painful, how can I even brought that up to him..",
"I know.. I'm sorry", Zee replied.
"At least, you could talked to Earth now, you guys haven't been talking..i don't want our friendship to fall in vain,Zee and I know you do too.",
"He's still mad at me, I don't him to get mad at me even more.",
"Try talking to him, it will help.", Zee then returned his eyes back to Saint who fortunately for met, locked his. Saint's looking at him and the way he fliched tells everything. Saint soon bowed and smile at him, looking back to Mixxiw who's obviously sharing story on how Saint giggled instantly. He smiled unconsciously on what he's seeing, his bleeding heart beat a bit faster.
"I miss you, Saint", he murmured that only Tommy could hear. Tommy's heart clenched on what he's witnessing but all he could do now is to support the man in front of him.
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Saint decided to go the library for it's Zee's class that is next to his schedule. He miss the man, but is able to control his desire ran back to Zee just like what happened earlier as he seen him talking with Tommy, He didn't realize he's been staring at him that long until their eyes met. He smiled on him to hide the butterflies caressing his chest. He's feeling better, he would still cry over how things went but it's no longer that hard. He's able to breathe out, and see better. He's thankful that no one asked more and Zee did give him some space. He just wished that before he leaves, Zee and Earth would get in good terms again. He sighed remembering how stubborn Earth is. Resting his head on the table, ready to close his eyes when he felt someone pulled the seat next to him. He smiled to see the man he wished to go near.
"Ooh..P'Zee~", Saint mumbled and smiled, still resting his face on the table. "am I dreaming?",
"Saint..", Zee couldn't help but smile on what he's seeing. He knew that once Saint realized it, he'll just..
"Shit! Mr. Panich!", Saint jolted up, losing his track of his chair, lucky enough for Zee's anticipating the event to happen. Before Saint fall from his chair, Zee's able to support Saint's chair back. "I'm sorry..", Saint mumbled fidgeting over his fingers, heart-beat racing undeniably.
"It's fine..", Zee noticing it. "Can I sit next to you? This is the only empty seat I've found.", He then asked and Saint nodded. "You don't have to mind me, you can take your nap,Saint.", He wanted to rub Saint's back but decided not to. "I'll leave soon as I finish, I'm not gonna bother..",
"It's okay.. it's just that I got surprised.", Saint honestly replied. He knew he missed the man but never realized he did, SO MUCH. ".. don't you have a class?",
"I cancelled it. It will be the last session so I gave them the time to mingle with their friends.", Zee replied, happy that Saint finally talk to him. Though he felt like he broke Saint's personal space, but he did really came solely for work and it's just he's lucky to meet Saint.
"I see, that's great then.", Saint smiled underneath, he still looking at down but he could feel that Zee's stares on him.
"I saw Mixxiw and Jimmy going to the canteen, maybe they're looking for you.",
"They knew I'm here.", Saint replied. Silence soon started to creep between them. Silence that even forced Saint to yawn. Zee smiled unconsciously. "Go take a nap, Saint.",
"Uhm.",
"It's fine, I promise not to bother, I'll leave soon as I finish it.", Zee added, and Saint looked at him. Can he really sleep with his heart beating crazy?", Saint asked himself.
"I-i'll take a nap then", Saint dug his face on the table, looking opposite to where Zee was. Zee ignored it and happy enough that Saint didn't push him away or avoided him. He then took his laptop and do his work. It didn't took long enough for Saint to fall asleep, and tilted his head back unto Zee's direction. Zee closed his laptop and decided to just study Saint's face, he rested his face on his palm and just looked at Saint long enough for him to lost count of the time, to forget about what he's supposed to be doing. His hands worked against him as it landed on Saint's forehead, tucking some of Saint's hair back to his ear. A view he missed, Zee thought to himself. And his stares continued. He blinked when Saint's brows frowned and rubbed his nape,and took it as Saint's uncomfortable of his position. He think twice but lately took the risk of scooping Saint's head, careful enough for him not to wake up. He then let Saint to lean unto him, arching his body for Saint to completely, comfortably sleep as he wrap his arm around Saint's shoulder, pulling him closer. He drag his one hand to make Saint's head to use his shoulder as his pillow. Zee's uncomfortable but at least Saint's comfortable,he thought. He didn't care if at then end of the day he'll surely have pain in parts of his body. He took a deep breath as he breath in Saint's scent, his hand once again touch Saint's bare skin, he then kissed Saint's head.
"P'Zee..", Saint whined that made Zee froze. Afraid that he woke Saint up, zee looked down to Saint's face and sighed a relief when Saint's eyes still closed. "... don't move", Zee chuckled realizing Saint's dreaming of HIM.
"Hm, I won't move..", Zee mumbled. Lucky enough, they are on the very back of the library.
"Comfy..", Zee was stunned when suddenly snaked his arms around his waist. "...cold.", Zee pulled Saint closer to him.
"I'm gonna take advantage of you, Saint..", he smiled and tapped Saint's shoulder as what he always do when Saint's sleep. Zee just watched how students come and go, ignored how time flew just like that. He's about to yawn when Tommy and Mixxiw arrived at the same time. Tommy's frowning, and Mixxiw had this confused look.
"What's happening?", Tommy glared at Zee, whispering.
"He fell asleep..", Zee replied softly.
"Under your embrace?",
"He's uncomfortable earlier..",
"Sai..", Zee glared at Mixxiw who immediately stepped back the moment their eyes met. "Don't wake him up, please.. I'll take care of him",
"We need to leave now..", Mixxiw shared.
"I'll drive him home...please give me this time..please?", Zee begged. Tommy sighed, and Mixxiw rolled his eyes.
"Fine..just take care him, sir.", Mixxiw replied.
"I will, don't worry about that.", Zee smiled.
"I gotta go, Jimmy's waiting downstairs.",
"Thank you", Zee replied and Mixxiw nodded as he left. Mixxiw ain't bitter, he's also happy the way things are. Saint's became way too open to them this past days, so he knew there's still lingering love in Saint's heart for Zee. Tommy looked at Zee. "He knew I'm here, Tommy..",
"I'm not saying anything...just that it's kinda missing seeing you two together again.", Tommy smiled that almost made Zee cried, kidding.
"hm..",
"I gotta go.. I'll see you tomorrow.",
"Okay", Zee replied, and slapped Tommy's hand who's about to touch touch Saint's forehead. "You'll wake up.",
"Tsk!", Tommy growled. "Goodbye!", Zee laughed and sighed. He looked up to the ceiling and whispered. "Thank you, Tor."
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"Saint?", Jimmy queried soon as he saw Mixxiw without Saint.
"He's sleeping..", Mixxiw replied, and turned Jimmy around.
"We're going home, you should have waken him up.",
"He's with Mr. Panich..",
"Huh? What... shouldn't it be the reason why you should have awaken Saint?", Jimmy trailed and about to go back when Mixxiw held his arm.
"Let them...Are you still mad at Mr. Panich?",
"No, why would I?", Jimmy replied.
"Then..let them.. Saint will leave 3 days from now..let them have time together...as friends at least.", Mixxiw begged.
"If Saint..goes home crying again..Mixx... I'll kick your ass!", Jimmy teasingly exclaimed.
"As if you can..", Mixxiw countered. "Saint's fine now, Jimmy... let's go.", Jimmy rolled his eyes and set it on Mixxiw's phone as it suddenly rung.
"Now what are you gonna tell your boyfriend..that is SAINT'S BROTHER..", Jimmy teased and Mixxiw glared at him. Jimmy only raised this brows up. "Let's go.", Jimmy led the way as Mixxiw answered the phone. He did tell Earth but reassured that Saint's fine.
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Zee felt someone tapped his shoulder and the moment he opened his eyes, the face of the librarian made him flinch.
"We're gonna close, Professor Panich.", the librarian smiled pointing on the Saint who's still asleep on his shoulder.
"Ah, sorry, Miss. I fell asleep.", Zee replied and gained a nod from the librarian soon as she leaves. Zee looked at his watch and see it's 5:00 pm already, when did he fell asleep? Zee asked himself. He then soon wake Saint who's still on his deep slumber. "Saint..", He whispered, but Saint didn't budge in. "Saint, wake up"
"Hm..", Saint stirred on his sleep and groaned but still not waking up.
"Saint..the library's going to close already", Zee once again murmured that made Saint's eyes to open instantly. Feeling a warm hands rubbing his hands, and chest going up and down made him looked up to Zee made their faces just inches away. Saint eyes automatically dropped down to Zee's fluttering eyes and red puffed lips. Zee frowned the way Saint froze looking at him, but soon smiled that made Saint's face to warm up. "You okay?", Zee asked when Saint finally leaned back and rubbed his eyes as if nothing just happened.
"What happened? What time is it?",
"5 pm,"
"Oh I slept that long?", Zee smiled.
"Mixxiw and Jimmy had gone home, let's go.. I'll drive you home.", Zee trailed..
"Oh, no need., I'll just text P'Jo...",
"Please?", Zee begged and Saint looked at him.
"You sure?",
"Uh, if that's okay with you?", Zee asked and Saint gave him small smile.
"Khub...",
"Let's go.", Zee replied, helping Saint with his stuff. He led the way and let the younger to follow him. He's happy, so much.
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Chapter 36 done!
Sorry, Late update.
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