WHEN THERE'S ME AND YOU

CHAPTER 34

"I'm sorry about everything,P'", Saint trailed as they sit on the empty seat located on the corner of the lobby. Tommy shook his head and smiled on Saint.

"No, you're not at fault. We heard the truth from Jimmy, you don't have to blame yourself over the matter,Saint..", Saint bit his lips, still couldn't look on Tommy eyes. "I came here to apologise. I know you are hurt by the way we acted this past days, but we couldn't help it... it's just too painful for us to know that Tutor's dead.. he's been a dear friend to us, to me..to Zee..", Saint nodded. "..so, when I heard what happened to him...and his heart... transplanted on you.. I lost it. Automatically, my anger, sadness, disappointment, they seemed to consume me and ended up blaming you on what happened..my reasoning left me..gone!", He honestly added. "I forgot that you're hurting too.",

" you don't have to apologise,P'...I don't hold any thing against you and P'Zee...I completely understand where you guys coming from...", Saint smiled on Tommy. ".. I'd do the same, you're friends almost all your life...I won't be even surprise anymore if you guys completely hate me", Tommy reached for Saint's shoulder as he saw the sad smile drawn on his face.  "I really felt like I came here to cause you guys trouble... Is it okay if I call him P'Tutor?", Saint looked at Tommy, he didn't even realized his eyes were filled with unshed tears, Tommy nodded that brought a soft smile to Saint. "P'Tutor is said to be waiting for his slot on teaching there, I feel bad that because of the accident, he could not do it at all... Once I go back in New York, I'll try to know more about his living there, I heard he didn't contacted you...",

"Saint..you don't have to do that?",

"Let me, P'...", Saint replied.

"Are you really going back to New York?", Tommy queired and Saint nodded.

"Yeah, I actually made a promise to dad that if something like this happens, if he have to drag me back to New York, he'll do it for me to go home..I don't want that... I'm sure that he's already furious on me that I have investigate someone behind his back..", he smiled.

"Is that for good?",

"Yeah, I think so. The semester is about to end and by next school year, I'm a 2nd year student..so I guess I have to continue my college life there..besides, I think it's for the best, if I stay here.... I'll be just reminding you and  P'Zee of what both of just lost..", Tommy bitten his lips, wiping his unshed tears. 

"I'll apologise again about what we've done to you, Saint..", Saint shook his head and smiled on Tommy.

"You've done nothing to me, rest assure.",

"Now...I want you not blame yourself about it, Saint...", Saint looked at Tommy. "... you're not even to blame to from the start.. we're all just surprised..we just got too consumed by our emotions, that you ended up blaming yourself..that we ended up blaming you.. now, that we know the truth, stop beating yourself.. I'm sure Tutor won't like what's happening here...",

"I will be forever responsible for all this P', you won't take that away from me..", Saint sadly smiled.

"Oh my God, you're too young to suffer like this.", Tommy trailed once again collecting Saint's unto his embrace. "I'm sorry about what happened to you and Zee..", Saint nodded and broke the hug.

"It couldn't be help, P', everything about me reflects P'Tutor..my physical appearance..and now his heart.. I don't want to hurt him anymore with showing my face in front of him again..",

"You guys will see each other again in school even if only week left....I think you guys should talk about it, first... it's not yet too late to fix this...your relationship...now, that he learned about the truth... I know.." Saint shook his head and looked at Tommy.