"Saint..", a tap on a table made Saint pulled back from his thoughts. Jimmy concernly looked at him as he was only flipping the pages of his book but not even reading it.
"Aw, P'",
"You okay?",
"Yeah," Saint smiled on him. It's been three days since he learned the information, the information that made his heart clenched. Taunting by the thought that his donor may still be alive if only his heart wasn't transplanted on him, if the doctor only didn't gave up on him. He wanted to ask his parents but he's afraid that they'll get angry to him for inquiring things. Do they even know about it? Saint thought to himself.
"Hey, you're not okay..", Jimmy insisted closing his own notes. "Did you and Zee fight?",
"No, we didn't..", Saint shrugged
"Then?",
"P', I am feeling guilty...",Saint looked at Jimmy with sad eyes. A look that Jimmy saw for the first time.
"Guilty? For what?", Jimmy dragged his chair closer to Saint.
"For my donor...", Saint's lips trembled, Jimmy frowned.
"Why? Hey..",
"He could have been alive, P'", he murmured, unsure of Jimmy heard him.
"What are you murmuring about...tell me?",
"Sam Denovan, a Thai and he's my donor.", Saint trailed. "Do you know one?",
"No,..",
"Do you know someone that I can hire as private investigator?", Saint asked and Jimmy frowned.
"I don't know any...but hey, even if I do, I won't tell you..",
"Why not?",
"Cause I don't want you to beat yourself out it. Why do you think hospital has their confidential policies over their patience..", Saint rolled his eyes off to Jimmy. "
"I freaking hate that policy..", Saint exclaimed.
"It's to protect both of their patients,Saint.", Jimmy replied. "I'm not even been gone into the same situation as you, but I know how weird it would be to know the person who owns the main reason why you're keeping alive...that you're alive with the help on someone else part..",
"I wanna know about him.."
"And what?",
"and..",
"Hey, what's with this tension?", Mixxiw entered the classroom, going to them straight. "What are you guys talking about that you two look so serious?",
"Saint's donor..."
"Your donor?", Mixxiw took his seat. "Hm, what about it?",
"I wanna know.about him... I've been trying to investigate about him but it's too hard to find..",
"Hm, why would you like to know about him?", Mixxiw asked.
"I don't know.. it's just that I find it hard to settle without me knowing the truth..",
"Do you know anything about him now?",
"Hm, my friend told me that he's around 25 years old and he's a Thai..his name is not registered in US so we concluded that it's only a nickname or something..",
"Oh, that would be hard, but Thai? That's awesome.",
"Yeah, no wonder I felt that urge of coming back here in Thailand suddenly. In 12 years I lived with my parents in U.S, I never felt it, but when I had this heart, I had it. I started to dream about someone I didn't know, that maybe it's him...",
"You've seen his face in your dream?",
"No...but I dreamt about P'Zee sometimes even though I haven't know him well... I've heard him say P'Zee's name..", Saint trailed that made the two gasped.
"There's lot of Zee here in Thailand, how sure you are that it's your P'Zee..", Jimmy remarked that made Saint to look at him.
"I don't know if it's him...but I have this dream once.. the next morning when we became a couple, he thanked for making him happy...Him? You think it's all coincidence?", Mixxiw laid back on his seat.
"Why don't you ask him if he knows him? If he knows that...",
"Sam Denovan..",
"...that Sam Denovan?", Jimmy suggested.
"I don't want to.. I'm scared.", Saint smiled but lips were trembling.
"And why would you be? Won't it cut your chase if you ask him directly if he knows one? What if he do..",
"I.. I'm scared. What if it's someone dear to him... I don't want him to hate me, at least not now.",
"Hey, there's 100 possibility that maybe it's not your Zee..",
"...and there's a hundred possibility too that maybe it's him..", Saint countered.
"Hey, relax... don't stress yourself of it.. do you want us to ask Mr. Panich?", Mixxiw suggested.
"No.. please don't.", Saint begged.
"Okay, okay..just calm down..we won't.. it's not up to us anyway..",
"Please don't tell my brother that I've been investigating about my donor.."
"But why?",
"Just don't", Saint smiled.
"Okay", Mixxiw smiled also. Jimmy sighed and rubbed Saint's back.
"It's okay, Saint.. everything will be fine.", Jimmy gave Saint reassuring smile.
"Thank you", Saint smiled.
"Lucky that our next class is your happy pill..",
"Happy pill? P'Zee?", Saint chuckled. "Don't start on me P'",
"Hey... now, that...do you know that this guy..", pointing on Mixxiw. " is finally dating your brother?", Mixxiw slapped Jimmy's hand.
"Oh, you are?", Saint's eyes widen, showing a convincing surprised reaction.
"You didn't knew?",
"Kidding..", Saint grinned, Mixxiw blushed. "I know naa..my brother's too obvious that he's already dating you already. He's been giggling, radiating some kind on love aura, talking almost every night, and I love you"s, you see, P', my brother is too simple minded.", Saint added.
"Ohh... almost every night huh?", Jimmy teased.
"And how about you, P'?", Saint asked Jimmy.
"Zero, Saint..all zero.",
"I'm sorry about the last time," Saint apologetically smiled.
"It's fine, it's not your fault.", Jimmy smiled. "It's your BROTHER's fault..", Saint ended up laughing. More minutes passed by, and the bell rang. It's Tommy's class, so the three of them decided to just stay quiet and listened.
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Saint sighed as he waited for Zee on the parking lot. He's left alone when Jimmy and Mixxiw went to their part time jobs. He's once again caught on deep thought that maybe his donor is really acquainted to Zee. He's back to square one. Aside from Tutor, is there any of his family or friends that went to U.S? But they didn't they...wait, Tutor..he said that it's been awhile since he lost contact him, but there's no way...his family.. wouldn't he let him know, Saint thought to himself shaking the fear that once crept in to him. Shit! He cursed.
"Hey..",
"P'Zee..", Saint staggered when he jumped offfrom where he's leaning, Zee's quick enough to catch him by his waist.
"What are you thinking so hard again, your lips will bleed at this rate..",
"Oh, I didn't know I'm biting it.", Saint smiled.
"You are? So, what's you're thinking huh?",
"You..", Saint pouted.
"Me? How about me?", Zee opened the door of the backseat and deposited his bag, taking Saint's things and had it next to his stuff.
"That how can you look exactly like a koala..", Saint eyes playfully goes up and down, Zee chuckled on his cute acting of his boyfriend.
"Do you know that it's only you who calls me like that?", Zee leaned forward to Saint.
"Come on, you look like one..I have lots of koala on my gallery..",
"You really like them, do you?",
"P'Zee..I don't like them..I love them", Saint smiled.
"That's why you love me..", Zee took a 360 look around, securing the perimeter, he took a peck on Saint's lips.
"P'Zes.. we're outside..",
"Don't mind", Zee smiled rubbing his nose to Saint's. He opened the front seat's door and led Saint inside.
"Thank you", Saint smiled when Zee took another peck.
"I miss you, you know that..", Saint ended up laughing on the remark.
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Chapter 25 done!
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