A voice In the dark

Future

I live within the present,
But am stuck within the past.
I look toward the future,
With hopes that never last.
I seek consolation,
And truth from all the lies.
The thoughts that plague my being,
As such as I despise.
My heart weighs heavy with things that I desire,
Yet these wishful thinkings shall never be acquired.
They say that time heals all past wounds,
If this be so, then why am I still consumed?
I hope that one day these feelings shall subside,
Until I start a new life ideal within my eyes.
And if it be that I am blessed with a child I call mine,
I swear to thee and promise thee to stand by till the end of time

I don't have a name for this