State of Mind

Part Three

"I'm going to go slow with you baby. I want you to trust me before you let me inside you" she explains, sitting next to me on the bed as one of her hands strokes the side of my face calmingly. "Have you ever touched yourself before? Have you ever made yourself orgasm?"

My breath caught in my throat, even though I told myself to be prepared for those kinds of questions, she still caught be by surprise.

I nodded, feeling the nerves in my stomach tighten into a thick ball. Anxious, but excited.

"I need your verbal reply my lovely, yes or no will do" her voice is gentle, and even though I'm nervous, I'm not scared. I know I'm safe, I know she won't hurt me, and I know that I want this, I want her.

"Yes, ma'am"

"Good" she smiles proudly, making my stomach fill with butterflies and an odd sense of accomplishment; I felt good about myself for pleasing her. She didn't make me feel cheap or bought; she made me feel like I was one of a kind, something she'd never seen before and doubts she'll ever see again.

"Have you ever used toys?" She asked softly, her hand still not touching me anywhere but my already exposed skin; she was driving me mad with want, and as I squirmed beneath her touch, I saw exactly how much pleasure she was getting out of seeing me like this; her eyes twinkled as she looked at my writhing mess of a body.

"Yes" I breathed out, sounding like I'd just been punched in the chest. My heart was pounding, my head was swimming, and my body just wanted more.

"I have a vibrator here, I'd like you to use it. We haven't gone over the contract, so I don't want to touch you quite yet. I'd like to see how you touch yourself"

In one swift movement, she was up and opening one of the nightstand drawers, producing a rabbit vibrator. It was slim and sleek, not overly phallic looking, and very intimidating.

"Do you know how to use this love?" She asks me, sitting back down next to me on the bed, looking at me excitedly as she held out the smooth silicone toy.

"Yes ma'am" I reply, nodding quietly, before I took a deep breath and gulped nervously. My palms were officially sweating again as the intensity of the situation began to sink in.

"Alright sweetheart. Take your clothes off and lie down for me"

My blood ran cold. Suddenly I was camera shy, and the idea of her seeing me completely naked while she remained completely clothed terrified me. Maybe it was because she had all the power, maybe it was because I didn't want her to be disappointed with what she saw, either way, my stomach did a back flip and going against every single nerve in my body, sat upright to undress.

Slowly, I took off one article of clothing after the other, watching as her eyes raked up and down my body. They seemed to grow darker and darker the more exposed my skin became, which drew out a deep blush from my cheeks and chest.

"You're exquisite" she whispers, when I'm completely naked "I've never seen a body so beautiful; you're a work of art, Amelia"

The use of my given name stirred something up within me; she was purely genuine in her compliments, which again caused me to blush an even deeper shade of crimson.

"Here you go, lovely. Show me how you'd fuck yourself" her low words and adoring gaze gave me confidence I didn't even know I'd had; with a nod and a determined smile, I took the toy and decided to have some fun.

If she wanted to watch, I'd give her a show.

Without saying anything, I flipped over so I was on my knees, which I can tell surprised her by the way one golden eyebrow arched perfectly onto her forehead.

"I prefer to ride when I fuck myself" I breathe out an explanation, before sliding the toy into my wet cunt easily. The stretch caught me by surprise at first, but it wasn't anything I couldn't handle.

"Turn it on, Dolly" she instructed, once I'd gotten the the toy completely settled into my pussy. "Make sure the ears are on your clit, it feels good baby I promise" she added on, prompting a quick nod.

After finding the small silicone button, I take in a deep breath for courage before clicking it on and feeling the toy buzz to life inside me. I couldn't help the gasp that left my lips at the sensation on my clit. I felt my body growing warmer and warmer as the sensations warmed up my muscles.

"Move for me"

So I did. I began to rock back and forth slowly, easing myself into it the way I always did when I was alone. It wouldn't be any fun if she didn't see exactly how it went down when I was on my own.

I let out a long, drawn out moan as I repositioned the rabbit ears directly onto my clit, feeling shivers of pleasure roll down my spine.

"Faster"

I bit my lip, feeling the sweat beading down my forehead. I moved to grind down mercilessly upon the vibrating toy inside of me, rocking my hips harder and harder, clenching my jaw as the ears of the rabbit toy assaulted my clit. My stomach was in a knot that grew and grew; I could feel the orgasm building rapidly inside me.

I rocked harder, feeling my feet twitching as the vibrations against my clit grew harder and orgasm approached faster.

Flopping backwards to get the plastic deeper, I was now laying on my back, thrusting my hips up violently with every thrust of the toy, which was buried so deep within me that my fingertips (grasping at the end of the toy) hit my cunt lips with every rock.

I gasped, hitting my g-spot hard, 'yes, yes, that feels good' I muttered words of encouragement to myself, moving my hips harder as I could feel my breathing became shallow pants.

Still, I fucked herself harder and harder onto the plastic shaft, wanting to feel it deeper inside of me. I could feel Arizona's eyes on me, I could feel her looking at everything, and that only turned me on more.

My one woman show was not disappointing, and as the finale became closer and closer, I began to sigh and moan and twitch; it took every muscle in my body not to give in early. I wanted to finish, god I wanted to finish so badly, but she hadn't said I was allowed, and so I waited.

"Are you waiting for permission to cum, Dolly?" She murmurs lowly, her mouth right next to my ear as I continued to move the toy inside me. "Like a good slut, hm? Waiting for me to tell you you're allowed to use my little cunt to make you feel pleasure? Because that, Dolly" she reached a hand down to tap at my cunt, which immediately make me arch into her touch, which was quickly taken away from me. "That pussy is mine you're fucking it because I allow you to, is that clear?"

"Yes ma'am" I gasp out, knowing I won't last much longer if she kept talking in my ear the way she was.

"Good, I'm glad we're on the same page" through the slits of my squeezed-shut eyes, I see her smile affectionately down at me. "You can cum now Dolly, you deserve it"

The vibrations against my clit felt like fire, and when I came I screamed; my back arched with a snap and my eyes shut tightly together, trying to find the breath that the orgasm robbed my lungs of.

"Good job, love" Arizona praises, moving to lay down in bed with me. "You did so so good for me" her arms wrapped around me, she seemingly didn't care about the sweat that coated my entire body, and I felt calm.

She ran her hands up and down my bare back, her finger tips dragging lightly across my clammy and warm skin, humming lightly as I breathed heavily, still trying to recover from having the air stolen from my lungs.

Completely spent, I laid with her and allowed myself to feel a type of relaxation and peace I hadn't felt in what felt like forever.

"You're okay Dolly" she said softly "I've got you"

It was at her words that I'd identified what I was feeling, through all the peace and calm and quiet, I felt something I hadn't felt in ages.

Safe.

A/N- whelp. There it is. Hope y'all like it, because there's more coming

~Daisy