Yearning For Love

(1) WHO AM I ?

Why do people always think that a silent person is so mysterious? Is it because we keep our mouths shut? Is it because we don't express much about ourselves by using words? Why can't they think that we also have emotions. How unfair...

Just think...

There are some people who aren't talking because they are afraid. People like me are afraid of chatting because we were once bullied.

How embarrassing...

Life doesn't always work out in the same way...

Oh God, I wish I could find everything simple as cake like I used to have when I was young.

Being a teenager sucks for a person like me. I was mocked, bullied whenever I express something. Not only in the school, at home!!!

I'm Laura Parker who's 18 years old. Even though I'm surrounded by a family, I know, only I know, that I've been living alone all the time. I had my parents only for parents' meetings. They weren't beside me when I needed them most. I'm not blaming. That's pointless. They were super busy with their own work. I was another object for them. If Lolly my puppy wasn't with me I don't know how I could survive... Dog is the Man's best friend quote is 100% true for me.

I'm different by the way I'm thinking. I'm confident with my Chemistry and Geometry. I'm one of the favorites among the masters of my school.

Actually, LEARNING was the only option left me to survive in my boring life. Ever since after I got bullied by them, I don't have courage to chat with people even if I love to.

When I was younger, I didn't find any speciality of having friends. I just stayed alone by building up my own world.

After being a teenager...

This sucks...

Every time I see my classmates chatting and hanging out themselves leaving me, I feel terrible. They just mock and leave me. How many moments have I spent crying after seeing teenage girls hanging out with guys and having fun...

I have so many things to share but no one cares about me.

No one's interested in talking with me.

When will I get my match?

I know, unless I find my soulmate, I'll never be able to express myself...

You have no idea how I control my pain. Apart from me the only thing who can speak out, is my mind. I communicate thousands of words at a while.

Poor Laura...

Actors play double roles verbally.

For me, it's a mind game.

For you, it may be a daddy joke.

Oh God... I want to be socialized. I want to find out how much I feel when I'm bounded with a bond.

Why can't I??

Even if I like, how can I??

I'm not The Cinderella who has a Fairy Godmother to Grant help whenever needed.

I'm not that beautiful Elsa with freezing powers.

This Laura is all alone.

The only thing she can do is just waiting...

Jesus... When will she get her chance??