beside you | wroetoshaw

part thirty-three

"but we both had something to drink, fair do's he wasn't in the video but he still drank with us. i'm not stupid enough to do all that again especially since how it's ended before but i will still be friends with him" i ranted into my phone

"look i just don't think it's good for both of your heads if you two snog one day and act as if nothing happened the next" freya spoke back

"stop saying snog, it makes me feel like we are in year 10" i laughed

"well this fucking on and off shit makes it seem like you are in year 10" freya annoyingly said

"i just don't see a big deal, even since that happened he hasn't bring it up and neither have freezy or lux" i explained, while staring at my ceiling

"but you're still thinking about it, just like he will be as well"

"what makes you think i'm thinking about it" i asked

"why did you phone me"

"toooooo talk about the in real like tinder, i'm nervous"    i quickly made up

"and why are you nervous?" she asked

"to-"

"to see harry, do you know why? because you kissed and never talked about it!" she shouted down the phone

"freyaaaa it's not like that though, you need to listen to me. if it was weird we wouldn't have acted as FRIENDS this past week or so, it's perfectly normal." i explained one more time

"this is bullshit em, you need to talk about it to him. even if you both say it was a drunken mistake and move on, just talk about it" she told me, softening her tone

"okay" i mumbled

"so have fun at the shoot today, don't overthink it because you will do great and before you leave, talk to harry" she quickly said

"ye ye i will, i'll text you after to tell you how it goes" i groaned getting up from my seat to put my shoes on

"bye em"

"in a bit" i said while ending the call and shoving my phone in my back pocket

i looked in my hallway mirror, making sure i looked somewhat okay since i was filming 'sidemen tinder irl: youtube edition' today.
fair to say i was shitting myself.

after fixing my hair a few times i was finally content with how i looked and made my way to my car.
i felt myself start getting shaky and jittery while turning my car on and starting to drive. i quickly tried to shake it off but it wouldn't budge.

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i pulled up to a street down from youtube space, the song 'two people' by sam fender just finished playing which somehow calmed my nerves ever so slightly.

i knew one of the girls who were coming here today, Jordan Lipscombe, we were friends in secondary school and we were actually close for a while after but lost contact the more we aged.
but luckily today i would be reunited with her.

i texted her telling her i was here, in response to her message saying she was already there waiting for me.
not even a minute later i see her walk out of the youtube space building and lightly jog up to me bringing me into a hug.

"oh my god it's been so long" jordan squealed

"it's been yonks hasn't it? you look amazing" i complimented her while we started walking back to the building she had previously walked out of

"so do you, all grown up now" she added

"of course" i laughed

after registering in, we got escorted to the waiting room which was filled with a bunch of woman. both from youtube and twitch that i recognised.