Lost in the heavenly skies(Forgiving Her Series#2)

Chapter 17

I looked at him for a hot minute trying to analyze what he just told me. My tummy suddenly felt shallow and cold.

My breathing became so fast and a lump formed inside my throat. It hurted so much, I want to cry. But I don't want him to see me crying.

Inalis niya ang tingin sa'kin at saka tinuro ang langit. "Look, there's a shooting star, make a wish" He said and closed his eyes.

Mapait akong ngumit at saka pinanood siyang magwish.

I wish...in another life it wouldn't be this hard to love eachother.

As if that wish will come true. Umiling ako at saka suminghap, dinadama ko ang sakit dahil alam kong tatak at tatak sa'kin ang araw na 'to sa ayaw at sa gusto ko.

"Anong winish mo?" I asked. The shooting star was beautiful, it was fast though but beautiful.

"I wish we didn't met" Umawang ang labi ko.

"In that way, you wouldn't feel guilty in leaving me. In that way we wouldn't be in this position where we're both confused. In that way you wouldn't have to deal with me anymore. Kasi nagsawa kana sa'kin dati, what are the odds of you being tired at me for the second time?" Tears pooled in my eyes. It was as if, every fucking words he told me were daggers that kept on striking my heart.

"You said It was so tiring to love me, then why would you want a chance to be with me again?" Because all of the words I told you five years ago weren't true...

Binaba ko ang tingin dahil sa luhang pilit na tumutulo sa pisnge ko. "You're the reason why I'm so scared to love again. You're my best and worst heartbreak, Alexa" Suminghap ako at saka inalis ang mga luhang nasa pisnge ko.

I was so speechless, I did not know how to react to everything he's saying to me.

"Then what is this all for? Ano 'toh? bakit mo 'ko dinadala sa ganito?" Hindi ko na napigilang isumbat 'yon sakaniya.

"Kung ganito naman pala dapat hindi na ako nagsasayang ng oras na pakisamahan ka putangina" I stood up but he caught my wrist.

"I...I'm-confused" He answered. Pumikit ako ng mariin at saka binawi ang kamay ko mula sa pagkahawak niya.

"Umuwi nalang tayo" He's confusing me so much and it makes me hate him. Pero hindi ko kayang magalit sakaniya dahil alam kong ako pa din ang mali saming dalawa.

"Sige, magpahinga ka muna. Siguradong pagod ka" Malumanay niyang tugon na mas kinainis ko. Why do he have to say those things? Punyeta naman.

This day had been to much for me. Kapag masaya may kapalit na malungkot kinabukasan, hindi ba pwedeng masaya nalang lagi?

"I-I'm so sorry, nasaktan kita. Sorry" Tumuko ako at saka umayos ng upo.

"It's fine, you're the only one who can hurt me anyway, if it's from you even if it breaks me it's worth it"

Hindi na siya nagsalita non. The silence made me so sleepy, I didn't know I already fell asleep.

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"S-Salamat, goodnight" He looked like he was in his own world. Nakasandal lang siya sa upuan habang deretsong nakatingin sa daan. Ang isa niyang kamay ay nakapatong pa din sa manobela at ang isa naman at nasa hita niya.

"Aalis na ako" He didn't even responded so I ignored the fact that he didn't answer me and started walking towards our door.

Sinarado ko ang pinto at saka sumanda doon habang blankong nakatingin sa kisame.

I want to cry my heart put because of the excruciating pain in my chest. I have hurt the love of my life for my family. For my sister.

Siguro nga mali ako, wala siyang alam sa mga nangyari pagkatapos ko siyang iwanan kaya ayos lang.