When I said that I was willing to stay even if I had no reason at all,
It does not mean that I was willing to unlove myself.
It does not mean that I was willing to stay even if you're taking me for granted.
I did not mean that I'd stay even if you don't need me at all.
When I said that I was willing to stay even if I had no reason at all,
It means that if you're afraid to let me go.
It means that if you're willing to work out everything
With me
Just to make me stay.
And I needed you to be the open creature,
Not afraid of showing the wounds,
Not afraid of telling me everything from the past,
Not afraid of telling me about the demons inside your head,
Not afraid to be vulnerable in me,
Because how can I understand you if you're not willing so?
How can I fully trust you when you're not trusting me
The wounds, the past that caused you to be this person
You are today;
The person I am currently loving.
I can't waste my life for the love that is not so sure about me.
I can't trust the love who could not trust me
With the past that made you feel miserable
Because how can I handle you with care
If you're not willing to be taken care of?
I cannot wait for the love who can't trust
Itself once the past returns.
It's not my responsibility to fix things alone
While it needed fixing from the past.
You are right,
When you said that
It is not my responsibility
To make you happy
Because to tell you
It is not my job to love the person
Who is not yet done loving the previous one.
It is not my job loving the person
Who is trying to search for that previous one
In the other being.
It is not my job to love the person
Who doesn't want to be loved.
It is not my job to love the person
Who doesn't want to trust me
With his demons
With his weakness
And with his whole being.
And yes, you don't want to be selfish to me
Yet for the whole time, you have no idea
That you were being selfish
For being not ready to be vulnerable
For not being ready to be loved
Wholeheartedly.
I don't despise you,
But instead I understand you,
Cause I were like you once.
I'll be whispering my wishes
Tonight, for you to be able
To confront your fears
Making it as your ally
And sit with your emotions
And for you to finally discover
Who you are
And to be capable
Of loving a new person next time.
Because no one can love a person
Who doesn't want to be loved.
Like me,
I can't love a person
Who is not yet over
Their past love.
