The one who left me in shore
seems fine despite the ocean lore
after I lured myself to somewhere
I thought I might be fine.
Then, I found this one;
younger, handsome, I supposed.
And
We tell myths,
I could tell it is
because we both asked if the character
in our own stories do exist.
So
Like a damsel in distress
trying to find for savior,
thinking he could be the one,
swept away by this young one.
He succeeded.
He's the only one who did
after those I thought
who is too good ones tried.
Felt like my constellations
have been moved to its rightful place.
Amidst the controlled dose of ecstasy,
I decided to be back to the ocean
with the faith in the universe
of love that I've foreshadowed
and decided to explore
another area of the sea.
But in the deepest ocean,
in the darkest area
I never thought thus exists,
he led me there.
Naive, helpless, feeling strange
I panicked.
"This is too soon. This ain't what I'm looking for."
I murmured inside my head,
feeling ashamed
despite of the resistance inside my body,
I gave in.
I want to stare blankly at the darkest
all throughout the day
from the fifth in the morning.
His eyes could tell his young body
have been so satisfied.
Tears of mixed emotions ran down.
"You'll leave me."
I told this young one but
he assured me he won't
and I can't remember it all
after the moons passed
my mourning of shame, guilt.
"How foolish!"
Lost and felt so weak
Comforted by Pluto.
Sometimes being visited by Hades.
So I hold on to the Creator
to hope for mercy and
tried to learn forgiveness for both sides
and for Aphrodite's console.
"I want to go back."
But gratitude came
Hence I assisted myself
to be out from that darkest area.
"I don't want to be a monster."
As my way out from the deepest sea,
there was a boat,
feeling happy, I rushed towards it
"The Creator sent this."
Suddenly,
I met this previous boy
who turned himself to a monster
I thought to be of and
who was out of my league ever since
came back and tried to save me
but my pride's average,
"Why would I come back to the one who left me in shore and got me feeling lost?"
And learned that the young,
handsome one
left me for his muse.
"Shame!"
