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november 1, 2018

i woke up the next morning and madison was still asleep in my arms. she woke up when i moved and i quickly relaxed trying to get her to go back to sleep.

billie: sorry

madison: hm?

billie: nothing

we lay in silence for a few minutes before i start to speak up

billie: what do you wanna do today?

madison: stay in bed.

billie: babe-

madison: i'm staying in bed you can go out i don't care

that made me want to cry. i get out of bed and have a shower before going downstairs. i didn't want to leave the house cause i was scared she might do something to herself so i stayed downstairs and just played on the xbox. a while later i hear her come downstairs and pause my game then look over at her as she walks into the kitchen.

billie: are you finally coming down here?

madison: to grab a soda yes

billie: oh my lord

i look back at my game and continue playing and i hear her sigh.

billie: you good?

madison: not like you care

billie: of course i care

madison: mhm

she walks upstairs and i put down the controller then follow her.

billie: baby you're starting to piss me off

madison: fun

she closes the door before i can step inside and i'm just one step closer to snapping. i open the door and watch her get into bed before she looks at me and smiles

billie: it's literally been half an hour and you're giving me attitude

madison: attitude? where? i don't see that anywhere

billie: maddie

she resumes whatever series she's watching in netflix and i grab the remote and pause it

madison: i was watching that!

billie: i don't care. come downstairs

madison: no

billie: bro come downstairs

madison: nah i don't want to

billie: you can't live in here for the rest of your life. and the only time you come downstairs is when you want another damn soda or food or some shit

i get up and head for the door but turn to face her before i leave

billie: come downstairs

madison: n-

billie: madison. come downstairs.

her face drops. i hadn't called her by her first name in a while and i never thought to since i started calling her other things.

madison: i have a reason to be up here. my friend is literally dead-

billie: okay so? we've all lost someone in our life and yeah we'll get sad about it but wouldn't they want us to move on? that dude was fucking bad. maybe i don't know his history but i've heard and seen enough to know he was on the run and carried a gun around a house filled of armless people. think about what he could have done to any of us if the police weren't called. and i'm so fucking sorry i called the cops because i care so much about our safety and yeah i'm selfish over you and i get jealous easily but my goal wasn't for him to get shot!