Unwanted

Chapter 4

Andy

His lips went on my neck. He's kissing, nipping and licking my skin there and I know for sure that it will leave marks

He made me faced him while he keep thrusting in and out

"Damn you Andy! You're still fucking tight!"

Malakas at mariin ang pag indayog nya sa ibabaw ko. My hands turned into fists. I gripped on the bed sheet and closed my eyes tightly

He flipped my body and let me face the bed. Napapikit ako nang mariin nang maramdaman na pumasok sya mula sa likod ko

"Can you feel how hard I am right now Andy? You fucking did this to me!"

I let him do whatever he wants to me. Minsan iniisip ko na ang mga nararanasan ko sa kanya ay kabayaran sa mga naging kasalanan ko sa kanya. I took his bachelor's days. I ruined his life. Ako naman talaga ang nagpumilit sa kasal na ito. Pinilit ko para maisalba ang kompanya namin

His pleasure meant pain for me

"I can't believe that you still this tight even you fucking doing this behind my back with Mendelson!"

I didn't say a word. I'm tired of defending myself because whatever I say, there's no way that he will believe me

Naging marahas ang paggalaw nya. He bit me on my shoulder and I moaned in pain

"I know you're fucking enjoying this. Come on, Andy! Moan! I'm fucking better than your lover when it comes to bed"

One of the most painful words that I heard from him is when he call me a cheater. Iniisip nya na niloloko ko sya. Na nakikipagkita ako sa ibang lalake at may affair

"Fuck I'm almost there!"

After few thrusts, I felt his release inside me. Mabilis syang tumayo at lumayo sa akin

"You still nothing compared to my whores Andy. But I must admit that you still has the best body and the most delicious one. Yang katawan mo lang ang pakinabang ko sayo" he said ruthlessly

Narinig ko na lang ang pagsarado ng pintuan. Tumayo ako at pumasok sa bathroom. I turned on the shower and went under it. Mariin kong kinuskos ang balat ko habang walang tigil sa pagtulo ang mga luha ko

I want to remove all his traces on my body. I don't want to feel his touches and his kisses! Naramdaman ko ang hapdi sa balat ko dahil sa mariing pagkuskos ko

How long Andy? How long will you endure everything?

Nanghihinang napasandal ako sa may pader. I covered my mouth to stop myself from shouting. I want this to end but I just can't risk my family. Kung iiwan ko si Axel ay magiging malaking issue yun. Makakarating ito sa Daddy nya at gigipitin ng pamilya nya ang pamilya ko. I know makakasama yun sa company namin at sa health ni Daddy and I can't let that happen

I wiped away my tears. Tumayo ako at pilit na inayos ang sarili ko. Kaya ko pa, kakayanin ko para kay Daddy. He sacrificed a lot for me, this is the least I can do for him... to sacrifice my freedom and happiness

I wore my bathrobe and went out of the guest room. Dumiretso ako sa kwarto ko at dun nagbihis

I went on my bed and covered myself. This is the only place in this house where I could find peace. This is the only place where I wouldn't worry about Axel's presence

I don't know how long I stayed there doing nothing when I heard knocks on my door

"Andy anak..."

Si Manang Mona. Kahit nanghihina pa ang katawan ko ay pinilit kong tumayo. I opened the door and saw her

"Hindi ka pa kumakain hija"

I tried to smile

"I'm okay, wag nyo na po akong alalahanin"

She held my both hands

"Mahalaga ka sa akin Andy. Kaya wag matigas ang ulo at kumain ka na muna bago ka magpahinga"

Wala na akong nagawa nang hilahin ako nito papunto sa may dining room. Nadaanan pa namin si Axel sa may living room at may kausap sa phone nya

Hindi kami nito napansin at sa tingin ko ay mas mabuti yun para sa akin

Ipinaghanda ako ni Manang Mona ng mga pagkain. I don't really have an appetite right now kaya konti lang ang nakain ko

Si Manang Mona na ang nagligpit ng mga pinagkainan ko. I stood up from my seat and went back inside my room. I took a pill in the medicine cabinet. Ayokong may madamay na isang inosenteng bata sa magulong buhay ko. I took the pill inside my mouth and gulped it. I drank the water in the glass and went back on my bed

Everyone thought that I'm having a happy married life. Maswerte daw ako at ang isang tulad ni Axel Greene ang napangasawa ko but little did they know, Axel is mistreating me. Kung may iba lang sanang paraan para maisalba ang company namin ay ginawa ko na pero itong bagay lang na ito, ang pakasalan sya ang kaya kong gawin

And still, umaasa pa rin ako na darating ang panahon na makakalaya rin ako mula sa kanya. I'm not staying here because I love him, I'm here because I have to... for the sake of my family. There's nothing I can't do for them

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I woke up with a heavy head. Siguro dahil na rin ito sa sobrang pag iyak ko kagabi. Inayos ko ang sarili ko at dumiretso papunta sa kusina. Nasa kusina na rin si Manang Mona

"Gising ka na pala hija"

She smiled to me. Bakas rin sa mukha nya ang pag aalala

"Tulungan ko na po kayo"

Hindi ko na hinintay ang sagot nya at nagsimulang magprepare ng mga gagamitin sa pagluluto

"Umalis kagabi ang asawa mo at hindi pa rin sya nakakabalik"

Napahinto ako sa narinig mula sa kanya pero mabilis akong umiling at hindi na pinansin ang sinabi nya

"Hindi mo ba tatanungin kung saan sya pumunta?"

"Alam nyo po na mas gusto kong wala sya dito"

Nag aalala sya kay Axel, I can see it through her eyes. Matagal na rin na nagtatrabaho si Manang Mona sa pamilya nila Axel at alam kong napamahal na rin sya sa mga ito pero kahit ganun, sa tuwing nagtatalo kami ni Axel ay ako pa rin ang nilalapitan at kinakampihan nya and I'm glad with that

Inihanda na namin ni Manang Mona ang mga pagkain sa may dining table. Hindi nagtagal ay nakarinig ako ng mga yabag papalapit sa amin

It was Axel and he's with another woman, this is not new to me. Hindi lang naman si Lizzy ang babaeng dinadala nya rito. In more than two years ay di ko na mabilang kung ilang babae ang dinala nya rito para ipamukha sa akin na wala syang pakelam sa presensya ko. I don't actually care even if he bring all his women in this house. He doesn't even respect me as his wife and with that fact, I started to care less

"So this is your wife?"

Mataray na nag angat ng tingin sa akin ang babae. She scanned me and a smirk crossed her lips

I still don't get where these women of him get the nerves to have this kind of attitude towards me. I mean, they're technically his mistresess. Hindi ko rin makuha kung bakit pumapayag sila ng ganun

"Hindi na ako magtataka kung maghanap ka ng ibang babae"

She sat on Axel's side. Axel didn't say a word and proceed on eating. I excused myself and went back in my room. I stand in front of my mirror. Big shirt, pajama bottom, slippers and my light messy hair. I took a step forward, my skin is pale as well as my lips and dark bags are under my eyes

I smiled bitterly, tama lahat ng sinasabi ni Axel tungkol sa akin. I looked nothing compared to his women and I think he's just using my body to hurt my ego

I grabbed the hair brush, I was about to comb my hair but I stopped. Why would I make myself better for his sight? He doesn't deserve my best side

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