Chapter 10
Jazzs P.O.V
Im a total ass
I just had sex
with who
jasmine yah the girl who broke my heart but still loves me
did i mention im gay
And have a boyfriend
ZANE SHIT SHIT SHIT
i messed up big time i just cheated on him and had sex for the first time and i didnt mean to didnt know. God im such an IDIOT.
Do i hate myself Yes
I wish i This never happened
Why me why does it always have to be me huh? God do you like messing with me. Im soo messed up right now.
sadly i remember everything every kiss every pleasure but why did i not stop myself i did with Zane sortof. UGH again why me.
"jazz are you awake" jasmine asked startling me
" yah im awake"
"im sorry i didnt mean for this to happen, i had no idea what i was doing" does she mean shes never had sex before me?
"your not a virgin i was but not anymore i was the one who didnt know what i was doing" i told her as i propped myself up on my elbows but still made sure my shirt covered myself.
" really i didnt notice" she said and playfully shoved me and i fell over revealing myself but quickly covered myself back up.
"sorry umm what time is it" she asked
"its 6:30pm why"
"shit, i need to go home" before i could get up she held me by my waist.
"no you dont i told zane that you were still talking to me when your phone went off sorry i didnt want to wake you"
" oh ok whatd he say"
" he told me to tell himeere you were and what i did to you"
"whatd you say" i was afraid of the answere
"i told him the truth i told him that what i told you, we talked for about an hour he understood me then i told him we had sex" i just stared at her like she just at a live kitten.
" you did FUCKING WHAT" after that i was already in my boxers standing up to pu on my pants.
" i told him the truth except i added details and things, plus you dont need him dont be a freak be with me" ugh i cant believe her
"your a cold hearted bitch you know that and i do need him i will be a freak i dont care"
"yah thats what he said to me too and fine watever"
" tell me did you lie to me about everything??"
"everything i told you you was the truth i just lied about losing my virginity but everything else is the truth ok plus if i didnt push you into having sex with me and me telling zane id never have you to myself zane was always in the way"
"are you CRAZY i mean seriously whyd you have to get me to have sex with you and to tell zane you couldve lied"
" thanks for the compliment an how am i suppossed to keep you close to me i mean if you just happened to get me pregnant that youd have to deal with me"
"oh hell no i will not NOOO i am not going to get you pregnant" a sly smile spread with across her face oh jazz your so nieve did you ever remember using a condom, nooo, so i have a 50-50 chance of getting pregnant so you might want to get prepaired to be a daddy"
oh hell no this is soo no happening, i was fully dressed when i grabbed my cell and called zane and headed home. I was already cryin my eyes out once he answered. His voice sounded like he was eithe really tired or had been crying
"h-hello" he said
" Z-ZA-ZANE I AM SO SO SO SOR- SORRY GOD I IM SO ST-STUPID I HA-HATE HE-HER"
"jazz calm down and breath where are you and ill pick you up you can explain everything"
i told him where i was and told him id be at the clearing two blocks from my house.
When i saw my car i ran over and climbed in still bawlling. Zane un buckled his seat belt and moved over and held me.
"Shhh shhh jazz can you be ok until i get us home" i nodded and off we went.
What i remember was being carried inside by my dad layed on my bed and layed their crying.
She lied she crushed me again
"jazz ok youve got to tell me everything, i know what she told me i want to hear it from you"
I did i told him everything started from this morning he just stared at me while i told him everything an i still and i still felt ashamed and dirty.
after i told him i expected hate pain yelling but no i got a freaking HUG.
"jazz i hate that she was your first experience but you know Liliana frank well um i kinda made out with her and i feel awful i mean shes sweet nice funny smart but shes not you and i did that cause i thought you were happier with jasmine please forgive me"
" forgive you damn i love you i had sex for the first time and basically cheated on you and you merely made out with a sweet girl and you ask for my forgivness, damn i should be on my hands and knees begging for mercy"
" well i couldnt ask for a better bestfriend and boyfriend because i love you no matter what"
" yah me too ok now im tired and its late lets go to bed before i start worrying about the whole pregnancy deal"
"yah come lets hit the hay"
" hit the hay Zane really"
"yah i heard it on tv ha plus i was lightening the mood see"
" oh watever genious"
" watever night Jazz"
"night Zane"
before i went to bed i made a silent pray praying that jasmine wouldnt be pregnant
But all i can do is hope and pray my stupid actions dont get me in big trouble
-Authors Note-
ok its kinda short i guess an see jazz and zane are somewhat normal together sorta well i talk at yah later peace XD
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किशोर उपन्यासJazz is a highschool boy who is Gay and keeps it a secret, because he doesnt want to spend highschool being teased. But his life changes when his best friend Zane, comes out of the closet .... well sort-of because he just tells Jazz. Jazz is still i...
