"Get it together Lance" Shiro shouted harshly as lance stood frozen to the ground.
When they were battling the galra lance accidentally hit Shiro And that made the black lion spiral into pidge And that lead to them almost losing the battle.
"You're so useless, what are you even doing let alone thinking!" Shiro waved his hands around angrily.
'I'm useless ' lance thought
'I don't deserve to be here'
"God I'm such a screw-up"
'Shit that one slipped out' lance tensed up and looked down his hair covering his eyes
"What was that?" Keith said eyes piercing lance
"Nothing" lance mumbled
"Sure it was " Keith scoffed and turned to leave everyone silently followed hunk took one last glance at lance before he left to go prepare lunch.
Lance slowly made his way to his room, once he entered it he slid down to the hard cold floor and wept his hand between his knees arms wrapped around himself. He soon drifted off to sleep in the position
Knock knock.
Lance awoke to a loud knock and jumped up
"y-yes" he instantly cursed himself for stuttering
"Hunk said to let you know it's dinner time" Keith announced through the door
"I'm not hungry mullet tell hunk to save it for later"
"But lance you need to eat something we didn't get breakfast this morning And you skipped lunch," Keith said concerned
"I'm fine ill eat later" lance mumbled
"Ok," Keith said quietly and walked off
Lance, swiftly went to the bathroom and took a shower he honestly felt disgusting after he got out of the shower he looked at himself in the mirror and cringed
'God I'm ugly no wonder they hate me'
He quickly gets dressed and goes to his nightstand he opens the top door and takes out the night meds he looks at the orange bottle and sighs
"Only 4 more pills" he mumbled to himself
And undid the lid and took one out and dry swallowed
Lance had had depression since before the garrison and he usually was fine with just his normal amount if pills but now he didn't have his anxiety pills, his insomnia pills, And he was almost out of anti-depressants he sighed and walked out of the room heading toward the kitchen he opened the door and saw his plate covered in plastic wrap he looked at it in disgust he really didn't feel like eating right now he was already too fat he didn't need to slow down the team any more than he already did.
He decided to go train I was what Shiro would have told him to do lance made his way over to the training room and opened The door Keith wasn't there he let out a sigh of relief and got changed start level 7 he called out.
Time skip
Keith woke up did his normal routine and headed to the training room as he neared the door he heard grunting and gunshots he walked up to the door and slightly opened it to see lance it surprised him but what was even more surprising is that he looked half-dead sweat dripping off his face scuff marks and scratches on his face arms and legs
"Start training sequence 14" lance half yelled half wheezed
"End training sequence" I shouted
Lance looked over at me and said "what did you do that for mullet!"
"You overworked yourself" Keith started calmly
Lance didn't make a sound as he gathered his stuff and walked out I started getting ready until I heard a loud slam outside the room I quickly rushed out only to find lance collapsed on the floor he was breathing heavily and looked awful I picked him up and slowly dragged him to his room once I placed him on his bed and looked around his room was actually really clean then I noticed his dresser on top of it was an orange prescription bottle I walked over and picked it up
' what sort of medicine does he take'
I read the label and gasped it read Zoloft an anti-depressant I couldn't wrap my head around it lance the "loveable fun goofball" had depression. I shook the bottle it sounded almost empty I quickly checked how many where left and I was shocked to only find 3 pills left
A loud rustling came from the bed Keith quickly put the bottle back and went to lance
Lance pov
After I left the training room I felt really hot and nauseated I stumbled forwards and my vision faltered blurring in and out until I was met with darkness
I woke up In my bed and looked around my eyes landed on Keith he looked anxious and uncomfortable "what are you doing here Keith"
"You idiot you passed out in the hallway!"
"Oh"
"Also lance I saw the anti-depressants"
My breath hitched 'he saw no no no no no no why him of all people I started hyperventilating and I couldn't think straight 'he found out '
at this point, Keith had gotten really worried until he heard the fast breathing and realized he was having a panic attack" lance you need to breath can you hear me" lance noted his head "ok I need you to count and breath with me ok" lance nodded again "in 123 out 1234" he repeated that until lance was calm Keith quickly gave him a hug and whispered "we are all here for you ya know"
"Ya I know," Lance said and gripped the back of Keith's shirt as he silently cried.
