🍁A Weeping Lover🍁~Yakulev/Levyaku Angst

Chp.5: Broken Scars

TRIGGER WARNING: SELF-HARM
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After being treated by Lev, yaku fell asleep. He slept for a while but awoke at midnight, he then got up a walked over towards the toilet. He gazed at himself in the mirror. It's probably for the better Lev is dating someone other than me, I don't deserve him...I don't even deserve to be on the team. Yaku thought. He looked towards the window, the moonlight gleaming down on to something made of metal...Wait...metal? It caught his eye and slowly approached it. The shining metal looked like a razor and next to it was a broken plastic. A pencil sharpener? He questioned in his mind. "What the hell is this doing here...?" Yaku turned to look behind him. Nobody was there. In the blink of an eye, Yaku swiftly snatched the razor of the pencil sharpener and hid it via his palm. He quietly went back to the room and place the razor in the front pocket of his bag. There wasn't much else to do so he decided to sleep again.

"Hey, Yaku!" Sugawara walked over to the short boy. "Thought I'd come say Hi!" He sat down by Yaku and placed down his food. Yaku smiled "Hi Suga!" He Chirped. "How has everything been lately? Karasuno has been Chaotic per usual." Suga laughed. "Well..Nekoma has been great but me..it's been a living hell." He moaned, while laughing. "Hm? And why's that?" Suga asked. "Oh..you know..love drama.." yaku blurted out. "Alright, tell us who this lucky person is!" Suga leaned in closer, intrigued. "..Lev..." Yaku whispered to Sugawara. Suga displayed a face like :0 and then smiled. "I knew you two would be a great couple! Oh, what do you mean by drama anyway?"
"Eh, Long story short Came out to my mum, Lev's moving away and he's dating someone else." Yaku shrugged. The pain is coming back... he thought, fighting back the tears. "Damnnn that must be hell.." Suga responded. The two team mums talked for a while then went back to their teams.

It was time to say goodbye to Karasuno and before he left, Suga and Yaku exchanged numbers since he wanted to be caught up on all this 'drama' and check if yaku is ok every once in a while. Once yaku finally got home, he placed his bag and the table and quickly took the razor out and placed it in his pocket. He didn't bother saying hi to his mum and went straight upstairs. He placed one foot on the first step and, "So no Hello? Alright F*ggot, Go upstairs and oh I don't know..Die?" His mum made a smart remark. He then ran upstairs and wandered into his room. Trigger warning starts now: Yaku walked over to his bed and smiled, taking out the razor. He held it in his hands before piercing it through his soft skin, making small slithers of red. He didn't mind the pain, it took his mind off the world behind him. It was addicting and soothing. Once he had finished, Yaku placed the razor in his drawers knowing his mum would never check there. He fell onto his bed and scrolled through social media when something cold trickled down his arm. He went to look and... a long drop of cold red blood was rolling down his arm. He got up, put a jacket on and texted the Nekoma group chat:
❤️😼Nekoma
Short kid: Hey, does anyone wanna head out shopping? I'm only gonna go to grab something.

Titan is typing...

HSJSGSGSFSH WHAAAA?! WHY HIM! Yaku thought looking at the person typing. He closed his eyes and heard his phone buzz twice he looked and:
Titan: Yeah sure! I can come, what time?
Hyena: I'm available sure

Yaku felt sorta relieved that it wasn't gonna be just him and Lev. He texted them the time and went downstairs to collect his stuff. He left his phone upstairs.
Bzzzzz:
Titan: is it okay if I bring someone?
Hyena: I don't see why not, who?
Titan: Satsumo!
Hyena: Oh...um sure!
((Kuroo POV))
Kuroo texted back sure until he realised his mistake. Yaku was also going. Seeing Lev with his girlfriend was bound to make him sad. Kuroo got up and went to grab his things before texting Kenma if he wanted to come too, Kenma agreed since he wanted to get a new game. Kuroo realised his other mistake. Bringing Kenma along, his boyfriend, was bound to also trigger Yaku's soft spot. He collapsed his head into his hand and ran them down his face. "Shiiiit.." Kuroo Murmured, clearly annoyed at himself.
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Sorry it took a bit! But here's chapter 5! Also we're almost at 100 views and that is crazy!! Thank you so much! I haven't really seen many Levyaku fanfics out there, it's a pretty underrated ship if you ask me. Chapter 6 should be out soon but school is a living hell so it'll come out sooner or later! Hope you enjoyed and stay safe😘
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