He Broke Me

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This was all I ever wanted. A happy family. And to grow old with her. Unknowingly, tears made their way down my cheeks at the imagination of this perfect world which I couldn't have.

"One day. Our Hope comes to you. She...she holds you hand and looks into your eyes as she tells you about her life. About the struggles of her life. Suppose she tells you, "Dad. I...I love my husband. But he, he hit me dad. He hit me and he forced himself upon me. But he loves me.' Suppose she says ,'Dad. He is keeping my child away from me. He isn't letting me see her. But it's only because of a misunderstanding between us. And don't worry dad, he loves me.' And after that she says 'Dad. I want to forgive him. He is changed. He has realised his mistakes. And most importantly, he does love me', then what would you say to her Adam. What would you tell your daughter. Tell me Adam, what would you?"

Her words struck my heart over and over again. I could hear her sniff as I was sure, she was crying too. Just like I was

What would I tell her? What would I tell my daughter if she went through this situation? The answer was simple.

"I would tell her to leave him. I would tell her she deserves the world, not someone who claims to love her and yet hurts her"

"And what would you do to him? Her husband"

"I would kill him"

And there was it, there was the answer Sabrina gave me when I asked her if I deserved her forgiveness. If I could ever have her back

This time I turned towards her, and when I stared at her swollen eyes, I felt a part of me break completely.

How could I ever do all this to her? To my bestfriend, my first love and my first everything.

"You will be everything I ever want Bree. But I get it now, and it's okay. It's okay if you can't ever forgive or if you hate me forever. I deserve it"

She cried more as I told her that.

"I wish I could do that. You know the worst part of this, I might not forgive you but I can never hate you. Not completely. Because some part of me will always remember the good days I spent with you and will forever cherish those memories. Some part of me will always love your good side"

I walked towards her as I held her jaw in my hand and as I wiped her tears. She told me she will always love the good parts of me, but I knew this love was different than the one we had.

Suddenly, I remembered her tending to Draco's wounds and caring for him. She loved him too. It was clear through her actions.

And even though I should've been jealous, I was happy. Happy knowing the fact that even without me, she will have someone to love. And she wouldn't be alone

"That's what I want you to do sweetheart. Even if you never find it in your heart to forgive me, I want you to remember the fond memories we have. Because those are the memories I'll carry with me forever. And I want you to be happy, always"

And that was true. I knew at that moment I'll never have a life with her. And the only way I'll survive will be with her memories.

"Can I ask for a favour?" I questioned, afraid she would say no

But instead, she nodded.

"Can I...can I hold your hand, one last time"

She didn't respond with her words. Instead she removed the hand I had on her jaw and intertwined our fingers. I smiled as my heart warmed

"My hands finally feel full"

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Sabrina's pov

Adam did not speak a word more to me. He left that day, thanking Draco for his help. And as for me, he just looked at me and smiled. And I knew that smile meant goodbye

I didn't hate him. It was true. I didn't hate my sister too. Because I feared, what I would do if I was in their position. Shirley suffered in my place, and her sufferings led to Adam's. They were both two broken souls, who had lost their way because of the pain they had gone through

That night, after he left, I cried myself to sleep. Draco was there, hugging me, comforting me, but no amount of comfort could ease my pain

And what I found the morning, broke me even more.

There was a letter, a letter addressed to me. Draco had received the letter from Adam, who had asked him not to wait for the following day to present it to me.

And the contents of the letter were heartbreaking

Dear Bree

I want to start by saying I love you. I loved you from the moment you became my bestfriend, I loved you when we grew up together, and even when I was hurting you I loved you.

The years I spent mourning you, I always asked for a miracle. A miracle where you would be back. Where we would finally live the life we deserved. But I was a fool to think that. I had done too much damage to ask for repair. To ask for your forgiveness

And that's fine. I would understand if you never forgive me

But I hope, someday you will be able to let go of the pain. Someday you will be able to think about me, and only think about the good memories, without remembering about the hurt I gave you. Someday you will be able to wipe even the tiniest bit of hatred you have in your heart for me and someday, you will be able to forgive me

And if you can't,

Then I hope that someday my hands will feel full without your hands in them. Someday I'll wake up and not feel your absence beside me. Someday I'll be able to think fondly about you without the regret covering up the happiness. I might never get that day, but I can only hope

You are the last dream of my soul sweetheart.

I love you.

-Adam

I held his letter and sobbed. I had finally let go of Adam and he had let go of me too

But what pained my even more was when Draco suddenly appeared, breaking a news to me which i never expected

"Ava, Adam. He...he is jailed for 5 years. He admitted to the cops that he has been involved in domestic abuse "

I was crying while writing this chapter. I'm so emotional nowadays cause the book will end soon...😪😪😪