Dear...Diary (Btsxreader)

Part 12

Everyone recommendation: Play Love is not over by them if you want to relate to this story.. But it is okay if not😉... Enjoy!!
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"Sarangiran apeugo apeun geot yeah

Ibyeoriran apeugo deo apeun geot gatae

Niga eopseumyeon na andoel geot gata

Saranghaejwo saranghaejwo

Dasi nae pumeuro wajwo"

Even me... I can relate to the song..
I didn't know that this so-called "love" is really painful..

A week.. A week without her.. Without her kisses, hugs, cuddles and her laugh... I miss her.. I miss us.. Why?? Why am I like this?? WHY CAN'T I TRUST HER??!! Crying is the only way that lessen the pain.. but every time I reminisce our memories the pain hurts more... I want to feel her touch again but I think it is impossible now... She is not yet talking to me nor just look in my eyes... If I will say sorry to her or just try to make things out.. she will walk away and for me.. I just f*****g cry..

"Please make it stop"

I whispered while sobbing..again..

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No one's POV

"You should talk to him" Yoongi said "But why??" She answered in cold tone.. "You're hurting him, Y/n" he answered back... Y/n stood up and had a smirk on her face "Are you against me??" "Y/n what the hell is happening to you??" "HE ALSO HURT ME HYUNG!!"

She shouted "BUT YOU STILL NEED TO TALK TO HIM HE IS YOUR BOYFRIEND!!" "NO HE'S NOT!!" They shouted at each other.. fighting like a kid... "You were shouting at me Y/n??" Y/n looked at his hyung.. she then realized what she have done.. she never shouted at someone before... Especially his favorite brother...

"Hyung-" "No, if you don't want to talk to him... Then don't call me hyung... That is not what our mother taught us right??" He then leave.. left Y/n feeling guilty..

Author's POV

Everyone's life changed... The happy members before were dying inside.. Faking everything... Yoongi is still ignoring her... Y/n still ignores Jimin and for Jimin?? He ignores everyone besides Y/n... He still have atleast small amount of hopes that Y/n will talk to her.. Everyone is trying to find answers but it is not working.. every time they talk they always fight...

Y/n's POV

I woke up from a nightmare...

"Jimin"

I immediately stood up and went to his room.. I knocked but no response.. I knocked again but still no response so I opened the door and luckily it is not locked... I walked in and saw him on the corner.. hugging his knees and our... picture.. our first ever date.. guiltiness built up in myself... I do not want that nightmare to happen.. I'll fix this..

I started to walk towards him.. I went to his level and started talking "Jimin, I know you hurt me and I know that you were also hurt.. it is not your fault if you can't stop being jealous. Jealousy is normal when you are in a relationship but you need to learn how to control it. I want you to try to give trust. I know that. But I think our relationship.. will not be back li-like we used to be be-bef-before..."

I tried to stop myself from crying.. but it seems that it can fall anytime.. So, I ran out of his room and ran towards my bathroom... It all happened.. The tears explode again.. I am sobbing like a mess... I do.. I do want to be back with him.. I want to give him second chance.. But I don't know if I can... I'm afraid to go into a relationship.. I'm afraid that I will be hurt again.. I hate the question "If I give him another chance, will he trust me now? Or not??"

I hate cryingggggggg!!!

I need someone right now but my hyung is mad at me... I do not want to disturb anyone..

Taehyung's POV

I entered Y/n's room but greeted by no one.. I was giving back the hat that I borrowed last time.. Great news is.. were fine.. but not my feelings.. I just can't stop myself for falling for her.. I sighed..

I was going to leave her room but I heard sniffling in bathroom.. I shrugged the sound but I heard it again.. "Is she crying??" I immediately opened her bathroom and was greeted by a girl with red and puffy eyes and red nose.. she is crying.. I ran towards her and bring her in her bed in bridal style..

She is hugging me and I say that I love the warmness that I feel right now.. but it is hard for me to see her suffering and my best friend also... It seems that it is all my fault.. "Please, I need you" she said... "Don't worry I'm here.. please stop crying" I pat her back and just let her cry again... I'm trying my best to make her stop from crying but it is not working...

It has been minutes since she stopped crying.. she is in deep slumber right now.. she looks peaceful when she sleeps.. but her eyes were still puffy and her nose is a little bit red.. "What can I do lessen the pain??" I asked her.. but I know that she doesn't hear me.. I placed her in her bed and tuck some strands of her hair in her ear. This is wrong. I left her room and went to mine... I plopped myself in my bed and just sighed deeply.. Thinking about her. Again.

Jimin's POV

She talked to me.. I heard it.. all... I heard her voice again.. she is stopping herself from crying.. Will she talk to me if I try again?? I sighed and sat on the edge of my bed.. we used to watch movies here every weekends.. I again reminisce the memories and I didn't notice that a single tear left my eye... It lessen the pain.. Her voice healed me... At least it made me feel better..

I just wish I can rewind the time so this will not happen anymore.

But it's too late.

Maybe I'm just not for her and she's not for me.

Author's POV

Everything is back to normal... The siblings were fine again.. Jimin and Y/n were not together anymore but they decided to be friends... Starting over again like nothing happened between them. The members were back to their own selves... But it seems that one of the member is blooming..🤭 As for Y/n.. she is back on her studies...

She left everyone at peace...

The End...

JOKE!!🤣🤣

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