My fault (Lumity)

Part 4

 Amity POV

 "I'm sorry." I mumble, Edric looked confused while Emira sighed hugging me "you didn't want to hurt us, it's ok Mittens." Ed then understood why I said sorry "yea, it's not like they are worth our time anyway." He smiled laughing a little ruffling my hair. I nod and sigh leaning on my sister closing my eyes. I didn't even notice I was crying till my sister asked, "Mittens what's wrong?" I sigh "nothing, I just danced with Luz." I said softly. Emira smirked at me "did you now?" I nodded looking down "just as friends though." Emira's smirked changed into a frown. "oh." Ed looked confused "why are you frowning? Aren't you guys just friends?" Ed asked. I tried not to cry more but more tears slipped out. Em smacked the back of his head, "stop talking idiot." I shook my head "he is right though we are just friends..." I hated that sentence, but it was true even though I wish it wasn't. "what aren't you telling me?" Ed asked with a raised eyebrow.

Em and I started to tell him what my fear is and that I like Luz, I really hoped he didn't hate me after this, or tell father. After we finished Edric hugged me tightly "oh Mittens, it's ok, I'll help you get her along wit Em here." He said. I looked up at him "really?" he nodded in response "thank you." I nuzzled my face into his chest closing my eyes slowly drifting off to sleep.

I looked around seeing my room. Ed and Em weren't in my room so I thought they left. I got up and walked out seeing blood filled footprints going down the stairs so I followed them, I didn't want to, but I couldn't stop myself. Once I got down the colour of everything changed, it was now dark and gloomy. I ran around the Manor looking for Ed and Em to find them covered in their blood, it wasn't red, it was black mixed with blue. It looked sickly. I went over to them and they dropped to the floor their blood pooling around them and my father appeared behind them. "you lied, so your siblings suffered the consequence. This is your fault." Said my father as he started a fire spell. I ran out of the manor before he burnt it down. I ran into the woods not knowing where my body was taking me. I came to a clearing where Emperor Coven members stood. In the distance I saw the owl house. I saw Luz in a window dancing with King and Eda. I couldn't help but smile. My smile soon disappeared. Tears pricked the corner of my eyes. One of the Coven members looked at me "this is your fault." I shook my head and ran to the house that was now on fire until everything went black.

I woke up sweating, tears rolling down my cheeks. Why do I keep getting those dreams. They are terrible. I look around my room seeing my two older siblings asleep on the floor. They must have not wanted to leave me. I spotted a family photo on my wall that I've never seen before. I got up and walked over to it, it had me, my siblings and...my mother. I teared up taking it down, I haven't seen her since last month, I missed her. I put the photo back and got my scroll out going through Penstagram to pass the time since I couldn't get back to sleep nor did I want to, plus it was only 2 in the morning.

A couple hours passed, and I saw the sun rise, it was really beautiful. I got up and started to get ready for the day. I was going to hang out with Luz. I put on what I normally wear and headed to the owl house, I also wanted to make sure she was ok along with the others. I walked out of the manor and into the woods towards the owl house. I was walking for a while until I got a feeling I was being followed. I stopped and changed direction still getting the feeling of being followed until I reached a dead end. I started to panic when I heard the person get closer. I looked behind me seeing it was Roxy.

A girl that didn't like me, she use to bully me and hurt me until I became friends with Boscha and Skara but even than she still hurt me. "what do you want Roxy?" I asked. She walked closer drawing a circle. Binders appeared and wrapped themselves around my ankles and wrists. I winced a little, but it wasn't noticeable. "oh nothing, just stay away from that human girl Luz, you'll only hurt her." She replied tightening the Binders. I glared at her "why should I?" Roxy chuckled "oh Amity, just remember I found the little pink note you had." My eyes widened "I... I don't know what your talking about." I replied.

Roxy pulled out the familiar pink note, both parts "this one." I drew a circle burning it "what was that?" Roxy tightened the binders drawing another circle as another binder appeared around my neck. "Just stay away from her." She snapped at me a little. "or your other little secret might be a rumour soon." She turned around releasing me from the binders "half a witch." I sucked in a bit of air. How did she know that. Roxy walked back over to me tapping the gem that was attached to my necklace. "I could snatch this and." She did a hand action of an explosion "poof gone." I back away from her leaning against a tree. 

My breathing started to quicken but I tired to ignore it for the time being. "you wouldn't want that now would you." She put her arm around my neck whispering in my ear "mittens." My ears moved and I moved away from her. She smiled "don't go near her then." Roxy said one last time before walking away. I waited till I couldn't see her and ran towards the owl house but stopped half of the way feeling tears prick the corner of my eyes. I looked around saw a clearing in the distance, so I headed towards it.

Once I got to the middle of it, I dropped to the ground crying. I just broke. I couldn't let anyone see me like this now. Especially not Luz. I brought my knees to my chest letting out my sobs careful to make sure no one heard me. After around 20 minutes I heard a shuffle in the surrounding trees and I quiet curse. I wipe my eyes dry and took a deep breath trying to calm me down. I looked up seeing Luz walk out of the trees into the clearing. "oh, Amity. Was that you I heard crying?" she asked looking at me. I shook my head "nope." The look in my eyes and crack in my voice betraying me. She walked over to me sitting in front of me. "Amity, what's wrong?" her voice was so soft and calming I couldn't lie to her. "I don't know." But I did. Luz moved closer to me "I don't believe that, what is wrong." I looked at her, I could feel a tear roll down my cheek, I couldn't lie to her again. "I can't keep going and living like this." I said quietly. "Living like what." I told her about everything, the nightmares, my father, Roxy, everything except for the part that I like her.

She held her arms out before pulling me into her lap hugging me after I didn't respond. I didn't know why but it was calming, and I felt safe with her. I kept crying soaking her shoulder "sorry, I'm just blurting this all out to you, you probably didn't need to know all of that." I mumbled wiping my eyes. Luz moved my hands away from my face cupping it "Amity, I will listen to you and help, you mean a lot to me." She smiled, that smile, it made heat rise to my cheeks and my heart skipped a beat. As she looked into my eyes I couldn't help but smile, it might have been a half smile that looked broken, but it was a real smile that I only ever do around my siblings and now Luz.