Eustass Kidd x reader(hyper)

Blunt

A/n: I do plan to do a lemon/smut sometime soon idk when but I'm working on it
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Walking back to your room yawning, you hit the wall out of tiredness. You catch your balance rubbing your face. When you get to your door after getting lost again, you walk in, shutting the door and throwing yourself on the bed, arms spread out. You get a whiff of how bad you smelled. Damn did I sweat that much? You got up and walked to your shower, I really want to know the fucker that designed this ship, who the fuck adds a shower but not a toilet or anything else.

You turn on the water getting the right temperature, and undress, getting in. The warm water wakes you for a moment but it soon makes you a little drowsy, so to make sure you don't fall asleep you did what's completely normal, sing a small tune that's been replaying in your head:

~I had a way then
Losing it all on my own~

You catch the ear of a certain captain passing your door after his nightly activity.

I had a heart then
But the queen has been overthrown~
And I'm not sleeping now
The dark is too hard to beat
And I'm not keeping up
The strength I need to push me~

You show the lights that stop me turn to stone
You shine them when I'm alone
And so I tell myself that I'll be strong
And dreaming when they're gone
'Cause they're calling, calling, calling me home
Calling, calling, calling home
You show the lights that stop me turn to stone~
You shine them when I'm alone~

Noises, I play within my head
Touch my own skin
And hope they'll still be there~
And I think back to when
My brother and my sister slept
In another place
The only time I feel safe

You show the lights that stop me turn to stone
You shine them when I'm alone
And so I tell myself that I'll be strong
And dreaming when they're gone
'Cause they're calling, calling, calling me home
Calling, calling, calling home
You show the lights that stop me turn to stone
You shine them when I'm alone~

You finish washing your (h/l) (h/c) hair, and turn off the water, wrapping your body with a towel, and walk back into your room.

~Feels like we're on the edge right now
I wish that I could say I'm proud
I'm sorry that I let you down
Let you down~

You sit on the edge on your bed, laying back close your eyes

~All these voices in my head get loud
I wish that I could shut them out
I'm sorry that I let you down
L-l-let you down~

You smile to yourself.
Tapping your foot on the floor in a rythm.

Yeah, I guess I'm a disappointment
Doing everything I can, I don't wanna make you disappointed
It's annoying
I just wanna make you feel like everything I ever did wasn't ever tryna make an issue for you
But, I guess the more you
Thought about everything, you were never even wrong in the first place, right?
Yeah, I'ma just ignore you
Walking towards you, with my head down, lookin' at the ground, I'm embarrassed for you
Paranoia, what did I do wrong this time? That's parents for you
Very loyal?
Shoulda had my back, but you put a knife in it, my hands are full
What else should I carry for you?
I cared for you, but