Hello To The Clouds

If I wrote you a song - Rubber Band

I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion because she was taking too long to tell me about it. She was too busy trying to put a cap on her pen. Obviously, I went for the usual: diving inside her mind to know what she was thinking about and what I found was like 30 bullets to my heart and I felt I was really about to die.

"What if I had only 30 days to live?" She screeched in excitement and was mentally patting her back for such a 'great idea' but my expressions totally contrasted with hers.

My wings trembled but there was no stardust. Neither could I speak nor could I hear my own thoughts due to the haywire beating of my heart. My eyes refused to blink and my entire body froze.

Not that I didn't know but the sudden realisation shook me to the core because little did she know that it wasn't a 'What if', it was real.

I didn't know when and I didn't know how but what I did know was that it was soon. It could be tomorrow, a month later or even a year later and this oblivion scared me.

Dawn moved her hands in front of my face and I was out of my cloud of thoughts. She was grinning.

"This is just a topic, Theo. I am not going to die in a month for real," she laughed and shook her head," Plus even if I died, you will obviously get someone else to babysit so why do you care?"

Her words pained me even more but I faked my million-dollar smirk at her. It hurt me because I could never imagine myself in her place. Humans knew their lives could be sucked out of their bodies any moment but yet they chose to live with the silly hope that if they were to die, it wouldn't be tomorrow.

I deep-cleaned my mind and ignored her previous remark. "Nah I was thinking about this other bizarre memory. Your idea is wonderful though. I think you should jot down some points before you start. "

"Sounds about right. So if I had only a month to live, I would definitely want to... " She went back to thinking and I grinned at her innocence, "Yes! I would love to go swimming but in a lake."

"Oh I would love to drink coffee from atleast 6 countries. What about angel food? Can I eat what you eat?"

"I'm sure you would love to eat clouds." I joked and she couldn't help but cringe.

"I would definitely meet my caretakers, Ms. Valerie, Ms. Wendy and my ex-bestfriend Walter too. I miss him sometimes you know? He used to tear pictures and pages for my scrapbook from the leaflets on the notice board and surprisingly he would never get caught." She smiled to herself while noting it down.

So Walter used to be her best-friend back when she used to live in her orphanage. Cute. I could feel her pain and nostalgia as his face kept popping up in her head.

"How could I forget! I'd take Aliens for camping and I would climb as many trees as possible. Also, petting 50 dogs will be my goal. Did you know I have never sat in an airplane? Crazy right?"

I laughed at her crazy but wholesome ideas, "I have never either. What did you expect?"

Dawn laughed as well and rolled her eyes. She seemed too hyped for this topic for some reason and I was enjoying her little quirks and whimsical approach to such little things. She would move her head so much and yet never mess her hair up.

She started sprouting her bucket-list ideas again when I thought she was done, "Singing at an open-mic would be fun as well. Going on a date will be the best because I would vibe with the person and put them under a spell so that they would never be able to forget me and once I die, they will never be able to move on. I know it's sadistic but I wouldn't want it any other way. It would be a queen moment."