𝐌𝐲 𝐬𝐮𝐥𝐭𝐚𝐧 - [2] ( Hiatus)

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" Valide sultan good morning " gulumser bowed to me as i was walking towards murad's room .

" good morning my beautiful " i held her hand and caressed it gently before putting it down

" I am going to see Hanzade sultan today and i wondered if you want to go " she asked politely as her lips curved a smile

" Next time " i nodded at her before i walked away walking towards murad's room , iskender was there standing as always

" Iskender " i said approaching him before he bowed nervously

" It is great to see you here " he shyly said and i nodded at him

" Is murad inside " i asked and he shook his head " Not yet "

It was odd , murad never left me waiting when he had an appointment with me.

" I'll wait inside "i passed by him and entered the room but as i stepped in i felt the same feeling as i did when ahmed first asked for me and i couldn't help but sigh

I walked around the room and remembering each moment that we spent together in every corner of this room , i laughed at myself when i remembered when i first showed him my writing .

I walked towards the ved and sat on the edge of it and stared at every inch of it , this was the bed we shared together and the bed we got seperated in , the memories were haunting me but i was doing my best to overcome my pain .

Suddenly the door opened revealing murad , i got up and walked towards him

" Mother " he looked down before i grabbed his chin making him face me but his eyes were obviously hiding something deep .

" Murad speak don't make things tense " i sigher deeply before he burried his hand on my neck crying while i patted his back not knowing what was going on

" Murad why are you crying son ? Did something happen "i asked but he didn't answer , he kept crying until he stepped back and stared at me

" Forgive me , i know you won't forgive me " he wipped his tears away while i just waited for him to speak

" I executed my brother Selim " i stepped back and my heart started beating very fast while my eyes widened at him in shock

" Murad what did you do " i yelled at him but he didn't answer

" Forgive me " i walked past by him and opened the door harshly running towards where they held the divan as fast as i could but before i can even arrive i stared at the statemen carrying a coffin .

I gasped before running towards them

" Put it down " i histerically spoke reaching it before they put it down .

I quickly pulled the cover and stared at a body covered in a white tissue .

I pulled it away slowly and each pull revealed an inch of selim's face , i stared at his body in disbelief .

" Selim " i caressed his cheek who was extremely cold , tears started escaping my eyes not being able to believe .

" What did they do to you " i cried as my hands travelled to his neck noticing the trace of the rope who was around his neck

I burried my head on his chest and started crying loudly and histerically , my first born son was now dead infront of me . His lips were blue and his skin was very pale , my mind couldn't process any of this

" My son , why did they do this to you " i said between my sobs and stared at his face one last time as my sight started getting blurry from the tears

" Valide sultan we should let him rest in peace " Yavuz pasha spoke trying to help me get up

" Get away from me i won't let my son alone he still needs me " i put my hand on his hair and ruffled it .

I stared at him for a bit before i got up wipping my tears away , as i backed away from him slowly shooking my head

I walked away from the crowd trying to maintain my straight face and walked back to the harem where everyone was crying as cennet rushed towards me

" I saw you " she said pulling me in a hug as i cried in her shoulder in agony .

" They took the life of my son " i said looking at her not caring if the concubines were watching or not

" May god accept him in his heaven " she said reassuring me as my heart was full of anger .

I went back to my room with the help of Cennet and sat in my bed where osman and mehmed rushed towards me followed by hanzade and sah while dilasub was coming behind them

" Mother " they all gathered around me while they all started crying

" Why did my brother do this " hanzade asked hugging her brother osman as my gaze stopped in her

" Are we next ? " mehmed angrily spoke " my brother selim is just a victim of my brother's stupidity " he yelled again before sah started calming him

" just one year after ahmed's death and i get to witness my son's death " i said without any emotion in my talking

" Mother we can't fold our arms and shut up about this " dilasub stated angrily

" I won't let you witness this pain again i promise you " dilasub said leaving my room as i ordered the others to follow her .

I burried my head in my hands and cried my chest out as the picture of selim's body started haunting me .