𝐌𝐲 𝐬𝐮𝐥𝐭𝐚𝐧 - [2] ( Hiatus)

05

I stared from the top at the concubines talking and walking around until my eyes met with a girl who walked shyly with haci agha and he was yelling at her , sure she did something wrong

" Cennet " i called over cennet who was only meters far away giving instructions to some maids

" Valide sultan " she bowed but i didn't take my eyes off that girl

" Who is this girl " i said staring at the same girl while cennet followed my gaze

" That one " she chuckled a bit " she has newly arrived from Crimea " she responded earning a nod from me

" how is he behavior ? " i curiously asked cennet as i changed my position into facing her

" She is obediant yet a bit insolent she brought us a lot of trouble at the beginning , she's the one who tried to kill herself " she said looking at the girl again

" she did learn from her mistake right ? "I asked her and she nodded grinning

" don't worry sultanum , she got better now " i nodded multiple times

" I like her , prepare her for Murad tonight " i said walking away but i stopped midway

" and tell them to prepare my carriage " i walked towards my room and i quickly recognized sah .

" Come " i took her hand in mine and we both walked in my room , after we took a seat she smiled

" Mother if you could only see how happy Dilasub is , she is so joyful " sah smiled at me and i smiled back at her

" Aghas " i called and they quickly came in " Summon Dilasub sultan " i said dismissing them

" I am happy that everything is okay for us " she nodded happily and her smile was contagious ,it quickly made me happy too .

Suddenly the door opened revealing dilasub who walked straight towards me and bowed

" I see you are happy " i said offering her a seat infront of me

" My happiness will be complete when my marriage will happen " she stated staring at sah

" We will see with murad , the winter is coming soon so it is better off for us to wait until spring right " she pouted and i quickly understood that she wanted it to be as soon as possible

" As you like " she regained back her smile

" I don't wanna stay alone here , i only have you two and now dilasub you will be going " i sadly spoke not wanting to marry off anyone

" You will come see me from time to time ? " my gazr turned to dilasub whose smile faded

" Of course i will , who won't love to visit such a beautiful mother " she kissed my hand and i patted her back gently

The door suddenly opened revealing cennet

" Valide sultan your carriage is ready " she said bowing to us and i nodded

" Mother where are you going ? " sah asked curiously as i got up

" Visit ahmed's tomb " i said wearing my cap as some maids helped me do my hair .

" We want to go too " they both got up and dilasub agreeing with her sister

" I want to go alone , next time we will go together " they quickly understood me and didn't proceed to speak more

I left my room and walked towards the main entrance

" Valide sultan should i accompany you " Haci agha asked opening the carriage's door for me

" No need " i said getting in with hajar and another maid

The carriage started moving and every second that passed by felt very slow until it stopped , thr aghas opened the door and there i was infront of ahmed's mosque .

I walked towards the door and some men opened it for me , i quickly walked towards ahmed's tomb and then memories started coming back haunting me

I stopped infront of it and touched the side of it with my hand

" Ahmed i know you can hear me " i whispered as my other hand joined and put it caressing it

" I wish you can comeback to me again , my soul is destroyed in million pieces " i continued as i walked closer to the other side

" May allah forgive all your sins and may your eternal home be heaven " i said barely holding my tears

" I wish you can see our children growing up together and your first grandchild is coming to this world , i wish you were here by my side still ruling this empire fairly " i quickly wipped my tear away

" i wish if you next to me ,your kids still need you more than anything and i too .we still had a lot to achieve together " i pulled my hand together and started reading saourate for him