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"If only I knew what my heart was telling me"

What a way with words that is, my heart tells me nothing. If I think with my heart I'm rather sensitive, it chooses decisions that would make others happier and me an undeniable feeling. It's something that I literally can not explain, it's as if they take a piece of my happiness and yet I am still okay. I don't even feel the piece part with me, it feels as if it's always been a void there. A blank spot. A black hole.

The feeling is indescribable, I'm like an object that knows it's being used and yet unwilling to stop it from happening. It's a do what you please mentality, I'll be okay no matter what as long as your happiness is on the rise.

I'm not broken and yet I need to be fixed.

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