Tears Without Me

Chapter One: Desire

Ashley rushed backstage as the audience continued to chant, "HALSEY! HALSEY! HALSEY!" She heard between sets that one of her biggest celebrity crushes was in town and was looking to meet her on her tour bus after her show. She was so nervous and she was frantically changing into her best outfit. She leaned in front of her mirror and patted the sweat off her skin with a small towel. She quickly reapplied her lipstick and some more mascara on top of her already dried application.

Suddenly she remembered she had a poster of Harry on her wall in her tour bus. Her eyes bulged out as she turned to run for the door. Her team was heading through her door congratulating her on an amazing show. She tried so hard to not come across as rude but she REALLY needed to get to her tour bus before anyone allows Harry in. "Guys, I love you so so much but I gotta get to my bus like yesterday!" Before they could even respond she was already out the door.

She rushed down a long hallway and through a side exit leading to the parking lot. She pushed the door open and a hoard of fans began screaming and rushing to the door. "SHIT SHIT SHIT!!!" She immediately shut the door. A second later the door opened and a big security guard peaked in, "where do you need to go?" He asked. "I gotta get to my tour bus!" Ashley responded anxiously as her hands fluttered.

The security guard signaled to another guard outside and then quickly waved Ashley over and he huddled over her with his jacket and rushed her through the crowd. She could feel the sea of hands reaching and grabbing for her.

Finally she got through the door of her bus as she yelled out, "Thank you!!" The guard called back, "no problem!" Then door was closed and she immediately locked it. She rushed over to her room on pulled two posters down and placed them carefully inside her closet. She went to her make up mirror and pulled a small magazine clipping of Harry off of the corner and put that in the closet as well. She did a sweep of the whole bus to see if there was anything incriminating.

Just then there was a knock on the door of the tour bus. She jumped and quickly checked herself in the mirror once more before heading to the door. She suddenly saw her tshirt with Harry's face on it crumbled next to a laundry basket. She gasped and quickly threw it in the closet and slammed the closet door shut. She rushed to the window to make sure it wasn't just fans.

There she saw two men in suits, one woman wearing expensive sunglasses, and right there in front of her was Harry Styles. "Oooo lord.." Ashley whispered under her breath. She took a deep breath and opened the door. The woman in the sunglasses with a huge smile held her hand out to Ashley, "There she is! THE Halsey!" Ashley chuckled as she shook the woman's hand, "Hello! You can call me Ashley." "I'm Harry's guide while he's in town. My name is Monica."

Ashley stepped to the side to allow them all to get on the bus. Monica stepped on first and suddenly Ashley was face to face with Harry Styles. She immediately felt electricity even though he was wearing shades. He stepped up onto the bus and said, "Hey, I'm Harry. It's so nice to finally meet you!" Ashley stumbled on her words but managed to say, "Hi! I'm Hals—Ashley! Sorry Ashley..it's Ashley!" Harry chuckled as he removed his shades.

Ashley put her hand over her heart when she looked into Harry's eyes as he smiled at her. She was trying so hard to keep it together. Her heart was pounding. One of Harry's security guards came in and shut the door behind him. The other stood outside the door to keep the fans from trying to infiltrate the bus.

"Let's all have a seat. Can I get you guys anything?" Ashley said as she moved toward her fridge. "I'll have a water," Harry said. "I'll take one as well," Monica said. Ashley glanced at the security guard, "anything for you or the other—" "no thank you ma'am," he responded stone faced.

"Ashley grabbed three waters and sat at the kitchen table with Harry and Monica. "So, what brings you here?" Ashley asked. "Well I was hearing talk that you and Taylor Swift were going to embark on this huge U.S. tour," Harry began. "Yes that's right," Ashley responded. "So I had a thought...how wild would it be if I were to join that tour?" Harry almost seemed like he was joking. Ashley giggled until she realized he was serious. "But...wait...you and Taylor were like... I mean don't you two hate each other?" Ashley squinted in confusion. "It was a rocky one yes. But that's what makes it so brilliant. Imagine me and Taylor on stage together after all that drama?!"

Ashley sat back and thought about it, "well okay so I personally would love for you to come on tour with us, but—" "PERFECT! Then it's settled!" Harry jumped up and motioned for Monica to follow him out. "I'm gunna go talk to my manager and we'll hammer out the details later!" Ashley's eyes bugged out as she tried to find the words to politely tell him that she should definitely clear it with Taylor first. "But I—" Ashley tried to explain but Harry gave her a big hug and immediately tore out of the bus and just like that, he was gone. Ashley just stood there with her arms still out from the hug thinking "what the hell just happened?"