Randomness Book

Song translation 9: "Miss Wanna-Die"

Also: this song doesn't have an official Youtube upload, so I'll link the Vocaloid Lyrics Wiki page since that has the Niconico link (which doesn't work here for some reason): https://vocaloidlyrics.fandom.com/wiki/シニタイちゃん_%28Shinitai-chan%29

This was a bit of a breath of fresh air after dealing with MARETU's work (and other confusing things). 

"Miss Wanna-Die."

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Me ga sameta basho ni wa shiroi kabe hokenshitsu

I woke up in a place with white walls: The school infirmary

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Okujou ni itta kioku wa tochuu de omoidasenai

I went to the rooftop. I can't remember what happened on the way

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Te o nobasu kimi ga iru todokanai

You're there, reaching out your hand. I can't reach it

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Dokomade mo nobiteku kono ude demo mada

Even with these arms stretching out forever, I still

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Ano ko o kosenakute

Can't surpass that kid

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Aa shinitai shinitai demo shinitakunai

Oh, I wanna die, I wanna die, but I don't wanna die

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Kimi ga tomete kureru ka ra

Because you'll stop me

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Ikitsu kizu o kasanete mo mada tarinai tarinai (tarinai)

No matter how many wounds I accumulate, it's still not enough, not enough (not enough)

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Aa shinitai shinitai demo shinitakunai

Oh, I wanna die, I wanna die, but I don't wanna die

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Nakase takunai hito ga iru kara

Because there's a person whom I don't want to make cry

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Ikitsu kizu o kasanete mo mada tarinai tarinai (tarinai)

No matter how many wounds I accumulate, it's still not enough, not enough (not enough)

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Hitoriboochi kakusu kimi no kakera

All alone, I hide the fragments of you

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Asobi ga sugita mitai kagami ni utsutta

It seems the game has gone too far. Reflected in the mirror

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Akai hitomi de hohoemu sugata

Is a red-eyed, smiling figure

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Ne, ikitai ikitai honto no kimochi

Hey, I wanna live, I wanna live-- that's how I truly feel

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Todokanai mama kietakunai

I don't wanna disappear while my feelings still haven't reached you

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Zujou no benitengu wa oboeteru

The *poisonous mushrooms on my head remember

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Kimi ga doko ni

Where you are

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Aa shinitai shinitai demo shinitakunai

Oh, I wanna die, I wanna die, but I don't wanna die

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Kimi ga tomete kureru hazu dakara

Because you're bound to stop me

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Nando kioku o keshite mo mada tarinai tarinai (tarinai)

No matter how many times I erase my memories, it's still not enough, not enough (not enough)

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Aa shinitai shinitai shinitai

Oh, I wanna die, I wanna die, I wanna die,

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Demo mou shinenai kimi ga koko ni ite kureru kara mou sabishikunai

But I can't die now. Because you're here with me, I'm not alone anymore

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Raaraara rarara rarara rarara

La~ la~ la, lalala, lalala, lalala

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Kienai itami kieru kioku mata kurikaeshite fueru kizu

This unceasing pain, my vanishing memories-- the cycle repeats again and my wounds increase

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NOTES:

*Specifically, the word "benitengutake" refers to Amanita Muscaria, also known as Fly Agaric, a type of poisonous mushroom.