"what?" Jade shouts at me looking more panicked now "just because i'm close to Aria doesn't mean i'll be a bad dad to any other kids" i shrug sitting up her eyes widen as she realises what i've said. it just upsets me that she can't talk to me about it more than anything and i just worry what she thinks of me "i didn't mean it like that" she says as i stand up i just shrug but as i go to walk out the room she grabs my arm pulling me back "Jade don't"i mutter under my breath shutting my eyes, i'd rather not talk about it i'd rather she just leave me to get over it on my own "your far from a bad dad"she says loosening her grip on my arm i pull away walking out to the hallway i just shrug because what's the point of even fighting it
Jade
"answer me" i mutter just looking at him confused as he just stands there i walk over standing in front of him but he just looks away "well come on Niall i'm sorry but we can't just give up" i slightly exclaim starting to get slightly concerned that we'll wake Aria up he just moves me out of his way walking down the stairs i quickly follow him down and into the living room he sits himself down on the couch and just starts to flick through the tv "do you even want this?" i slightly shout as anger just builds up in me
i'd rather him speak back at me because ignoring me is just getting me ten times more frustrated he just gives me a look that could kill before slightly laughing "of course i do" he shouts standing up scaring me a little "of course i fucking do but it doesn't just happen like that Jade" he shouts looking the angriest i've ever seen him. maybe i shouldn't have said what i did to Perrie because it was just a silly thought but i had to be reassured it was silly "i mean what do you want me to do, take you to a club get you drunk and take you back to my place?" he shouts i just stand there unsure of what to say because he's right.
"i'm sorry" i mutter tears building up in my eyes he just looks at me a little confused, most likely because i've gone from feeling extremely angry to guilty very quickly, i guess it happens so quickly because of my past relationships i'd get so angry when they'd do something wrong and i'd try to fight back but they'd hit me or get in my face and i'd panic and just become terrified "me too" he mutters walking over to me but i just shake my head "i need to go see someone" i mumble making him even more confused as i run out of the room grabbing my coat and keys and running out the door.
i jump into my car driving off as quickly as possible trying to wipe my tears as much as i can so they don't blur my eyesight, i don't have many regrets but when i hurt Niall it's something i regret more than anything it makes me feel like an awful person and generally hurts my heart, i quickly park up on Jesys driveway jumping out the car and running to the door banging on it as loud as possible "oh my goo- Jade"she exclaims as she opens the door i just weakly smile at her as she grabs my arm pulling me into the house and straight into the kitchen
"what's happened?" she exclaims sitting me down and instantly putting the kettle on i just mess with my rings for a second trying to come up with a sentence "i made Niall think he was a bad dad and we had a tiny argument because he wasn't in the mood to try and i got angry" i burst out her eyes widening as she puts a mug of tea in front of me and sitting down next to me "why did he think it?" she asks taking a sip of her drink i just sigh putting my head in my hands
"i told Perrie about some of my stupid thoughts and he heard" i groan as she just rubs my back. it gets ten times scarier when i argue with Niall then when i argue with anyone else because he's not only my husband but also my bestfriend and if i was to ever lose him i'd be completely lost in myself "all's i can say is that's bad timing if i knew it" she sighs pulling me close to her i give her a confused look as she pulls out her phone the time changing from 11:59 to 12:00 and the date changing from September 12th to the 13th, oh fuck
Niall
i walk out onto the balcony holding Aria close to me while she cries into my bare chest right now i could cry too but i can't do that in front of her. i sit down at the table looking up at the stars all of them shining brightly the sky completely clear, it's a really nice night for September it's still a nice warm temperature which is shocking for England. i can't help but feel like i overreacted what happened maybe i should have just forget as soon as i heard but i couldn't help but over think it which is probably one of the worst traits i have
bad situations are horrible but when your an over thinker there ten times worse because they seem so much worse in your head than they are in reality, even the most minor things tend to break your heart because to you they have tons of consequences but in everyone else's head it's already been forgotten about. "happy birthday to me" i quietly whisper kissing Arias forehead as her cries start to settle down. i hope 23 hasn't started off the way it wants to carry on.
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niallhoran welcoming in 23 ! louistomlinson: happy birthday brooooo harrystyles: damn your getting old man. liampayne: niall it's midnight go to sleep but also happy birthday
