Dear Elizabeth

For Jenn

Dear Jenn,

You were once my everything,

Even though it caused me a lot of pain,

But you believed Michaela's lies,

And I had to pay the price,

I became her target, a piece of crap,

I shudder as I remember how she treated me, it's a bit sad,

I remember all the fun conversations we had, Jenn,

I never forgot your words, there was no way,

You were all I thought about, there was no way out,

But when she came along, you took her side,

You believed her without a doubt,

I remember one time on the phone, you started singing,

And I laughed,

You asked what I was laughing at,

And thought you sang bad,

But I was lost in your voice,

There was no other noise,

Only you, your steady breath,

Your laugh, but Michaela took it all,

After we stopped talking, she would still get mad,

Upset about how you would repeat phrases I had said,

With no mercy, she walked all over me,

And with her, all the girls in geography class agreed,

They all turned against me, you should've heard what they would say,

All their mean words would take my breath away,

They left me broken, I couldn't be fixed,

The hard part was that I was surrounded by them,

They sat around me, and talked like I wasn't there,

Their words were hurtful even though they never used my name,

But of course, I never showed them my pain,

I would leave the classroom with my head held high,

Trying to prove that they couldn't break me down,

After four years, I got in touch with you again,

I apologized for every hurtful word I said,

To my surprise, you had already forgotten who I was,

But you forgave me, and I've moved on,

After you, I lost a bit of control,

Even when I was falling for Kate,

I thought about you all along,

Sometimes I still find myself listening to the songs you used to sing,

I realize now that there's a part of you in me which will never leave,

I truly wish you the best,

I've let you go because now everything makes sense.

Elizabeth