Sometimes I be trippin.
Idk why tho...it's like I don't have control over myself. I do shit..a lotta shit...shit that most people wouldn't understand.
I live differently than most people. I've already been thru more than most people twice my age. I'm 16 yrs old but I never date anyone around my age anymore. They're too childish & squeamish. I'm tired of being made out to be a freak. I like giving dis beefcake & 👅to females who can handle it👌🏼
Only some can't💯 Let's be real...I had one enjoy it too much then she felt guilty. Cuz it wuz little old me who fucked her 69 ways from Sunday. It wuz something about her dat made me wanna fuck her...make love to her all the time. I knew better.
Most girls I have sex with can't handle me & my antics😏 I've had quite a few made a mess of themselves while I wuz digging in dat. It wuz nice to meet someone who could take all I wuz giving. She wuz kind & cuddly, loving...strong. But she didn't wanna be for me😔
I've done some shit I tell yu💯Some things I'm not so proud of, but they were done for a reason. It wuz for love, for connection.
It's been hard, staying away...but I'm trying to do wuts right for all parties involved. I've been trying to stay away from interacting with my all of my exes. They be bugging for real...they like to play mind games wit me. I could expect dat kinda shit from dem, cuz it seems they'll do anything to be near me just to get near my dad.
It's been harder for me lately. Ik I fucked up. I like to do shit my own way. Sure, I follow my dad's rules but I'm a delinquent remember, a sexually gifted & active one😏😈 When I wanna know about something, I do wut I have to to find out💯 I wanted to know wut some pregnant pussy felt like...tasted like..., so I did. I must say it wuz an experience, each time.
Two of my exes tried to get me to give em a baby but thx Goddess I didn't do it. Ain't gon lie, recently I tried wit someone but it didn't work out. Ik I'm young in age but I'm wise in yrs. I wouldn't mind being a young dad. Ik how to make money. Ik how to take care of someone. Ik how to love despite all dats happened.
Right now, I try not to interact wit too many people, especially females. I still meet new girls every time we go grocery shopping, plus when we decide to venture around thru the neighborhood by bikes I come across a few tings. But ik me. And ik wut I want.
I've been trying to chill lately, as in no astral traveling, although I did out of impulse...I went to someone I'd been wit recently...ik I shouldn't have but I wuz in need of something...I just wanted someone to feel...someone to feel on...someone to feel me.
My midnight visitor came thru & not a minute too soon. Ik I may seem to be an asshole but I have feelings too...& Ik when I've done wrong😔but I needed wut I needed & if I can't get it from the one I want trust I'll get it from the ones I'm wit💯
Anything I need not to be a nuisance.
But I have my own needs tho...dis never understood. I have my own beast inside of me. Ik wut I like...wut I want...wut I need...I'm used to being wit someone of the opposite sex all the time...I'm used to squeezing & sucking on tatas...I'm used to eating dat pussy...I'm used to going ham in dat ass...I'm used to all dat...it's hard when I try to chill & lay in the cut...when I try to be good.
I told y'all I be tripping...I just don't know why.
