dear diary; CHARLI D'AMELIO ✓

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eleanor ➳

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6/12/20

dear diary,

i got charli's number and instagram. first, i started by lurking through her insta and oh my gosh. she's a literal angel. she's heavenly. nothing less than 7,000 chef's kisses for her. then, she followed me back and texted me first. i was freaking out. and then i did the STUPIDIEST THING!!! i accidentally liked one of her posts from 2017... who else does that??? just me!!! then she texted my number (because i gave her my number) and she noticed my mistake.

we had a cute convo and i had to make sure that she did like girls romantically. i refuse to fall for a straight girl and get my feelings hurt. she said she would talk to me later, so i'm writing an essay to pass time.

i really hope that she doesn't remember our interaction from when we first met. UGH. i am a little to free with throwing around the l word. i didn't mean to. it was out of habit.

love, eleanor ♡

p.s look at my doodles!!! maybe charli likes doodles. i'd doodle for her ¨̮

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i look up from doodling to see a notification on my phone.

charli
hey again!

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i M E S S A G E

charli
hey again!

eleanor
omg hi

charli
are you going to the library tomorrow

charli
or...

eleanor
i am

eleanor
i have to meet my partner so we can check our essays

eleanor
i wish i didn't take research

charli
why

eleanor
because of the summer assignment :/

eleanor
i hate it here

charli
i'm sorry 🥺

eleanor
it's not your fault

charli
i'll try to cheer you up!

charli
look at this!

charli
🦦🦦🦦

charli
🦦🦦🦦🦦🦦🦦🦦

eleanor
adorable

charli
did you know what river otters hold hands while sleeping so they don't lose each other

eleanor
oh my god

eleanor
that's so sweet

eleanor
i'm gonna cry

charli
they're adorable

eleanor
darn

eleanor
i have to go now

charli
aw

charli
okay

charli
talk to you soon!

eleanor
absolutely!!!

charli
:)

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author's note

jenna marbles is taking a break from youtube and might not come back. this breaks my heart so much. she's my emotional support youtuber and i love her with my whole heart. i respect her decision though as it's not my place to accept her apology for the black community. i accept her apology as an asian and i can tell that she has grown from making these disgusting jokes.