dear diary; CHARLI D'AMELIO ✓

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eleanor ➳

i jump onto my bed after getting home from the library, plopping down on my fluffy blanket. i move to the edge of the bed to grab my phone from my bag.

i open my phone after getting it out and take off my clear phone case, taking the piece of paper out. i stare at the instagram icon and stare at the paper.

do i follow charli on instagram or is it too soon?

i open up instagram and go to the search bar and type in charli's user. i look from my phone screen to the paper. phone to paper. paper to phone.

i can't.

but...

no.

...

i click on her username, follow her, and start looking through her profile. she's a dancer and loves dunkin coffee. she's stunning in every photo and can't take a bad photo.

charlidamelio started following you. just now

[charlidamelio] charli d'amelio
hi eleanor!

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I N S T A G R A M

charli d'amelio
hi eleanor!

eleanor ♡
hi charli!

charli d'amelio
nice to see you here

charli d'amelio
how are you?

eleanor ♡
i'm alright, thanks

eleanor ♡
how are you??

charli d'amelio
i'm great!

charli d'amelio
can i have your number?

eleanor ♡
omg

eleanor ♡
buy me dinner first tease

charli d'amelio
not like that!!

charli d'amelio
i want to get to know you better and not over dms

charli d'amelio
please 👉🏻👈🏻🥺

eleanor ♡
well, if you say please

eleanor ♡
(xxx) xxx-xxxx

charli d'amelio
i won't disappoint

eleanor ♡
i would hope not

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i go back to her profile and scroll even farther through her feed. i'm not careful while lurking because i accidentally like a photo from 2017. i quickly unlike the photo and face plant on my bed.

my phone vibrates when i get a text message from a random number.

(xxx) xxx-xxxx
hey stalker ;)

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i M E S S A G E

(xxx) xxx-xxxx
hey stalker ;)

eleanor
um

eleanor
i have no idea what you're talking about

(xxx) xxx-xxxx
oh so you didn't go through my instagram and like a pic from 2017

eleanor
:/

(xxx) xxx-xxxx
sorry

(xxx) xxx-xxxx
i just find it a little funny that you went through my insta

eleanor
i wanted to learn more about you

charli
we're talking now :)

charli
so fire your questions away

eleanor
uhhh

eleanor
do you listen to sweater weather??

charli
yes 🥰

eleanor
a win for the ladies

charli
haha you're cute

charli
do you by chance?

eleanor
i'm more of a girl in red type of girl

charli
😊

charli
are you free later???

eleanor
yEs

charli
cool!

charli
i have to do some chores

charli
talk to you soon!!

eleanor
i can't wait!!!

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author's note

i'm thinking about luke hemmings with a lip ring. uGH that iconic lip ring. i was so distraught when he first lost it. i wanna go back to 2014-2016 because that was my peak.

i thought i was hot shit in my head-to-toe bethany mota outfits with vans and applying baby lips and learning how to penny board. while lorde, marina and the diamonds, the neighbourhood, the 1975, 5sos, and one direction blasting. i miss her.

omg and shawn's ep was released and life of the party because my summer anthem 🥺