You know, maybe I would've given you another chance
Maybe I wouldn't have stopped
Maybe I would still be miserable like I was beforeI probably would've been
Probably would've cried over you some more
Told myself that "hell, if my own best friend can't love me, why would she?"But I didn't
And I'm notAnd I've tried so hard to forgive you and forget
I think I'm halfway there
But I don't think I'll ever forgetYou see, that hope I had
That hope that, maybe we could be okay
Maybe we could actually start over and be friendsYou crushed it with those words
"You're not Pumbaa in my phone anymore" or something of the sortCome to think of it, you haven't called me that since the 8th grade
At all, not this year, not over the summer
Not onceYet I called you Tamone countless times
Maybe not to your face
But that's who you were to meMy Tamone
Meanwhile, I was your nothing
Just someone you call by their nameLike we werent friends for years
Like we didnt talk all the time, almost everyday for 2 years straight
Like we didnt joke aroundHELL, like we didn't write a goddamn fanfiction together
I thought I was your best friend
I thought I was your person
You were mine
For quite a whileBecause before everything went to shit
We were best friends
And we gave each other those nicknames in the 7th grade
BEFORE I EVEN FUCKING CAME OUTSo don't try to tell me that it was a dating thing
Or that it was only a substitute for a pet name
Because it wasn'tIt was ours
Its what made us best friends
Its what showed everyone else that WE were each others personBut we're not now
You're not my Tamone anymore
You're not my person or even a friend
And my hopes of one day becoming that, they're goneSo you wont have to worry about me being in your way or getting you gifts or trying to talk to you or giving you a hug
I won't do that anymore
Because that's what friends do
And if I'm not your Pumbaa, I'm sure as hell not your friend either
.
But I'm glad you said that
I'm glad I'm just "Melody" in your phone now
I'm glad that I'm like everyone else to youI'm glad you can forget me so fast
I'm glad that I'm not your personBecause I never want to be again
I never want to wait and beg for you to love me
I never want to be special to youBecause special people, shouldn't be treated like shit
Your person, shouldn't be treated like shitYet I was
So don't do that to someone else
Dont give them a nick name like that and be great friends unless you're going to treat them like that
Don't run away and get scared
Dont leave them for someone elseDont do to them what you did to me
Or herBecause neither of us deserved it
As much as I loved being your Pumbaa, I love being their babygirl more
YOU ARE READING
Blue
RandomPoetry cause I'm bored and thought that I should share my thoughts. Also I have some other ones that I may or may not post that are on Mirakee. My username for Mirakee is melmel_elizabeth. I hope you enjoy, my crazy bitches!