I feel like I'm always preoccupied
And I hate it
Because I won't look at my phone for hours
And then see that you called me 4 hours agoAnd I'll call back, not expecting an answer
I simply wanted to leave you a message
Something to wake up toAfter all, you told me goodnight
It'd only be fair if I told you good morning
Even if it is 12 AMBut you answered and there was noise
I said hello
The call endedI didn't want to call again, it had seemed that I woke you up
So I apologize for interrupting your sleepI had heard the way your voice shook
And how you were trying to sound as normal as you could
I appreciate your effortsAnd I'm sorry that I couldn't get back to you sooner
Or else I would have
And instead of writing this, I would say itSo I might wake up and wish you a good morning
Or I might just wait to hug you and say itI don't mean to sound like you're not a priority
Because you are
But it seems nowadays I'm struggling to put myself firstI see you're trying
Thank you
I'll try to be here the best I canBut this is not a one time deal
This is how friends communicate
So I'm hoping that if I don't to hear your voice or see you
I can at least read your text
Or hear a message of yours on my phoneI'm sorry our paths don't cross as often as expected and that our times don't always match up
But don't let it discourage you
I'll always call you back if I don't answer it
Maybe even leave a messageI miss you
And your arms are warmer than before
I may not feel as loved, not by you at leastBut the little details of my home are trickling back in
Your chuckles
Overdramatic actions
Violent outbursts (which are hilarious)
Your warm hugsSlowly I'm seeing familiarity
And my heart is tired of being cold and alone
It already has a reason to beat, it just wants to be where it feels protected
Safe
Warm
HappyBecause even before those feelings if mine were real, you were still the highlight of my day
And I still loved to cuddle with you
I've always loved you
Just in different waysI'm starting to feel my platonic feelings overpowering the romantic
I'm slowly moving onEven if you left my heart in pieces
It's beginning to find it's way back together.Maybe we'll never be what we were before
Maybe we'll never be normal
We'll simply be us
Tamone and Pumbaa
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Blue
RandomPoetry cause I'm bored and thought that I should share my thoughts. Also I have some other ones that I may or may not post that are on Mirakee. My username for Mirakee is melmel_elizabeth. I hope you enjoy, my crazy bitches!