𝑫𝒆𝒂𝒓 𝑫𝒊𝒂𝒓𝒚

𝒄𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒕𝒆𝒓 23

He was happy, and that was all I ever wanted for him.

"Hello? Earth to Soori?" I got snapped out of my thoughts upon hearing Taehyung's voice.

My eyes looked around to survey my surroundings, we were back at the hospital.

The two of us stood outside, his fingers still wrapped around my wrist, and then sighed simultaneously.

There was just so much reluctance to go back in, when we just got out.

"Do both of us a favour," he started to speak, staring up at the building.

"Plan tomorrow such that we won't ever have to come back." I chuckled, how did he know what I was thinking.

We walked in with matching, dreading footsteps and were immediately engulfed with the strong smell of sanitiser.

It was only when we earned a few stares from others when Taehyung let go of my wrist. We took a lift up to our wards and were greeted immediately by Haeri unnie.

Her eyes, they looked so lifeless?

And for the first time in a while, she walked past us, without saying a word.

Taehyung and I turned to each other with concern in our eyes. Something was not right, that was not Haeri unnie, at all.

I quietly walked to my room, taking the slowest steps just so I could be with Taehyung for those few seconds longer.

And the weird thing was, his pace matched mine.

I halted when I finally stood in front of my room door. I don't want to go in

"Why are you just standing there?" Taehyung asked while in standing in front of his room door as well.

"What about you?"

"Just thinking about someone," he said staring at me.

Is it...

"Her? The pretty one?" asked carefully.

"... The dense one, but yeah."

"What are you thinking about?"

"About how much I like her." Ouch

"Like I said, I could help-"

"Bye Soori, I'll see you tomorrow?"

I nodded my head slightly confused, both at the way he cut me off and how he was still standing there after saying bye.

"Go in first," he finally said.

I didn't want to, but still listened to him.

The room felt suffocating, but I had to get used to it. The next 5 days were just a privilege, not a norm, and I could not allow myself to get used to the fresh air.

I laid on my bed, staring at the stars on the ceiling.

And then I thought about Haeri unnie and remembered the look on her face. My eyebrows scrunched up thinking about what could have happened.

Just at that moment, she walked into my room lifelessly, then sat down on my bed

Her eyes were looking down, and I could see tears glistening in her eyes.

"I'm sorry," she managed to whisper.

Sorry? For what? Then as if she read my mind,

"that you only get 5 more days." So she knows...

I was fuming, Taehyung's dad said that whatever we discussed would only be between me and him, but honestly what did I expect from someone like him?

"It's okay, you don't need to feel sorry," I reassured her, but tears fell from her eyes.

I wanted to engulf her into the tightest hug, but her pager sounded, and so she had to wipe her tears, collect herself, and rush to save someone's life.

When she slammed the door in a hurry, I took out my phone and for the first time, initiated a conversation with the devil.

"What the hell?! You said it was between us." I almost yelled into the phone when he picked up.

"But that wouldn't be fun." This bitch

"So what I can tell Taehyung? The more the merrier? Is that how it is?" I retorted back.

He chuckled, of course, it was all fun and games to him.

"Go ahead, the sooner he knows the better."

I hate him.

"Don't bring anyone else into this."

I then ended the call, not wanting to waste anymore energy on him.

But no matter how much I hated to admit it, he was right. The sooner Taehyung knew the better.

The less it would hurt him, and me. But how could I tell him?

My mind felt so congested, so messy with thoughts, I just closed my eyes and took a deep breath.

And when I opened my eyes again, they travelled to the diary at the bedside table.

It's been a while...

I picked it up and scribbled:

D-5

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a/n:
wow it has been forever hi! hdjsjdow sorry i was just so caught up with other commitments in school and all.

anyway this chapter is full of question marks so i can torture everyone while you all wait for a painfully long time until i update again

ok now more importantly, dear diary reached 2K reads HOW I DIDNT EVEN UPDATE 😭thank you so so much i'm overwhelmed honestly. i've said before that i never ever thought that this book would get so far, but the support and love is really so amazing please i dont deserve any of it <3

ok short dedis:

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ok this is so long so i will end it here but i promise i'll keep going even though i have the WORST update game i won't ever give up on this book.

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