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Dear Seokjin-hyung,
If you're seeing this, then most likely i'm... you know. Not there with you anymore.
Forgive me if this letter fails to show exactly how much you mean to me. But i can't find the words to express them. I love you doesn't seem enough.
It's hurting me so much that i'm writing this right now, and that you're gonna be reading this, and i won't be there.
But the pain that's been consuming me for longer is eating me up slowly. I've reached a breaking point hyung.
I won't be there to hug you. To comfort you. The way you've always done to me since the day we met.
The day we met... seems like such a long time ago, when i first laid eyes on you.Not knowing I was going to fall in love.
All those moments we spend laughing and joking around that I'm the Moonchild and you're the Moon, I meant it Hyung. You're my moon.
You always made my day so much better, even with your lame ass jokes. The way you'd always come to the studio when i was alone, just to check on me or to give me food and drinks when i was tired. They mean so much to me hyung.
You're the most beautiful person I've ever met. My only regret was not being able to tell you that in person. Not that you need informing.
Don't waste tears on me. I'm not worth it.
Keep being you, take care of the maknaes. I don't know how they're gonna take this news. Stay with them.
If you ever miss me, look at the moon. I'm still your moonchild.
I love you Kim Seokjin.
We couldn't be together here, but maybe in another life, we'll meet again. And i won't be so scared of my emotions.It was never your fault. It was mine.
I'll miss you so much hyung. Stay safe.Kim Namjoon
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Kim Seokjin read the letter, and reread a few more times. Before giving a small chuckle and letting the tears fall freely.
"Kim Namjoon you absolute idiot. You idiot," Seokjin said quietly as the tears fell down, staining his shirt. He didn't care. He couldn't find anything to care about anymore.
After all these years, the younger had a crush on him. Why couldn't he see Seokjin felt the same? Or did it ever matter?
Seokjin couldn't help but start hugging himself as reality hit him.
He was never going to see Namjoon again.
No more seeing his adorable dimples anymore.
No more late night hugging or cuddling in the studio.
No more RJ jokes.
He was gone. And he was never coming back.
The boy he loved was never going to come back to him.
And with that, Seokjin fell to his knees, sobbing harder.
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Legacy // BTS AU
FanfictionThe world is harsh. It gets too harsh for someone who's been strong way too long. An AU of Kim Namjoon's letters to his bandmates.