BE MY LADY (Lauren Cimorelli)

Reconciliation

Rylee's Pov

He sat down I looked at him and he still has few to release...

"Get up! We are just getting started..." I said He immediately stood up and I took his gloves and throw it somewhere we went downstairs

"We are going to the beach wanna come?" I said to Alli as I grab some water and gave it to him

"Nope, I'm hanging out with Katherine..." I gave her a smile I noded

"Come on... Nash!" I shouted

"We are gonna run from here to the beach! And channel your pain through running connect with the nature as you run..." He was about to run

"Hold up! I have one more thing to add... You have to wear this..." I said and I gave him a bag with rocks and I started running

"You cannot talk that off until we get there..." I shouted

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We arrived at the beach and he took the back and I finally saw the relief in his face and gave him some water...

"Good job! You made it..." I said

"This is what I always do after He died I release my pain through running and anger through boxing..." He looked at me and he sat with me

"What do you do after?" He asked I smiled

"I listen to the waves as it crash to the surface..." he looked at me and held my hand

"I'm sorry Rylee, I shouldn't have left for that party...  and I shouldn't have turn my phone off..." River said and he started crying and I hush him

"Hey, it's alright... I'm sorry if I made you feel that I blamed you... I was angry not to you or to your father but for what your father did... The wrong choice he made that and I'm sorry too if I failed to let you know or remind you that what your father's decision doesn't reflect who you are! So stop blaming yourself for something you didn't do... Andrew would have been mad to us..." He looked at me in confused

"Because if he was alive he would have told us not to blame ourselves... To be honest I blamed myself for it... Everyday I would ask myself... What if I stay? What if I didn't ran away I would have been able to save him? What if this and that.." I explained

"I was so busy coping up from what I feel and neglecting that you felt more pain that night..." River said

"I wasn't... I wasn't the one saw my brother got shot, I wasn't the one who ran away to find help while seeing my brother choke in his own blood, and I wasn't the one who got chased and kept having this nightmare because of that night"

"But... But y-you d-did... and I-I fe-felt like I don't deserve to... Uhm.. to feel any uhm any grief of loss because y-you weren't grief at all..." He said and he looked down and started crying

"Hey look at me... I didn't grieve outward but I was grieving inside I had to look tough for everyone because if I hadn't than our family would fall apart... Mom and Dad would start fighting and taking sides mom would yours and dad would take mine and Allison will be torn into two... I had too keep it in because if they saw me strong and tough... They would repect my decision..."  I looked away and wiped my tears away

"And I understand that in your point of view Mom and Dad attention are running around me but my world is you guys You and Alli and of course our parents but mostly the both of you..."

"Did you think our parents would have agreed to wait until you guys are ready to leave your whole behind for this family to move on and to have fresh start? I told them not to tell but I asked them to wait... because I knew you weren't ready... and if it was only Mom and Dad's decision you guys would have rebelled..." I said and chuckled I looked at him and smiled