You are a 15 year old girl and Josh Richards is your brother. You fall in love and still your life doesn't go as planned. Your life is crazy in a good, but also bad way....
Just read and I hope you'll enjoy!
Contains:
-self harm
-abuse
-pain
-sadnes...
— After Mads and I finish making some TikToks, I feed Leah and put her back to sleep
Mads: we should get some sleep too, because it has been a long week
Jade: yeah, I am also really tired - we lay down in my bed on the opposite sides
Mads: good night.. - I see her eyes close
Jade: good night.. - I whisper
— I text Quinton 'good night' and then I close my eyes...
— We wake up at 7 am, because Leah is crying. I get up and feed her. She immediately falls back to sleep. I get back in bed and I close my eyes..
— I wake up around 1 pm, because my phone keeps ringing. I have 10 missed calls from Quinton and over a thousand of insta post where I'm tagged in. Also all the boys have texted me a couple times...
- I open my phone and I directly go to Instagram.. My jaw drops... I see this blurry photo:
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Liked by quintonfann, Jadetonshippp and millions of others quinton_amazinggg sorry Jade.... no words...
Quintonfan34 OMG Jade_biggestfann Girl you deserve better💔 *load more comments*
- I run into my bathroom and I take out my little knife.. I have been clean for sooo long and I amn't going to kill myself, because I couldn't do that to Leah... I will just remove the pain... It was all to good to be true anyways...
— I press the knife against my wrist, deep enough to get a cut, but not to far.. Blood starts slowly dripping down my wrist and I feel light headed... I lean against the wall behind me..
?: WHAT ARE YOU DOING!! YOU PROMISED!! - I look up at Mads, tears start rolling down my face
Jade: it was all to good to be true... - I hand her my phone
Mads: Oh no... - she hugs me and I cry into her shoulder
Jade: I always told you I amn't worth living.. now my child is being raised with separate parents and the reason I kept her is because he promised he would be here with me.. forever... — I hug her tight and I let all my tears out
Mads: don't cry you are to good for him and PLEASE never do that again. I couldn't live without you.. - she now also starts crying
— while crying I get a call from Quinton and I answer..
Quinton Jade! Please listen to me.. Jade It's okay... Quinton, I love you and I will always do. I amn't mad... I am just heartbroken.. I'll see you when you get back and we'll go trough how to raise Leah and other difficulties.. Quinton Nooo, JADE!! WAIT!! Jade Goodbye Quinton, thank you for the happiest year of my life..
— I hang up and I go back into the hug with Mads. After a while I put on a fake smile and Mads goes downstairs to make some breakfast. I shower and change into this:
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— I decide to post a picture that Mads made from me while crying. She always tells me how gorgeous I look and how happy I should be, that I should be proud on myself..
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Liked by addisonrae, joshrichards and millions of others Jaderichards thank you for the happiest year of my life... 📸 @madslewis
qgriggss please answer my calls ❤️ addisonrae hunnnn, I'm here for you❤️❤️ Nessabarrett my baby, I'm joining you two. I'll be there tonight ❤️ Fan_1 I am sooooooo sorry queen👑👑👑❤️❤️ Fan_2 stupid boy think that you need him 👑❤️ Hater_1 told you, whore Hater_2 deserved 😳
— I take Leah out of her crib and carry her with me downstairs. Mads holds her while we eat breakfast. My phone rings and I see Josh calling. I walk into the bathroom and I answer..
Jade Josh.. I don't know what to.. I love him soo much... I cut myself again, because I don't know how to handle this pain.. Josh You cut......yourself...
— we stay silent for a couple minutes
Josh I am coming home.. Jade No, Josh don't. You should sta-
— He cuts me off and I look in the mirror. I fix my makeup and I get back into the kitchen. I sit down next to Mads..
Jade: Josh is coming home..
Mads: maybe that's a good thing.. you really need someone right now
Jade: I know, I have you.. and Nessa tonight
Mads: actually...
Jade: what?!
Mads: Josh called us before he called you. Nessa isn't coming and I am leaving when Josh arrives.. You two are going to spend some time together. Just the two of you.. - I kinda like the idea, but I am ruining his whole trip
Jade: but-
Mads: no but. This is the way it is - she looks at me with strict eyes and I laugh
Jade: okay.. - I smile, for real this time
— Mads goes upstairs to put Leah in her crib and I turn on Outer Banks...
