Holding On With Someday (Holding On Series #1)

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"I did that to protect you, to save you from a greater heartbreak you'll ever have."

Grace's brows furrowed as soon as she sees me but I immediately flashed her a smile. I don't know if I did convince her but she smiled at me too. Medyo madilim na sa hall dahil nagsasayawan na ang karamihan sa gitna ng hall, medyo nagtaka pa ako nang makita ko silang kompleto pa rin sa table.

I was about to ask them pero naunahan ako ni Grace. "Where's Callixto?"

"A-Ah, hindi ko alam," sagot ko, hindi komportable sa naging tanong niya.

"Akala ko hinanap mo, ang tagal mo kasi," sabi pa niya.

Umiling na lang ako sa kanya habang nakangiti.

"Kayo? Bakit nandito pa kayo?" pag-iiba ko ng usapan.

"Tayo na kasunod e," sabi naman ni Timo.

Upon realizing that, naalala ko kung anong kakantahin ko. Sinasadya ba 'to ng tadhana? Palihim akong napangisi, pinipigilan maramdaman ang sakit. I tried to keep up hanggang sa tawagin na ulit kami, palakad pa lang ako paalis nang may humawak sa pulso ko. I looked at him, he looked so broken.

But I am broken too, way broken than him.

I slowly removed his hand from my wrist. I gave him a forced smile. I am mad, frustrated, broken, and everything that feels so bad pero hindi ako pwedeng gumawa ng eksena dito, hindi pwede.

I know it's been a while since our eyes last met, too many words were left unsaid. Your head was poking out of the driver's seat, eyes full of tears, I couldn't leave.

I didn't know why Timo chose this song, of all the songs... ito pa talaga, pero wala namang may alam na mangyayari 'to. Na magkakaganon din naman pala, na sa maikling panahon, dito rin pala ang punta namin.

No matter what I do I still feel you coming back to me but I know that you never will so before I say goodbye, would do one last thing for me? Be happy.

Tears started to flow. I couldn't stop it and so I let it all go, I tried not to crack my voice. I tried harder. People started to dance in the center of the hall, pair by pair, and it stings a lot... knowing that I end up being all alone again and him breaking my heart again.

And take, take her to the moon for me, take her like you promised me. Say you love her every time, like how you told me the last time. Someday I know we'll meet again in heaven by the rainbow's end and I only wish you happiness, until we meet again.

Why do I even bother to think that he'll come back without any chance to hurt me or break me again?

Wish I could stick around and fight back your tears. Tell you, 'My love, I'm still here.' Someday we'll understand why I had to leave but for now I need you to set me free.

No matter what I do I still feel you coming back to me but I know that you never will so before I say goodbye, would do one last thing for me? Be happy.

It took a while before I ended the song. My chest ached brutally, I held it. Nagulat si Timo nang halos ihagis ko sa kanya 'yung gitara nang tumalikod ako at nagmamadaling umalis palabas ng hall. Nahirapan akong makalabas sa dami ng tao na nakakasalubong ko na binabati ako.

I forced a smile.

Until my chest tightened. I was barely breathing.

"Bobbie," someone called.

I tried to look back, sumandal ako sa pader, and there I saw Grace and Timo, hingal na hingal din. Agad silang lumapit sa'kin.

"Fuck Bobbie! What happened?" singhal ni Grace. Nakaalalay sa'kin si Timo habang may hinahanap si Grace sa bag niya. "Fuck, matatagalan tayo kung tatawagan ko 'yung driver namin."