bleeding hearts.

109

thursday, 10:45 pm

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"ayaw niyo pa bang bumalik sa hotel?"

they were lying on the sand, watching the moon and stars above the high tide waves infront of them. it was getting late at night, but they were too happy not to leave this kind of view.

"mamaya na, dito muna tayo," sagot lamang ni rylie bago pumikit.

"anong paguusapan natin? pagod na ko kakatawa," singhal ni leigh at hinawakan ang panga. true enough, they had been laughing nonstop. making fun of each other and throwing jokes everytime they want to.

sa hindi malamang dahilan lang ay biglang tumahimik at isa isa silang humiga sa buhangin upang pakinggan ang tahimik na pag hampas ng mga alon sa dagat.

"dreams?" josiah suggested.

"dreams?" leigh repeated. "di ko nga alam pangarap ko eh. i do what i want and what makes me happy pero parang wala pa kong nahahanap na matinong pangarap. i just go with the flow, kasi yun lang yung nararamdaman ko sa ngayon."

josiah nodded, while the rest of them was silent. "ako, i'm hoping for freedom. hindi ko alam, wala namang kumukulong sakin ngayon pero pakiramdam ko di ko magawa lahat ng gusto ko. o baka pareho lang tayo, hindi ko parin talaga alam pangarap ko sa buhay. i was too busy having fun, di ko na alam kung ano bang dapat future yung gugustuhin ko."

rylie followed him. "my dream? just to be happy. yun lang naman. i don't care if hindi ibigay sakin ni dad yung clinic. i don't care if my dream job won't happen. basta masaya ako, okay na yun. after all, you won't love anything you're doing naman if you're not really happy."

jansen sighed and glanced at her. rylie only smiled and encouraged him to speak, so he slowly did.

"i want to make my dad proud," tahimik nitong simula. "tangina, init ng ulo sakin nun lagi eh. di ko alam kung bakit, matino naman ako kumain pag kasabay siya? de biro lang. basta mapasaya siya okay na yun, gagawin ko lahat para maging proud yun."

"he's proud of you naman," rylie smiled.

"di ko rin alam," he only sighed.

"ako, gusto ko ng pamilya." putol bigla ni yves.

"putangina mo, panira ka talaga ng moment," timothy frowned causing the seven of them to giggle. binawalan ni jade ito at sinabing hayaan si yves magsalita.

"gago, no joke nga," yves followed. "gusto ko ng pamilya, aba ewan ko kung bakit. hilig ko sa bata. pero syempre matutuwa lang ako sa ganun pag ready na si jennie," natatawang habol nito.

"pakyu."

"kidding aside, basta pamilya gusto ko. kahit anong mangyari, pamilya talaga."

"my turn na?" jennie chuckled. yves hummed in response as they once again stayed quiet and listened.

"ako, i want people that surrounds me to be happy," she genuinely smiled as she stared at the moon. "hindi ko alam, pero i want to be selfless. my happiness doesn't matter to me, basta makita ko yung mga tao sa paligid ko na masaya.."

"deep naman," ani rylie.

"deepthro-"

"subukan mong magsalita susunugin ko gamit mo," inis na sambit ni jennie kay yves dahilan upang tumawa ito. "joke lang bbq."

"ako na?" tawa ni timothy.

"alam niyo naman na ata," timothy smiled. "aside from making jana happy, siguro pangarap ko yung malaman ng lola ko na susundin ko yung gusto niya. di ko na susukuan yun, gagawin ko talaga. bahala na sa totoong dream job ko basta makuha ko yung restaurant at malaman ni lola na masaya ako dun, okay na."

"hirap mawalan ng mahal sa buhay," leigh commented.

"jana, your turn," jansen reminded her.

"hm?" she softly giggled. "my dream?"

"madami, pero yung pinakagusto ko siguro," she stopped for a moment. "is to heal.."

everyone went silent.

"kasi i hate how one moment, we're happy, tapos after nun aatake yung sakit ko. feeling ko ako yung kontrabida sa grupo. laging nagiging dahilan para matigil yung kasiyahan-"

"don't say that," timothy looked at her lovingly.

"di yun totoo," sambit din ni jennie sakanya.

"we'll always be there to help you kaya," josiah followed, copying the girls' ka-conyo-han.

"uy gago," jansen suddenly interrupted them from consoling jade. "mahal ko kayo, sobra."

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