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SIXTEEN

ALYANNA EUNICE SARMIENTO'S

I was always contented of my life, lahat ng gusto ko at ng mga ka kailanganin ko ay ibinibigay lahat ng magulang ko. I was always thankful for the love they gave me.

Nakagat ko ang labi ko para pigilan ang emosyon nang makita ko si Nath na pababa ng bangka.

Somehow, Iyjo convinced me to call him. He guilt trip me about Nath being clueless about my sickness.

Well, they are all clueless. Nalamangan lang sila ni Iyjo ng kaunti.

I only have days to live. I tried to fight, pero kahit gaano kadami ang pera ni Daddy ay wala naman kaming mahanap na solusyon. I have lupus and most of my major organs have complications.

Nararamdaman ko naman na din, I'm feeling less time.

Buhumos agad ang luha ko ng yakapin ako ng asawa ko. If I the tables turn and I'm able to get cured, I'll love him more than he deserves.

"yua.. Alyanna ko" oh god how I love hearing this from Nath.

Later that day, we all had a mini party by the beach. Sila lang ang masaya sa tequila, I was forbidden kahit nagbiro ako na my liver is already in a bad shape.

Na kakatuwa na kahit asar sa isat isa ay nagawang magpakisamahan ni Nath at Iyjo para sakin. They are talking about me. They share stories and they will both laugh at each others stupidity with me.

Kinabukasan, Iyjo left borawan. Sabi ay may aayusin siya para sa board exam at para na rin daw respeto kay Nath bilang asawa ko na masolo ako.

I hugged him tight, pa sakay na si Iyjo sa bangka pero mahigpit pa din ang kapit ko. Hevs flashing me his brightest smile.

"thank you Iyjo, for everything you did. Magiingat ka"

Tumango siya sakin, Nath is inside our cabin nakapagpaalam na siya kanina. He started walking, my eyes watered.

Huminto siya sandali, sa pagtataka ko ay napahakbang ako papunta sa kanya

Iyjo's eyes are full of tears yet he managed to smile at me
" why do I feel heavy leaving without telling you this?"

He reached for my hand and kissed it
"I love you, Alyanna Eunice. I know you can't love me back but that's okay. Thank you."

Humagulgol ako, kasi for a moment I really thought mahal ko din siya.

I tiptoed and kissed him pagkatapos ay niyakap niya ako. Ang lakas ng kabog ng dibdib ko habang pinapanood siyang kumaway sa akin habang palayo na ang bangka.

Maybe, in some life we'll meet again.

I was the happiest for 3 days, Nath and I played husband and wife again. Sobrang saya ng puso ko na Nagawa namin muli ang mga ito.

I felt better when my body aches so much, he held me for a long time trying to cheer me up.

I became resistant and tolerant sa meds ko kaya mandalas akong nanghihina sa sakit na nararamdaman.

"you could have told me before, aalagaan naman kita Yua. I love you, I'll take care of you"

Kinurot ang puso ko. Nakahiga kami ngayon, kakatapos lang namin magmeryenda kaya niyaya ko siyang mag siesta.

Payapa ang puso ko twing niyayakap si Nath. Mahal na mahal ko siya. Mula ng ipakilala siya sakin bilang fiance ko alam kong mamahalin ko na siya.

"Nath... Alam mo bang mahal na mahal kita?" pahayag ko sa kanya. I looked at him. He kissed my forehead and smiled

"alam ko yua, mahal na mahal din kita. I am sorry if I let you feel you're not enough. I'm sorry I wasn't there to understand you. I was so busy minding my broken heart that I became an ass to you. I'm sorry for all bad things I've said..."

Naginit ang sulok ng mga mata ko. Ito ang kinakatakot ko, ayaw kong matapos ang araw na ito.

" Nath, I'm scared..." humigpit lalo ang yakap niya sa akin

" I was ready. I accepted my fate. Itinaboy kita dahil alam kong masasaktan kita. I'm sorry I ended up being selfish again, nandito ka and I'm going to break you again."

Tumaas baba ang dibdib ni Nath. He's crying. I hate to see the man I love crying over me.

"... Now I'm scared, kasi naglaho lahat ng mga pinaghandaan ko. Mahal na mahal kita Nathaniel. My life spent with you are the memories I'm going to bring up there. Nathaniel, I'm sorry we can't grow old together"

Ang sikip na ng dibdib ko kakaiyak. Ang dami kong plano para sa amin na tinapon ko na lang dahil hindi naman iyon matutupad.

"Yua, mahal na mahal kita. Hindi kita ka kalimutan. You are my wife, you are going to be forever"

Sobrang higpit ng yakap sa akin ni Nath, he was crying but there no remorse. We are just savouring the time left for us.

Nanlamig ang kamay ko, suddenly I saw a young Nathaniel offering his hand to me. It was the first day I met him. Ibinalik ko ang ngiting iyon sa kanya and accepted his hand. Ang init ng palad niya, kasing init ng ngiti niya sakin.

"Nathaniel, please have a good life for me. Live happily with no regrets, love and get married. I'll always guide you and wait for you. We will continue our love by then..."

My eyes are heavy, ipinantay ko ang tingin sa kanya. Nath's bloodshot eyes stared at me. Hinaplos ko ang mukha niya. Inilapit ko ang sarili ko para halikan siya. He's so warm, and I'm getting cold.

" I love you.. " I whispered.

I blinked many times para matitigan pa siya but my eyes are so heavy as well as my body. But despite that, I feel no pain. I took one last look at him then closed my eyes, no longer able to fight it.

Lord, I'm sorry. If I questioned you, if I said bad things against you. I'll wait for your plan for me. Thank you for giving me another memories to bring there.

In my next life, I'm going to love the fullest.