"dead" | yoonmin highschool au

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jimin kneeled down in front of him and grabbed his hands.

"you have to stay here, yoongi."

"w-why?! why should i when i have nothing to stay for?" he said, trying to release his hands from jimin's.

"because even though things are bad now, someday i know you'll do good things. if you have no one to comfort you then that means you know how it feels to be alone, so if one day you meet someone who's alone, you can comfort them so they don't get to the point of coming up to a roof to do what you came to do. think about it, this is only the begining, you still haven't seen so much. my grandma tells me that sometimes the saddest stories have the happiest endings. that's like you."

yoongi listened, tears still running down his face.

jimin continued,

"you must have something to live for. even if it's not a person."

a pause.

"i don't have anything to live for but i have a person to die for." yoongi sniffled.

jimin didn't know where was too far with yoongi, especially since he was so vulnerable right now, so he decided not to ask whether he was talking about his mother or not.

"well, no matter who that person is, i don't think they'd want you to end it so fast. and not like this."

yoongi looked down at his knees that were pressed against the floor.

"besides," jimin continued, "the people who are still here... like jackson with his group of idiots... they've been dicks to you. they're horrible people. are they really worth dying for?"

"no."

"and didn't you mention your dad in your letter? i guess he hasn't been very kind to you... is he really worth dying for?"

"no."

"exactly, the people who've driven you to this don't deserve to see that they've won."

"i know..."

yoongi looked up at jimin and was surprised to see that he also had tears in his eyes.

"why are you crying?" yoongi said, sniffling.

"because i don't want you to do this yoongi... no one deserves to do this."

jimin squeezed yoongi's hands and stood up slowly, motioning for the older boy to follow him.

"cmon, let's go." jimin spoke softly and kindly, a tone of voice that yoongi hadn't heard directed towards him for a long time.

it was strangely comforting.

he slowly stood up with shaky legs and allowed jimin to slowly lead him further away from the edge and closer to the rooftop door.

he looked back at the edge and into the sky.

more tears began to run.

"i don't care."

jimin furrowed his brow, "what d'you mean?"

"i don't care if they don't deserve it... i want to die. it's not about them anymore, it's about me. i want to leave and never come back."

he felt jimin grip him tighter, afraid that he'd run back to the edge of the roof.

"yoo-"

"but i'll come with you."

jimin was shocked, "what?"

"i don't want to be alive anymore. but i'll stay here and i'll go with you because she told me to."

"who?"